He looked once more at the diary and thought: question fundamentals. Madam, show this tired schoolboy your fundamentals, learn the parts, read the book from scratch… that was your tutor’s advice and who are you to ignore the advice of your tutor. Do not ask why Christ was born on Christmas Day, ask whether he was born at all. If God gave us our wit, my dear Turner, He gave us also the wit to see through His simplicity. So why Thursday at all? Why the afternoon? Why regular meetings? However desperate, why did Harting meet his contact in the daylight, in working hours, in Godesberg, when his absence from the Embassy had to be the occasion of a lie in the first place? It was absurd. Balls, Turner, such as they are. Harting could meet his contact at any time. At night in Königswinter; on the forest slopes of Chamberlain’s Petersberg; in Cologne, Koblenz, in Luxembourg or over the Dutch border at weekends when no excuse, truthful or untruthful, need be offered to anyone.
He dropped his pencil and swore out loud.
‘Trouble?’ Cork enquired. The robots were chattering wildly and Cork was tending them like hungry children.
‘Nothing that prayer won’t cure,’ said Turner, recalling something he had said to Gaunt that morning.
‘If you want to send that telegram,’ Cork warned him, unperturbed, ‘you’d better hurry.’ He was moving quickly from one machine to the other, tugging at papers and knobs as if his task were to keep them all at work. ‘The balloon’s going up in Brussels by the look of it. Threat of a complete Hun walk-out if we don’t raise our ante on the Agricultural Fund. Haliday-Pride says he thinks it’s a pretext. In half an hour I’ll be taking bookings for June if we go on at this rate.’
‘What sort of pretext?’
Cork read out loud. ‘ A convenient door by which to leave Brussels until the situation in the Federal Republic returns to normal.’
Yawning, Turner pushed the telegram forms aside. ‘I’ll send it tomorrow.’
‘It is tomorrow,’ said Cork gently.
If I smoked I’d smoke one of your cigars. I could do with a bit of soma just now, he thought; if I can’t have one of those, I’ll have a cigar instead. From beginning to end, he knew the whole thesis was wrong.
Nothing worked, nothing interlocked, nothing explained the energy, nothing explained itself. He had constructed a chain of which no one link was capable of supporting the others. Holding his head in his hand, he let the Furies loose and watched them posture in grotesque slow motion before his tired imagination: the faceless Praschko, master spy, controlling from a position of parliamentary impregnability a network of refugee agents; Siebkron, the self-seeking custodian of public security, suspecting the Embassy of complicity in a massive betrayal to Russia, alternately guarding and persecuting those whom he believes to be responsible. Bradfield, rigorous, upper-class academic, hater and protector of spies, inscrutable for all his guilty knowledge, keeper of the keys to Registry, to the lift and the despatch box, about to vanish to Brussels after staying up all night; fornicating Jenny Pargiter, compelled into far more sinister complicity by an illusory passion which had already blackened her name all over the Embassy; Meadowes, blinded by a frustrated father’s love for the little Harting, precariously loading the last of the forty files on to his trolley; de Lisle, the ethical queer, fighting for Harting’s right to betray his friends. Each, magnified and distorted, looked towards him, danced, twisted and vanished in the face of Turner’s own derisive objections. The very facts which only hours before had brought him to the brink of revelation now threw him back into the forests of his own doubt.
Yet how else, he told himself, as he locked away his possessions in the steel cupboard and abandoned Cork to the protesting machines; how else, the minister would ask, breaking the seed cake on the little plate with his soft, enormous hand, how else do fancies multiply, how else is wisdom forged, and a course of Christian action finally resolved upon, if not through doubt? Surely, my dear Mrs Turner, doubt is Our Lord’s greatest gift to those in need of faith? As he walked into the corridor feeling giddy and very sick, he asked himself once more: what secrets are kept in the magic Green File? And who the hell is going to tell me: me, Turner, a temporary?