“Partly. You can do more than I can, simply because Catling will be watching me more avidly than you. But that’s not the only reason, Grace. The main reason is that you can actually help me. You’re not just a decoy. You’re a benefit all of yourself.”
Goddamn it, he looked as though he meant that. I felt my cheeks flush, and dropped my eyes to my, as yet untouched, currant bun. I picked it up, put it down, picked it up again, then dropped it, feeling like an utter fool.
I raised my eyes, and saw that he was regarding me with such a gentle smile that my cheeks flamed anew.
I reminded myself forcibly that he’d spent a good few thousand years lusting for my mother, and still did, and that this was most certainly an act.
“What do you want me to do?” I said, my voice a little harder than I’d meant.
Jack’s smile faded, and he spent a moment taking a swallow of his tea.
He explained how he needed to trace out the extent of the shadow. It had to be done on foot rather than by car, or bus, or tube. It had to be felt.
“I need to know not merely its extent, but whether it has frail or strong points. I need to understand its…”
He stopped, struggling to put into words what he felt.
“Character,” I said.
“Yes. Precisely. Can you do it?”
I shrugged, trying to regain the ground I’d lost with the silliness over the currant bun. “If you want,” I said diffidently.
Again, that gentle smile. “I want, Grace.”
I felt the flush threaten again, and so I hurried on with more prosaic matters. “I can mark out what I discover on a map, if you like.”
The smile broadened, just a little, and I wondered if he was laughing at me. “I should have thought of that. Yes, that would be useful. Thank you, Grace.”
Still unsure of myself, I started to toy with the cursed bun again.
“Grace?”
“Yes?”
“Be careful. I hesitated to ask you to do this because of…the murders.”
There had been four now. Another just two nights ago. One more young woman brutally murdered and left under the porch of St Magnus the Martyr. The police were doing all they could to calm the situation, including—according to Harry—setting up a close but surreptitious watch over St Magnus, but the unease within the City was growing.
“Nothing can happen to me, Jack,” I said. “I’m sure Catling will keep me safe. She can’t have me be torn apart.”
“Grace. Please. Be careful.”
I wanted to laugh his concern away, but I couldn’t. He was looking at me so intently I had to shift my eyes, stumbling for something to say.
Before I could make any bigger a fool of myself the teashop lady bustled over and fussed around Jack (first she was on this side of him, then that, wondering if she could get him more tea, or asking him a silly question about New York, and even, gods help me, wondering if he could explain for her, as all other ladies present, whether or not he thought Hitler really had the strength to invade in the spring). Jack took it all in good humour, but he did not once look at her, and answered only with brief (although polite) words, and eventually she subsided, sighed, wiped her hands on her apron, and drifted back to stand behind the counter.
“One of your conquests from a previous life?” I asked, vastly relieved at the interruption, and Jack roared with laughter. One of the other customers, a spindly woman in a faded red coat who had been watching Jack as keenly as the lady behind the counter, dropped her half-eaten scone into her cup, splashing tea all over her coat.
“One of the hopefuls,” he said once his laughter had died down, “but I am pretty sure I refused her then, too.”
“‘Pretty sure’?” I said.
He shrugged. “There were so many.”
I grinned, and suddenly the sun shone a little brighter than it had hitherto. I wondered when last I’d shared a joke with someone, and realised that I never had.
Jack was still smiling at me, and I sat there, thinking how odd it was that I could laugh so easily with someone I was certain would destroy my life.
I did what Jack asked of me, and discovered a purpose to my life that had been missing until now. For some weeks, all through the late autumn, I travelled about London and its immediate environs (although never at night; despite my casual words to Jack I didn’t want to put myself in the way of the Penitent Ripper). I moved about in no discernible pattern. In fact, I borrowed one of Ward Lock’s little red guidebooks from Robert Stacey—the Sidlesaghe kept something of everything in his office—opened a page at random each morning, and thus chose my day’s excursion. I made sure I had a purpose: a visit to a shop, a hairdresser, a theatre, or an opportunity to wander down a river walk, and I only went two or three days a week.
Catling never appeared to me when I walked out, as she had to Jack, although every so often I would open my eyes at night, and there she would be, sitting shadowed in a corner.
Watching.
Did she realise what I was doing? I don’t know, but she said nothing to me, nor gave me any indication that she did understand. So I continued on my trips. Everywhere I went, I cast out with my power to discern a little more of Catling’s trap and once I was home in the afternoon or evening, I traced out with red pencil what I had discovered on one of Bacon’s wall maps of London. This map I kept secreted within the bathroom of our apartment in a magazine rack (my parents may have discovered it, but neither said anything). Catling had far-seeing eyes, but I had to assume they didn’t follow me into the bathroom.
But, oh my, Catling was cunning. There was clear labyrinthine intent forming from all these slowly connecting red lines. Not only could I see that with my eyes, but I could also feel it with my powers as Mistress of the Labyrinth. It was subtle (this was a surprise; I had never suspected Catling of being “subtle”), and of some considerable beauty. I felt instinctively that it traced out the path of a labyrinth, but what I had was so fragmentary I could not distinguish the actual turning of the labyrinth’s paths.
It was…oh, how shall I describe this? It was almost hypnotically enigmatic. The more I discovered, the more I wanted to discover.
A trap, obviously, designed to lure Jack (and, presumably, my mother, although why she couldn’t sense it I have no idea) deeper and deeper into its dark heart. Look at me, I am beautiful and exquisite and filled with so much potential that if only you sink deeper and deeper into my depths you can have anything you want, even your freedom.
Every three weeks or so, Jack and I would meet somewhere, as if by accident—perhaps at my mother’s mobile canteen as it trundled to the air raid shelters at night, or at Faerie Hill Manor—and once more at another teashop (Jack patently felt he needed to spread his charms about).
I did not ever have my large wall map with me, as that would have been too dangerous for prying eyes, but Jack would take one of my wrists, and somehow he would see with my eyes, absorb the information I had learned, and then sit back, and nod, and ask me what I thought.
Always I would say the same thing: it is beautiful and exquisite, and more deadly than anything I could ever imagine. Be careful, Jack.
And he would nod again, and withdraw his hand from me, and not share his thoughts.
We always spent Christmas at Faerie Hill Manor, and this year was no exception in that regard. What was so different about this Christmas was the sense of hope that pervaded the gathering.
No one had to play Waiting For Jack, because Jack was here, and while no one wanted to admit it, most people believed that Jack would somehow manage to save them.
On this day even my father seemed slightly more relaxed about Jack, and I was happy to see that while Jack gave my mother a kiss of greeting on her arrival, he spent no more time with her than was appropriate. We did everything that families are supposed to do at Christmas: ate too much, played some silly parlour games, embarrassed ourselves far too readily with some terrible Christmas jests, and wore foolish hats.
We also did things that most families didn’t do. We spent Christmas afternoon strolling the borderlands of the Faerie. We didn’t go in, and I wondered if this was because of my presence, but many of the Sidlesaghes came out to join us in our walk, and later, Long Tom and two of his brothers stayed to spend Christmas evening with us, which was a great joy, for I liked the Sidlesaghes.