Carl Hiaasen – Basket Case

“But, Mom—”

“Jack!”

A long time ago. That clinched it. When my mother says “a long time ago,” she means at least twenty years—which by my calculations would have made my father no older than fifty-three when he died, and possibly as young as… well, that’s the gut-gnawing, ball-clenching question.

Was he thirty-five? Forty? Forty-six?

One time I came out and asked my mother: “Was he older or younger than I am when he died?”

“Don’t be morbid,” she scolded.

“Come on, Mom. Older or younger than me?”

Younger is what I wanted to hear her say, because that meant I was out of the woods. I’d skated through the year of doom.

“What difference does it make, Jack? When God calls us, we go. Obviously your father got the call.”

“He was in his forties, wasn’t he? He was exactly my age and you’re afraid to tell me!”

“This job isn’t good for you, Jack. Maybe you should try something lighter, like a dining-out column?”

Not knowing the specifics of my father’s death keeps me up some nights. Whenever I speak to my mother I find myself prying a little more, which explains why she doesn’t call so often.

“Just tell me,” I asked her recently, “was it natural causes?”

“Of course,” she replied soothingly. “Death is always natural.”

It was a monologue I’d heard before.

“If a man falls off a twenty-story building,” my mother said, “it’s only natural he should die. Same thing if he lies down on the railroad tracks in front of a speeding train. Or a bolt of lightning strikes him on the thirteenth fairway—”

“Okay, I get your point.”

“The heart seizes up, the lungs puddle, the brain shuts down. End of story.”

“Sheer poetry, Mom. May I borrow that for your eulogy?”

Tonight, waiting for Janet Thrush to call, I impulsively decide to try again. My mother picks up on the first ring.

“Oh hi!” she says. “I thought you might be Dave.”

Dave is my stepfather. He enjoys the occasional late poker game.

“There’s something I’ve been wanting to ask,” I say.

“Oh, not again.”

“Look, you don’t have to tell me what happened or when, or whether it was a car accident or a heart attack or a brain embolism—”

“Jack, I’m very worried about you.”

“—all I want to know,” I say to my mother, “is how you knew about it. I mean, the man had been gone all those years. Did you two stay in touch?”

“We did not!”

“Didn’t he ever call or write?”

“Not once,” my mother declares. “Nor did I expect him to.”

“Then how’d you find out he died? From his family? The cops? Who called you?”

“You’re getting on a plane tomorrow, aren’t you?” my mother says.

“What if I am.”

“You always get weird like this before you go on a trip.”

“That’s not true.” I’m faking and my mother knows it.

She says, “If it makes you feel better, your father didn’t die in an airplane crash. Where are they sending you, anyway?”

“The Bahamas.”

“Poor baby,” says my mother. “I wish somebody’d send me to the Bahamas.”

“I’m going to look at an autopsy report. Wanna come?”

“Yuk.”

“It’s a seaplane. We land in Nassau harbor.”

“Airplane, seaplane, don’t sweat it. That isn’t how your father bought the farm.”

“Don’t I have a right to know?”

My mother laughs. “Maybe we should go on Sally Jessy, you and me. See who the audience cheers for.”

“Did I tell you I get a complete physical every month? Head to toe.”

“That’s a little extreme, Jack. Every month?”

“And I mean a complete physical.”

“See, this is why Anne left you,” my mother says. “This kind of craziness.”

As if I need reminding.

“Who was it back then—Stephen Crane?”

I grunt in the negative. “Scott Fitzgerald.”

“Right!” my mother exclaims.

At the time they put me on obits I was forty-four, the same age as Fitzgerald when he died. I couldn’t get it out of my head, couldn’t sleep, couldn’t stop talking about it—and I wasn’t even a Gatsby fan.

At first Anne tried to help but eventually she decided it was no use. Then she left. On my forty-fifth birthday I instantly snapped out of it, but Anne stayed away. She said if it wasn’t Fitzgerald it would be some other dead famous person, somebody new each year. Often I feel like calling her up and telling her how much better I’m doing at age forty-six, considering the heavy Elvis and JFK portents.

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