Then I thought of something much worse. Eric, all that talk of guilt and expiation.
The directed child, the gifted firstborn who’d dropped out to tend to his mother, had seemed to be adjusting. Suddenly leaving his dorm room, sitting up all night… obsessed with guilt because guilt was all he felt?
Involved. Had his father been cruel enough, crazy enough to get him involved? I’d allowed myself to wonder if Eric had been Mate’s slayer. Now that I’d seen his anger at work, those speculations took on weight. Richard’s deal with Goad peters out, so he keeps it in the family. Dad in San Francisco, son down in L.A. for a couple of days with the keys to Dad’s car. I wanted to think Richard was—if nothing else—too smart for that, but if he’d been willing to risk his family by passing cash in a con bar, was there any reason to trust his judgment?
Something—a fissure—had forced its way through this family. Something to do with Joanne’s death—the how, the why. Bob Manitow claimed her deterioration was all due to depression, and maybe he was right. Even so, that kind of emotional collapse didn’t manifest overnight. What had led a woman with two PhDs to destroy herself slowly?
Something long-standing . . . something Richard had reason to feel guilty about? A guilt so crushing it had caused him to displace his feelings onto Mate?
Kill the messenger.
Make it bloody.
Father and son. And daughter.
Stacy sitting alone at the beach. Eric sitting alone under a tree. Everyone isolated. Driven apart. . . something that Mate’s murder had brought to a head? Here I was again, guessing. Obsessing.
Once, when I was nine, I went through a compulsive phase, labeling my drawers, lining my shoes up in the closet. Unable to sleep unless I pulled the covers over my head in a very special way. Or maybe I’d just been trying to shut out the sound of my father’s rage.
I turned off Veteran onto Sunset, raced up the glen, was still groping and supposing when the road to my
house appeared so suddenly I nearly missed it. Hooking onto the bridle path, I sped up the hill, drove through the gateposts, parked in front of my little chunk of the American dream.
Home sweet home. Richard’s was being torn down, brick by brick.
Robin was in the living room, straightening up. No sign of Spike.
“Out in back,” she said. “Doing his business, if you must know.”
“A businessman.”
She laughed, kissed me, saw my face. Looked at the file. “Looks like you’ve got business, too.”
“Things you don’t want to know about,” I said.
“More on Mate? The news said they arrested someone.”
“Did they.” I told her about Korn and Demetri’s drop-in.
“Here? Oh my God.”
“Rang the bell and took him away in front of his kids.”
“That’s horrible—how could Milo do that?”
“Not his decision. The brass went around him.”
“That’s just horrible—must have been hell for you.”
“A lot worse for the kids.”
“Poor things . . . The father, Alex, is he capable of that? Sorry, they’re still your patients, I shouldn’t be asking.”
I said, “I’m not sure they are. And I don’t have a good answer to that.”
But I’d answered her as clearly as if I’d spelled it out.
Sure, he’s capable.
“Honey?” she said, cupping her hand around the back of my neck. She stood on her tiptoes, pressed her nose to mine. I realized I’d been standing there for a long time, silent, oblivious. The file felt leaden. I hoisted it higher.
She put her arm around my waist and we entered the kitchen. She poured iced tea for both of us and I sat at the table, placing Fusco’s opus out of my field of vision. Fighting the urge to walk away from her, throw myself into the FBI man’s crusade. Wanting to build up faith in Fusco’s project, discover some grand, forensic aha! that would exonerate Richard, make me a hero in Stacy’s eyes. Eric’s, too.
Instead, I sat there, reached for the remote control, flicked on TV news. A red UPDATE! banner filled a corner of the screen. A very happy reporter clutched his microphone and warbled, “… in the murder of death doctor Eldon Mate. Police sources tell us that the man being questioned is Richard Theodore Doss, forty-six, a wealthy Pacific Palisades businessman and former husband of Joanne Doss, a woman whose suicide Dr. Mate assisted nearly a year ago. Reports of a possible murder-for-hire scheme have not been confirmed. A few minutes ago Doss’s attorney arrived at the West Los Angeles police station. We’ll update you on this story as it unfolds. Brian Frobush for On-the-Scene News.”