An American Tragedy by Theodore Dreiser

“And now tell us, was it a man’s or a woman’s cry? What

kind of a cry was it?”

“It was a woman’s cry, and something like ‘Oh, oh!’ or ‘Oh,

my!’—very piercing and clear, but distant, of course. A

double scream such as one might make when in pain.”

“You are sure you could not be mistaken as to the kind of a

cry it was—male or female.”

“No, sir. I am positive. It was a woman’s. It was pitched too

high for a man’s voice or a boy’s. It could not have been

anything but a woman’s.”

I see. And now tell us, Mrs. Donahue—you see this dot on

the map showing where the body of Roberta Alden was

found?”

“Yes, sir.”

“And you seé this other dot, over those trees, showing

approximately where your boat was?”

“Yes, sir.”

“Do you think that voice came from where this dot in Moon

Cove is?”

(Objected to. Sustained.)

“And was that cry repeated?”

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“No, sir. I waited, and I called my husband’s attention to it,

too, and we waited, but didn’t hear it again.”

Then Belknap, eager to prove that it might have been a

terrified and yet not a pained or injured cry, taking her and

going all over the ground again, and finding that neither she

nor her husband, who was also put on the stand, could be

shaken in any way. Neither, they insisted, could the deep

and sad effect of this woman’s voice be eradicated from

their minds. It had haunted both, and once in their camp

again they had talked about it. Because it was dusk he did

not wish to go seeking after the spot from which it came;

because she felt that some woman or girl might have been

slain in those woods, she did not want to stay any longer,

and the next morning early they had moved on to another

lake.

Thomas Barrett, another Adirondack guide, connected with

a camp at Dam’s Lake, swore that at the time referred to by

Mrs. Donahue, he was walking along the shore toward Big

Bittern Inn and had seen not only a man and woman off

shore in about the position described, but farther back,

toward the south shore of this bay, had noted the tent of

these campers. Also that from no point outside Moon Cove,

unless near the entrance, could one observe any boat

within the cove. The entrance was narrow and any view

from the lake proper completely blocked. And there were

other witnesses to prove this.

At this psychological moment, as the afternoon sun was

already beginning to wane in the tall, narrow courtroom,

and as carefully planned by him beforehand, Mason’s

reading all of Roberta’s letters, one by one, in a most

simple and nondeclamatory fashion, yet with all the

sympathy and emotion which their first perusal had stirred

in him. They had made him cry.

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He began with letter number one, dated June eighth, only

three days after her departure from Lycurgus, and on

through them all down to letters fourteen, fifteen, sixteen

and seventeen, in which, in piecemeal or by important

references here and there, she related her whole contact

with Clyde down to his plan to come for her in three weeks,

then in a month, then on July eighth or ninth, and then the

sudden threat from her which precipitated his sudden

decision to meet her at Fonda. And as Mason read them,

all most movingly, the moist eyes and the handkerchiefs

and the coughs in the audience and among the jurors

attested their import:

You said I was not to worry or think so much about how

I feel, and have a good time. That’s all right for you to say, when you’re in Lycurgus and surrounded by your

friends and invited everywhere. It’s hard for me to talk

over there at Wilcox’s with somebody always in earshot

and with you constantly reminding me that I mustn’t say

this or that. But I had so much to ask and no chance

there. And all that you would say was that everything

was all right. But you didn’t say positively that you were

coming on the 27th, that because of something I

couldn’t quite make out—there was so much buzzing

on the wire—you might not be able to start until later.

But that can’t be, Clyde. My parents are leaving for

Hamilton where my uncle lives on the third. And Tom

and Emily are going to my sister’s on the same day. But

I can’t and won’t go there again. I can’t stay here all

alone. So you must, you really must come, as you

agreed. I can’t wait any longer than that, Clyde, in the

condition that I’m in, and so you just must come and

take me away. Oh, please, please, I beg of you, not to

torture me with any more delays now.

And again:

Clyde, I came home because I thought I could trust

you. You told me so solemnly before I left that if I

would, you would come and get me in three weeks at

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the most—that it would not take you longer than that to

get ready, have enough money for the time we would

be together, or until you could get something to do

somewhere else. But yesterday, although the third of

July will be nearly a month since I left, you were not at

all sure at first that you could come by then, and when

as I told you my parents are surely leaving for Hamilton

to be gone for ten days. Of course, afterwards, you said

you would come, but you said it as though you were

just trying to quiet me. It has been troubling me awfully

ever since.

For I tell you, Clyde, I am sick, very. I feel faint nearly all

the time. And besides, I am so worried as to what I

shall do if you don’t come that I am nearly out of my

mind.

Clyde, I know that you don’t care for me any more like

you did and that you are wishing things could be

different. And yet, what am I to do? I know you’ll say

that it has all been as much my fault as yours. And the

world, if it knew, might think so, too. But how often did I

beg you not to make me do what I did not want to do,

and which I was afraid even then I would regret,

although I loved you too much to let you go, if you still

insisted on having your way.

Clyde, if I could only die. That would solve all this. And I

have prayed and prayed that I would lately, yes I have.

For life does not mean as much to me now as when I

first met you and you loved me. Oh, those happy days!

If only things were different. If only I were out of your

way. It would all be so much better for me and for all of

us. But I can’t now, Clyde, without a penny and no way

to save the name of our child, except this. Yet if it

weren’t for the terrible pain and disgrace it would bring

to my mother and father and all my family, I would be

willing to end it all in another way. I truly would.

And again:

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Oh, Clyde, Clyde, life is so different to-day to what it

was last year. Think—then we were going to Crum and

those other lakes over near Fonda and Gloversville and

Little Falls, but now—now. Only just now some boy and

girl friends of Tom’s and Emily’s came by to get them to

go after strawberries, and when I saw them go and

knew I couldn’t, and that I couldn’t be like that any more

ever, I cried and cried, ever so long.

And finally:

“I have been bidding good-by to some places to-day.

There are so many nooks, dear, and all of them so dear

to me. I have lived here all my life, you know. First,

there was the springhouse with its great masses of

green moss, and in passing it I said good-by to it, for I

won’t be coming to it soon again—maybe never. And

then the old apple tree where we had our playhouse

years ago—Emily and Tom and Gifford and I. Then the

‘Believe,’ a cute little house in the orchard where we

sometimes played.

“Oh, Clyde, you can’t realize what all this means to me,

I feel as though I shall never see my home again after I

leave here this time. And mamma, poor dear mamma,

how I do love her and how sorry I am to have deceived

her so. She is never cross and she always helps me so

much. Sometimes I think if I could tell her, but I can’t.

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