he asked.
She didn’t know how, but wasn’t ready to admit to that yet. “Let’s just sit down for a minute.”
While he held out her chair, she saw the candle and asked Tommy if he would light it. He did. Their eyes met over its flame. He reached out and took her hand. And the band played on.
From The Shadow Exploded (pp. 133-34): Perhaps a complete study of Carrie’s mother will be undertaken someday, when the subject of Carrie herself becomes more academic. I myself might attempt it, if only to gain access to the Brigham family tree. It might be extremely interesting to know what odd occurrences one might come across two or three generations back . .
And there is, of course, the knowledge that Carrie went home on Prom Night. Why? It is hard to tell just how sane Carrie’s motives were by that time. She may have gone for absolution and forgiveness, or she may have gone for the express purpose of committing matricide. In any event, the physical evidence seems to indicate that Margaret White was waiting for her….
The house was completely silent.
She was gone.
At night.
Gone.
Margaret White walked slowly from her bedroom into the living room. First had come the flow of blood and the filthy fantasies the Devil sent with it. Then this hellish Power the Devil had given to her. It came at the time of the blood and the time of hair on the body, of course. Oh, she knew the Devil’s Power. Her own grandmother had it.
She had been able to light the fireplace without even stirring from her rocker by the window. It made her eyes glow with (thou shalt not suffer a witch to live)
a kind of witch’s light. And sometimes, at the supper table the sugar bowl would whirl madly like a dervish. Whenever it happened, Gram would cackle crazily and drool and make the sign of the Evil Eye all around her. Sometimes she panted like a dog on a hot day, and when she died of a heart attack at sixty-six, senile to the point of idiocy even at that early age, Carrie had not even been a year old. Margaret had gone into her bedroom not four weeks after Gram’s funeral and there her girl-child had lain in her crib, laughing and gurgling, watching a bottle that was dangling in thin air over her head.
Margaret had almost killed her then. Ralph had stopped her.
She should not have let him stop her.
Now Margaret White stood in the middle of the living room. Christ on Calvary looked down at her with his wounded, suffering, reproachful eyes. The Black Forest cuckoo clock ticked. It was ten minutes after eight.
She had been able to feel, actually feel, the Devil’s Power working in Carrie. It crawled all over you, lifting and pulling like evil, tickling little fingers. She had set out to do her duty again when Carrie was three, when she had caught her looking in sin at the Devil’s slut in the next yard over. Then the stones had come, and she had weakened. And the power had risen again, after thirteen years. God was not mocked.
First the blood, then the power,
(you sign your name you sign it in blood)
now a boy and dancing and he would take her to a roadhouse after, take her into the parking lot, take her into the back seat, take her-
Blood, fresh blood. Blood was always at the root of it, and only blood could expiate it.
She was a big woman with massive upper arms that had dwarfed her elbows to dimples, but her head was surprisingly small on the end of her strong, corded neck. It had once been a beautiful face. It was still beautiful in a weird, zealous way. But the eyes had taken on a strange, wandering cast, and the lines had deepened cruelly around the denying but oddly weak mouth. Her hair, which had been almost all black a year ago, was now almost white.
The only way to kill sin, true black sin, was to drown it in the blood of
(she must be sacrificed)
a repentant heart. Surely God understood that, and had laid His finger upon her. Had not God Himself commanded Abraham to take his son Isaac up upon the mountain?
She shuffled out into the kitchen in her old and splayed slippers, and opened the kitchen utensil drawer. The knife they used for carving was long and sharp and arched in the middle from constant honing. She sat down on the high stool by the counter, found the sliver of whetstone in its small aluminum dish, and began to scrub it along the gleaming edge of the blade with the apathetic, fixated attention of the damned.
The Black Forest cuckoo clock ticked and ticked and finally the bird jumped out to call once and announce eight-thirty.
In her mouth she tasted olives.
THE SENIOR CLASS PRESENTS SPRING BALL ’79
May 27, 1979
Music by The Billy Bosnan Band
Music by Josie and the Moonglows
ENTERTAINMENT
“Cabaret”-Baton Twirling by Sandra Stenchfield
“500 Miles”
“Lemon Tree”
“Mr. Tambourine Man”
Folk Music by John Swithen and Maureen Cowan
“The Street Where You Live”
“Raindrops Keep Fallin’ on My Head”
“Bridge Over Troubled Waters Ewen High School Chorus CHAPERONES
Mr. Stephens, Miss Geer, Mr. and Mrs. Lublin, Miss Desjardin Coronation at 10:00 P.M.
Remember, it’s YOUR prom; make it one to remember always!
When he asked her the third time, Carrie had to admit that she didn’t know how to dance. She didn’t add that, now that the rock band had taken over for a half-hour set, she would feel out of place gyrating on the floor,
(and sinful) yes, and sinful.
Tommy nodded, then smiled. He leaned forward and told her that he hated to dance. Would she like to go around and visit some of the other tables? Trepidation rose thickly in her throat, but she nodded.
Yes, that would be nice. He was seeing to her. She must see to him (even if he really did not expect it); that was part of the deal. And she felt dusted over with the enchantment of the evening. She was suddenly hopeful that no one would stick out a foot or slyly paste a kick-me-hard sign on her back or suddenly squirt water in her face from a novelty carnation and retreat cackling while everyone laughed and pointed and catcalled.
And if there was enchantment, it was not divine but pagan (momma untie your apron strings i’m getting big) and she wanted it that way.
“Look,” he said as they got up.
Two or three stagehands were sliding the King and Queen thrones from the wings while Mr. Lavoic, the head custodian, directed them with hand motions toward preset marks on the apron. She thought they looked quite Arthurian, those thrones, dressed all in blinding white, strewn with real flowers as well as huge crepe banners.
“They’re beautiful,” she said.
“You’re beautiful,” Tommy said, and she became quite sure that nothing bad could happen this night-perhaps they themselves might even be voted King and Queen of the Prom. She smiled at her own folly.
It was nine o’clock.
“Carrie?” a voice said hesitantly.
She had been so wrapped up in watching the band and the dance floor and the other tables that she hadn’t seen anyone coming at all.
Tommy had gone to get them punch.
She turned around and saw Miss Desjardin.
For a moment the two of them merely looked at each other, and the memory traveled between them, communicated
(she saw me she saw me naked and screaming and bloody) without words or thought. It was in the eyes.
Then Carrie said shyly: “You look very pretty, Miss Desjardin.”
She did. She was dressed in a glimmering silver sheath, a perfect complement to her blonde hair, which was up. A simple pendant hung around her neck. She looked very young, young enough to be attending rather than chaperoning.
“Thank you.” She hesitated, then put a gloved hand on Carrie’s arm.
“You are beautiful,” she said, and each word carried a peculiar emphasis.
Carrie felt herself blushing again and dropped her eyes to the table.
“It’s awfully nice of you to say so. I know I’m not not really . .. but thank you anyway.”
“It’s true,” Desjardin said. “Carrie, anything that happened before . .
. well, it’s all forgotten. I wanted you to know that.”
“I can’t forget it,” Carrie said. She looked up. The words that rose to her lips were: I don’t blame anyone any more. She bit them off. It was a lie. She blamed them all and always would, and she wanted more than anything else to be honest. “But it’s over with. Now it’s over with.”
Miss Desjardin smiled, and her eyes seemed to catch and hold the soft mix of lights in an almost liquid sparkling. She looked across toward the dance floor, and Carrie followed her gaze.