“How’d your meeting with Milo go? Has he learned anything about Dr. Mate?”
“Not so far. He asked me to do some research on Mate, thought I’d try the computer first.”
“Shouldn’t be hard to produce hits on Mate.”
“No doubt,” I said. “But finding something valuable in the slag heap’s another story. If I dead-end, I’ll try the research library, maybe Bio-Med.”
“I’ll be here all day,” she said. “If you don’t interrupt me, I’ll push my hands too far. How about an early dinner?”
“Sure.”
“I mean, baby, don’t stay away. I want to hear you say you love me.”
Pure guy.
Often, especially after a day when I’d seen more patients than usual, we spent evenings where I did very little talking. Despite all my training, sometimes getting the words out got lost on the highway between Head and Mouth. Sometimes I thought about the nice things I’d tell her, but never followed through.
But when we made love … for me, the physical released the emotional and I supposed that put me in some sort of Y-chromosome file box.
There’s a common belief that men use love to get sex and women do just the opposite. Like most alleged wisdom about human beings, it’s anything but absolute; I’ve known women who turned thoughtless promiscuity into a fine art and men so bound by affection that the idea of stranger-sex repulsed them to the point of impotence.
I’d never been sure where Richard Doss fell along that continuum. By the time I met him, he hadn’t made love to his wife for over three years.
He told me so within minutes of entering the office. As if it was important for me to know of his deprivation. He’d resisted any notion of anyone but his daughter being my patient, yet began by talking about himself. If he was trying to clarify something, I never figured out what it was.
He’d met Joanne Heckler in college, termed the match “ideal,” offered the fact that he’d stayed married to her over twenty years as proof. When I met him, she’d been dead for ninety-three days, but he spoke of her as having existed in a very distant past. When he professed to have loved her deeply, I had no reason to doubt him, other than the absence of feeling in his voice, eyes, body posture.
Not that he was incapable of emotion. When I opened the side door that leads to my office, he burst into the house talking on a tiny silver cell phone, continuing to talk in an animated tone after we’d entered the office and I’d sat behind my desk. Wagging an index finger to let me know it would be a minute.
Finally, he said, “Okay, gotta go, Scott. Work the spread, at this point that’s the key. If they give us the rate they promised, we’re in like Flynn. Otherwise it’s a deal-killer. Get them to commit now, not later, Scott. You know the drill.”
Eyes flashing, free hand waving.
Enjoying it.
He said, “We’ll chat later,” clicked off the phone, sat, crossed his legs.
“Negotiations?” I said.
“The usual. Okay, first Joanne.” At his mention of his wife’s name, his voice went dead.
Physically, he wasn’t what I’d expected. My training is supposed to endow me with an open mind, but everyone develops preconceptions, and my mental picture of Richard Doss had been based upon what Judy Manitow had told me and five minutes of phone-sparring.
Aggressive, articulate, dominant. Ex-frat boy, tennis-playing country-club member. Tennis partner of Bob Manitow, who was a physician but about as corporate-looking as you could get. For no good reason, I’d guessed someone who looked like Bob: tall, imposing, a bit beefy, the basic CEO hairstyle: short and side-parted, silver at the temples. A well-cut suit in a somber shade, white or blue shirt, power tie, shiny wing-tips.
Richard Doss was five-five, tops, with a weathered leprechaun face—wide at the brow tapering to an almost womanish point at the chin. A dancer’s build, very lean, with square shoulders, a narrow waist. Oversize hands sporting manicured nails coated with clear polish. Palm Springs tan, the kind you rarely saw anymore because of the melanoma scare. The fibrous complexion of one who ignores melanoma warnings.