“No, Papa.”
“You wouldn’t like that?”
“No thank you, Papa.”
Eugene’s face hardened.
“Well I’d like to see that, Aaron. I’d like to see what you’d do if I was to open you up and have a look inside you.”
There was a new violence in his father’s games, which Aaron couldn’t understand: new threats, new intimacy. Uncomfortable as he was the boy knew the real fear was felt not by him but by his father; fear was Eugene’s birthright, just as it was Aaron’s to watch, and wait, and suffer, until the moment came. He knew (without understanding how or why), that he would be an instrument in the destruction of his father. Maybe more than an instrument.
Anger erupted in Eugene. He stared at the boy, his brown fists clenched so tight that the knuckles burned white. The boy was his ruin, somehow; he’d killed the good life they’d lived before he was born, as surely as if he’d shot his parents dead. Scarcely thinking of what he was doing, Eugene’s hands closed around the back of the boy’s frail neck.
Aaron made no sound.
“I could kill you boy.”
“Yes, sir.”
“What do you say to that?”
“Nothing, sir.”
“You should say thank you, sir.”
“Why?”
“Why, boy? “Cause this life’s not worth what a hog can shit, and I’d be doing you a loving service, as a father should a son.”
“Yes, sir.”
In the shack behind the house Lucy had stopped crying. There was no purpose in it; and besides, something in the sky she could see through the holes in the roof had brought memories to her that wiped the tears away. A certain sky: pure blue, sheeny-clear. Eugene wouldn’t harm the boy. He wouldn’t dare, ever dare, harm that child. He knew what the boy was, though he’d never admit to it.
She remembered the day, six years ago now, when the sky had been sheened like today, and the air had been livid with the heat. Eugene and she had been just about as hot as the air, they hadn’t taken their eyes off each other all day. He was stronger then: in his prime. A soaring, splendid man, his body made heavy with work, and his legs so hard they felt like rock when she ran her hands over them. She had been quite a looker herself; the best damn backside in Welcome, firm and downy; a divide so softly haired Eugene couldn’t keep from kissing her, even there, in the secret place. He’d pleasure her all day and all night sometimes; in the house they were building, or out on the sand in the late afternoon. The desert made a fine bed, and they could lie uninterrupted beneath the wide sky.
That day six years ago the sky had darkened too soon; long before night was due. It had seemed to blacken in a moment, and the lovers were suddenly cold in their hurried nakedness. She had seen, over his shoulder, the shapes the sky had taken: the vast and monumental creatures that were watching them. He, in his passion, still worked at her, thrust to his root and out the length again as he knew she delighted in, ‘til a hand the colour of beets and the size of a man pinched his neck, and plucked him out of his wife’s lap. She watched him lifted into the sky like a squirming jack-rabbit, spitting from two mouths, North and South, as he finished his thrusts on the air. Then his eyes opened for a moment, and he saw his wife twenty feet below him, still bare, still spread butterfly wide, with monsters on every side. Casually, without malice, they threw him away, out of their ring of admiration, and out of her sight.
She remembered so well the hour that followed, the embraces of the monsters. Not foul in any way, not gross or harmful, never less than loving. Even the machineries of reproduction that they pierced her with, one after the other, were not painful, though some were as large as Eugene’s fisted arm, and hard as bone. How many of those strangers took her that afternoon — three, four, five, mingling their semen in her body, fondly teasing joy from her with their patient thrusts. When they went away, and her skin was touched with sunlight again, she felt, though on reflection it seemed shameful, a loss; as though the zenith of her life was passed, and the rest of her days would be a cold ride down to death.