A thousand deaths by Jack London

failed. I felt, also, that there was challenge in his attitude.

He was bent upon compelling me to show him the wisdom of pictures.

Besides, he had remarkable powers of visualization. I had long

since learned this. He visualized everything. He saw life in

pictures, felt life in pictures, generalized life in pictures; and

yet he did not understand pictures when seen through other men’s

eyes and expressed by those men with color and line upon canvas.

“Pictures are bits of life,” I said. “We paint life as we see it.

For instance, Charley, you are coming along the trail. It is

night. You see a cabin. The window is lighted. You look through

the window for one second, or for two seconds, you see something,

and you go on your way. You saw maybe a man writing a letter. You

saw something without beginning or end. Nothing happened. Yet it

was a bit of life you saw. You remember it afterward. It is like

a picture in your memory. The window is the frame of the picture.”

I could see that he was interested, and I knew that as I spoke he

had looked through the window and seen the man writing the letter.

“There is a picture you have painted that I understand,” he said.

“It is a true picture. It has much meaning. It is in your cabin

at Dawson. It is a faro table. There are men playing. It is a

large game. The limit is off.”

“How do you know the limit is off?” I broke in excitedly, for here

was where my work could be tried out on an unbiassed judge who knew

life only, and not art, and who was a sheer master of reality.

Also, I was very proud of that particular piece of work. I had

named it “The Last Turn,” and I believed it to be one of the best

things I had ever done.

“There are no chips on the table”, Sitka Charley explained. “The

men are playing with markers. That means the roof is the limit.

One man play yellow markers – maybe one yellow marker worth one

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thousand dollars, maybe two thousand dollars. One man play red

markers. Maybe they are worth five hundred dollars, maybe one

thousand dollars. It is a very big game. Everybody play very

high, up to the roof. How do I know? You make the dealer with

blood little bit warm in face.” (I was delighted.) “The lookout,

you make him lean forward in his chair. Why he lean forward? Why

his face very much quiet? Why his eyes very much bright? Why

dealer warm with blood a little bit in the face? Why all men very

quiet? – the man with yellow markers? the man with white markers?

the man with red markers? Why nobody talk? Because very much

money. Because last turn.”

“How do you know it is the last turn?” I asked.

“The king is coppered, the seven is played open,” he answered.

“Nobody bet on other cards. Other cards all gone. Everybody one

mind. Everybody play king to lose, seven to win. Maybe bank lose

twenty thousand dollars, maybe bank win. Yes, that picture I

understand.”

“Yet you do not know the end!” I cried triumphantly. “It is the

last turn, but the cards are not yet turned. In the picture they

will never be turned. Nobody will ever know who wins nor who

loses.”

“And the men will sit there and never talk,” he said, wonder and

awe growing in his face. “And the lookout will lean forward, and

the blood will be warm in the face of the dealer. It is a strange

thing. Always will they sit there, always; and the cards will

never be turned.”

“It is a picture,” I said. “It is life. You have seen things like

it yourself.”

He looked at me and pondered, then said, very slowly: “No, as you

say, there is no end to it. Nobody will ever know the end. Yet is

it a true thing. I have seen it. It is life.”

For a long time he smoked on in silence, weighing the pictorial

wisdom of the white man and verifying it by the facts of life. He

nodded his head several times, and grunted once or twice. Then he

knocked the ashes from his pipe, carefully refilled it, and after a

thoughtful pause, lighted it again.

“Then have I, too, seen many pictures of life,” he began; “pictures

not painted, but seen with the eyes. I have looked at them like

through the window at the man writing the letter. I have seen many

pieces of life, without beginning, without end, without

understanding.”

With a sudden change of position he turned his eyes full upon me

and regarded me thoughtfully.

“Look you,” he said; “you are a painter-man. How would you paint

this which I saw, a picture without beginning, the ending of which

I do not understand, a piece of life with the northern lights for a

candle and Alaska for a frame.”

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“It is a large canvas,” I murmured.

But he ignored me, for the picture he had in mind was before his

eyes and he was seeing it.

“There are many names for this picture,” he said. “But in the

picture there are many sun-dogs, and it comes into my mind to call

it ‘The Sun-Dog Trail.’ It was a long time ago, seven years ago,

the fall of ’97, when I saw the woman first time. At Lake

Linderman I had one canoe, very good Peterborough canoe. I came

over Chilcoot Pass with two thousand letters for Dawson. I was

letter carrier. Everybody rush to Klondike at that time. Many

people on trail. Many people chop down trees and make boats. Last

water, snow in the air, snow on the ground, ice on the lake, on the

river ice in the eddies. Every day more snow, more ice. Maybe one

day, maybe three days, maybe six days, any day maybe freeze-up

come, then no more water, all ice, everybody walk, Dawson six

hundred miles, long time walk. Boat go very quick. Everybody want

to go boat. Everybody say, ‘Charley, two hundred dollars you take

me in canoe,’ ‘Charley, three hundred dollars,’ ‘Charley, four

hundred dollars.’ I say no, all the time I say no. I am letter

carrier.

“In morning I get to Lake Linderman. I walk all night and am much

tired. I cook breakfast, I eat, then I sleep on the beach three

hours. I wake up. It is ten o’clock. Snow is falling. There is

wind, much wind that blows fair. Also, there is a woman who sits

in the snow alongside. She is white woman, she is young, very

pretty, maybe she is twenty years old, maybe twenty-five years old.

She look at me. I look at her. She is very tired. She is no

dance-woman. I see that right away. She is good woman, and she is

very tired.

“‘You are Sitka Charley,’ she says. I get up quick and roll

blankets so snow does not get inside. ‘I go to Dawson,’ she says.

‘I go in your canoe – how much?’

“I do not want anybody in my canoe. I do not like to say no. So I

say, ‘One thousand dollars.’ Just for fun I say it, so woman

cannot come with me, much better than say no. She look at me very

hard, then she says, ‘When you start?’ I say right away. Then she

says all right, she will give me one thousand dollars.

“What can I say? I do not want the woman, yet have I given my word

that for one thousand dollars she can come. I am surprised. Maybe

she make fun, too, so I say, ‘Let me see thousand dollars.’ And

that woman, that young woman, all alone on the trail, there in the

snow, she take out one thousand dollars, in greenbacks, and she put

them in my hand. I look at money, I look at her. What can I say?

I say, ‘No, my canoe very small. There is no room for outfit.’

She laugh. She says, ‘I am great traveller. This is my outfit.’

She kick one small pack in the snow. It is two fur robes, canvas

outside, some woman’s clothes inside. I pick it up. Maybe thirty-

five pounds. I am surprised. She take it away from me. She says,

‘Come, let us start.’ She carries pack into canoe. What can I

say? I put my blankets into canoe. We start.

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“And that is the way I saw the woman first time. The wind was

fair. I put up small sail. The canoe went very fast, it flew like

a bird over the high waves. The woman was much afraid. ‘What for

you come Klondike much afraid?’ I ask. She laugh at me, a hard

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