She knew that everything was going to be spoiled now, that he was going to reprimand her, tell her how disappointed he was in her.
She said, “I wanted to be better than everyone else.” She could not bring herself to add, For you.
He looked at her for what seemed a long time, and then he laughed. “You certainly surprised the hell out of everybody.” There was a note of pride in his voice.
Elizabeth felt the blood rushing to her cheeks, and she said, “You’re not angry with me?”
There was a look in his eyes that she had never seen before. “For wanting to be the best? That’s what the Roffes are all about.” And he reached over and squeezed her hand.
Elizabeth’s last thoughts as she drifted off to sleep were: My father likes me, he really likes me. From now on, we’ll be together all the time. He’ll take me on trips with him. We’ll talk about things and we’ll become good friends.
The following afternoon her father’s secretary informed her that arrangements had been made to send Elizabeth away to a boarding school in Switzerland.
CHAPTER 10
Elizabeth was enrolled in the International Château Lemand, a girls’ school situated in the village of Sainte-Blaise, overlooking the Lake of Neuchâtel. The age of the girls ranged from fourteen to eighteen. It was one of the finest schools in the excellent Swiss educational system.
Elizabeth hated every minute of it.
She felt exiled. She had been sent away from home, and it was like some dire punishment for a crime she had not committed. On that one magic evening she had felt that she was on the verge of something wonderful, discovering her father, and her father discovering her, and their becoming friends. But now he was farther away than ever.
Elizabeth was able to keep track of her father in the newspapers and magazines. There were frequent stories and photographs of him meeting with a Prime Minister or a President, opening a new pharmaceutical plant in Bombay, mountain climbing, dining with the Shah of Iran. Elizabeth pasted all the stories in a scrapbook which she constantly pored over. She hid it next to the book of Samuel.
Elizabeth remained aloof from the other students. Some of the girls shared rooms with two or three others, but Elizabeth had asked for a room by herself. She wrote long letters to her father, then tore up the ones that revealed her feelings. From time to time she received a note from him, and there were gaily wrapped packages from expensive stores on her birthday, sent by his secretary. Elizabeth missed her father terribly.
She was going to join him at the villa in Sardinia for Christmas, and as the time drew nearer, the waiting became almost unbearable. She was sick with excitement. She made a list of resolutions for herself and carefully wrote them down:
Do not be a pest.
Be interesting.
Do not complain about anything, especially school.
Do not let him know you are lonely.
Do not interrupt while he is speaking.
Be well groomed at all times, even at breakfast.
Laugh a lot so that he can see how happy you are.
The notes were a prayer, a litany, her offering to the gods. If she did all these things, maybe—maybe—Elizabeth’s resolutions merged into fantasies. She would make profound observations about the Third World and the nineteen developing nations, and her father would say, “I didn’t know you were so interesting” (rule number two). “You’re a very bright girl, Elizabeth.” Then he would turn to his secretary and say, “I don’t think Elizabeth needs to go back to school. Why don’t I keep her here with me?”
A prayer, a litany.
A company Learjet picked Elizabeth up at Zurich and flew her to the airport at Olbia, where she was met by a limousine. Elizabeth sat in the back of the car, silent, forcing her knees together to keep them from trembling. No matter what happens, she thought fiercely, I won’t let him see me cry. He mustn’t know how much I’ve missed him.
The car drove up the long, winding mountain highway that led to the Costa Smeralda, then off onto the small road that wound to the top. This road had always frightened Elizabeth. It was very narrow and steep, with the mountain on one side and a terrifying abyss on the other.