Then came that familiar flicker, as of having taken a step back from reality. I knew that my blood was pooling in my guts, leaving me high and dry, and I resented my subservience to the hydraulics involved. I heard gunshots above the growing roar, as on the soundtrack for a distant show, and even this was not sufficient to draw me back. When your own adrenalin lets you down, who is there left to trust?
I wanted very badly to make it to that hatch and through it. It was not all that distant. I knew now that I would not. An absurd way to die. This near, and not understanding anything …
“I’m going!” I shouted toward the bounding form at my side, not knowing whether the words really came out that way.
The sounds of gunfire continued, tiny as elfin popcorn. Fewer than forty feet remained, I was certain, as I judge local distances in terms of horseshoe-court lengths. Raising my arms to shield my face, I fell, not knowing whether I had been hit, scarcely able to care, forward, into a smooth blank that canceled the ground, the sound, the trouble, my flight.
Thus, thus, so and thus: awakening as a thing of textures and shadings: advancing and retreating along a scale of soft/dark, smooth/shadow, slick/bright: all else displaced and translated to this: the colors, sounds and balances a function of these two.
Advance to hard and very bright. Fall back to soft and black …
“Do you hear me, Fred?”-the twilight velvet.
“Yes”-my glowing scales.
“Better, better, better … ”
“What/who?”
“Closer, closer, that not a sound betray … ”
“There?”
“Better, that cease the subvocals … ”
“I do not understand.”
“Later for that. But one thing, a thing to say: Article 7224, Section C. Say it.”
“Article 7224, Section C. Why?”
“If they wish to take you away-and they will-say it. But not why. Remember.”
“Yes, but-“
“Later for that … ”
A thing of textures and shadings: bright, brighter, smooth, smoother. Hard. Clear.
Lying there in my sling during Wakeful Period One:
“How are you feeling now?” Ragma asked.
“Tired, weak, still thirsty.”
“Understandable. Here, drink this.”
“Thanks. Tell me what happened. Was I hit?”
“Yes, you were hit twice. Fairly superficial. We have repaired the damage. The healing should be complete in a matter of hours.”
“Hours? How many have passed since we departed?”
“Three, approximately. I carried you aboard after you fell. We lifted off, leaving your assailants, the continent, the planet, behind. We are in orbit about your world now, but we will be departing it shortly.”
“You must be stronger than you look to have carried me.”
“Apparently so.”
“Where do you intend taking me from here?”
“To another planet-a most congenial one. The name would mean nothing to you.”
“Why?”
“Safety and necessity. You seem to be in a position to provide information that could be very helpful in an investigation with which we are connected. We wish to obtain that information, but there are others who would like to have it also! Because of them, you would be in danger on your own planet. So, for purposes of insuring your safety as well as furthering our inquiry, the simplest thing is to remove you.”
“Ask me. I’m not ungrateful for the rescue. What do you want to know? If it is the same thing Zeemeister and Buckler wanted, though. I’m afraid I can’t be of much help.”
“We are operating under that assumption. We believe that the information we require of you exists at an unconscious level, however. The best means of extracting something of that sort is through the offices of a good telepathic analyst. There are many such in the place we will be visiting.”
“How long will we be there?”
“You will remain there until we have completed our investigation.”
“And how long will that take?”
He sighed and shook his head.
“At this point it is impossible to say.”
I felt the soft blackness brush like the tail of a passing cat against me. Not yet! No … I couldn’t just let them haul me off that way for an indefinite leave of absence from everything I knew. It was in that moment that I appreciated the deathbed peeve-loose ends, all the little things that should be wrapped up before you go away: write that letter, settle up those accounts, finish the book on the night table … If I dropped out at this point in the semester, it would screw me up academically, financially-and who would buy my explanation? No. I had to stop them from taking me away. But the smooth to soft shadings were on the rise once more. I had to be quick.