Cuckoo’s Egg by C.J. Cherryh

Thorn had thought he knew them. The light that danced in Duun’s eyes alarmed him. He had never seen Duun extend himself against him. Not truly. He understood that now.

Duun’s hand flicked out and touched him on the cheek when he came in. “You’re dead. Dead, Haras-hatani.”

Thorn wiped his face. His centering was gone. He recovered it. (Don’t be bluffed. Turn off the fear. Turn it off, minnow.)

Duun got a grip on him. Bent him back, holding him from falling. Duun let him go; but Thorn rescued himself from that shame with a tumble up again, sand coating his sweating skin.

Duun turned his back on him and walked off.

“Duun. Duun-hatani.” His face burned.

Duun turned. “You don’t have to say can’t. You are that thing. The world doesn’t wait for your moods, minnow.”

“Try me!”

Duun came back and laid him straightway breathless on the sand, then stood looking at him. “Well, it wasn’t can’t that threw you that time. Did I promise you a miracle?”

Thorn rolled over and tried to cut Duun’s ankles from under him.

Thorn ended on his belly this time, spitting the sand that glued itself to his face and hands and body; Duun’s knee was in his back, his arm twisted painfully. Duun let him up and sat down on the sand.

(Invitation?) But Duun held up his hand. “No.” Duun said, “not wise.” Thorn knew where that attack would have taken him-into Duun’s grip when he refused to go sailing over Duun and halfway to the wall. And Duun’s teeth at his throat. Never grapple, Duun had hammered home to him. Nature shorted you, not me. And Duun had grinned at him that day to make the point.

Thorn tucked his knees up and locked his arms about them, panting. Sweat ran into his eyes and he wiped a gritty hand across his brow, flexed the fingers and held them out.

“You’re pulling your claws, Duun-hatani.” Pain welled up and hurt his chest and it was not all the pain of several meetings with the floor. “You’d have me in tatters. You’d tear my throat out. Anybody normal-would.”

“Eyes,” Duun reminded him, with a touch at his own brow-shadowed eye. “That’s worst. You let me at your face. Never.”

“I’m sorry, Duun.”

“You wouldn’t be sorry. You’d be blind. Damn right I pull it. You do that again I’ll scar you. Hear?”

Thorn rocked his body in something like a bow. He hurt. His bones ached as if they had all been reseated.

“Yes, Duun.”

“But as for the claws-they might take you if they could touch you. If you were a fool. I’m very good, Thorn. Doesn’t that tell you something?”

Thorn paused a long time. The ache got into his throat and stuck there, embarrassing him. “That I might be.”

“Did you touch me?”

“No, Duun-hatani.”

“Do I hear can’t now?”

“No, Duun-hatani.”

“The outsiders have gotten into your head. Their moves have infected you. Do you let them touch you?”

“They touch each other. Not me.”

“They touch you-here.” Duun touched his brow. “You lose your focus. Youth, Thorn. Give that up too.”

Thorn drew another painful breath. (They’re yours. Aren’t they? A hatani dictates the moves others make… Duun-hatani.) “What can they teach me you can’t?”

“What is ordinary. What the world is.”

(The world is wide, minnow.)

“Duun-they act like I was nothing unusual.”

Duun shrugged.

“They’re lying, aren’t they?”

“What does your judgment tell you?”

“They’re lying. They’re pretending. You sent them. You’re in control of all of it.”

“Tkkssss. You have a suspicious mind, Haras-hatani.”

“You’ve always been. Is that close enough to beating you? No one’s like me. There aren’t any. I’m different. And they’re so busy not noticing it they shout it. Why, Duun?”

“You build bridges in the sky.”

“On rock. On what I see and don’t see.” Thorn’s muscles began to shake; he clenched his arms about his knees the harder and tried not to show the shivering, but Duun would see. Duun missed nothing. “What’s wrong with me? How did I turn out this way?”

“Doubtless the gods did it.”

The blasphemy shocked him, from Duun. He piled one atop it. “The gods have a sense of humor?”

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