vertical support, a nail still bristling from one of them, a black nail
hole in the other. He wrenched his hands free, too, a spike still
piercing each palm and he just drifted down to the floor, as if gravity
had no claim on him accept what he chose to allow it. He started across
the altar platform toward the railing, toward Jim.
Jim’s heart was racing, but he told himself that what he saw was only a
delusion. The product of a fevered mind. Nothing more.
The killer reached him. Touched his face. The hand was as soft as
rotting meat and as cold as a liquid gas.
Like a true believer in a tent revival, collapsing under the empowered
hand of a faith healer, Jim shivered and fell away into darkness.
A white-walled room.
A narrow bed.
Spare and humble furnishings.
Night at the windows.
He drifted in and out of bad dreams. Each time that he regained a
consciousness, which was never for longer than a minute or two, he saw
the same man hovering over him: about fifty, balding, slightly plump,
with •hick eyebrows and a squashed nose.
Sometimes the stranger gently worked an ointment into Jim’s face, and
sometimes he applied compresses soaked in ice water. He lifted Jim’s
head off the pillows and encouraged him to drink cool water through a
straw Because the man’s eyes were marked by concern and kindness, Jim
didn’t protest.
Besides, he had neither the voice nor the energy to protest. His throat
felt as if he had swallowed kerosene and then a match. He did not have
strength even to lift a hand an inch off the sheets.
“Just rest,” the stranger said. “You’re suffering heatstroke and a
sunburn.”
Windburn. That’s the worst of it, Jim thought, remembering the Harley
SP, which had not been equipped with a plexiglass fairing for weather
protection.
Light at the windows. A new day.
His eyes were sore.
His face felt worse than ever. Swollen.
The stranger was wearing a clerical collar.
“Priest,” Jim said in a coarse and whispery voice that didn’t sound his
own.
ù “I found you in the church, unconscious.”
“Our Lady of the Desert.”
Lifting Jim off the pillows again, he said, “That’s right. I’m Father
Geary. Leo Geary.”
Jim was able to help himself a little this time. The water tasted
sweet.
Father Geary said, “What were you doing in the desert?”
“Wandering.”
“Why?”
Jim didn’t answer.
“Where did you come from?”
Jim said nothing.
“What is your name?”
“Jim.”
“You’re not carrying any ID.”
“Not this time, no.”
“What do you mean by that?”
Jim was silent.
ù’ The priest said, “There was three thousand dollars in cash in your
pockets. ”
“Take what you need.”
The priest stared at him, then smiled. “Better be careful what you
offer, son. This is a poor church. We need all we can get.”
Later still, Jim woke again. The priest was not there. The house was
silent. Once in a while a rafter creaked and a window rattled softly as
desert wind stirred fitfully outside.
When the priest returned, Jim said, “A question, Father.”
“What’s that?”
His voice was still raspy, but he sounded a bit more like himself “If
there’s a God, why does He allow suffering?”
Alarmed, Father Geary said, “Are you feeling worse?”
“No, no. Better. I don’t mean my suffering. Just. . . why does He
allow suffering in general?”
“To test us,” the priest said.
“Why do we have to be tested?”
“To determine if we’re worthy.”
“Worthy of what?”
“Worthy of heaven, of course. Salvation. Eternal life. ”
“Why didn’t God make us worthy?”
“Yes, he made us perfect, without sin. But then we sinned, and fell
from grace.”
“How could we sin if we were perfect?”
“Because we have free will.”
“I don’t understand.”
Father Geary frowned. “I’m not a nimble theologian. Just an ordinary
priest. All I can tell you is that it’s part of the divine mystery. We
fell from grace, and now heaven must be earned.”
“I need to pee,” Jim said.
“All right.”
“Not the bedpan this time. I think I can make it to the bathroom with