“Probably,” she said. “That’s how I rationalized it.”
“Rationalized what?”
“Not doing anything. Not reporting it. No matter how good she looked, she was still a minor in a bad environment and I was the one she confided in. But I told myself she’d found her niche, why upset the cart? And things were different back then. What’s to say if I had come forth she wouldn’t have denied it? Or that anyone would have listened to me? Because Lottie worked for Big Micky and he was well-connected with the powers that be. If Lottie asked him to help her out, what was the chance of bucking that?”
“Was there any indication he was Lottie’s pimp? Or her lover?”
She glared, as if I’d finally given her an excuse to be angry. “I told you before, I don’t know those kinds of details.”
“Did Hope talk about Big Micky?”
“No. The only one she talked about was Lottie. Then, as I said, she cut it off, changed the subject. I got the feeling the visit had been an experiment for her: How far was she ready to go? And I hadn’t encouraged her enough. . . . I lost a lot of sleep over it, Dr. Delaware. Thinking about that poor child tied up, what I should do. Then, with all the hurt things I was taking care of, I managed to forget about it. Until you showed up.”
Another glance at the cuckoo.
“And that’s all I know,” she said, rising and walking quickly to the door. She pushed it open and stepped out onto the porch and a tide of canine noise rose. By the time I reached her she was out in the yard, surrounded by the dogs. Leopold, the Bouvier, watched me imperiously.
I thought of Hope’s Rottweiler, unable to protect her, probably poisoned.
Hope transforming herself from prisoner to guardian of other women’s rights.
But no one had ever protected her.
Elsa Campos continued to the front gate. “If you find out who murdered her, would you take the time to tell me?”
“Yes.”
“You mean it? Because I don’t want to wait for nothing.”
“I promise.”
“All right, then . . . I’m going to force myself out of here, take a drive up to the Bakersfield library, see if I can find her book. Not too many kids from here become famous.”
The last word came out strangled. Suddenly tears were dripping down her weathered cheeks. She wiped them with her sleeve.
“Good-bye,” she said. “I don’t know whether to thank you or punch you.”
“Good-bye. Thanks for your time.”
I started to go and she said, “When all this comes out, I’ll be the idiot teacher who didn’t report it.”
“No reason for it to come out.”
“No? You’re here because you think it relates to her murder.”
“It may end up having nothing to do with it.”
She gave a short, hard laugh. “Do you know how she rationalized it? Being tied up? She said it had made her stronger. Taught her how to concentrate. I said, “Please, child, it’s one thing not to complain but don’t tell me it was for your own good.’ She just smiled at me, put a hand on my shoulder. As if she were the teacher. As if she pitied me for not understanding. I still remember what she said: “Really, Mrs. Campos, it’s no big deal. I turned it to my own advantage. I taught myself self-control.’ ”
CHAPTER
28
I covered the thirty miles to Bakersfield in twenty-five minutes. But when I arrived I knew it had been a waste of gas.
How long since I’d been up here? At least a decade. The city had maintained some of its country flavor—western-wear outlets, cowboy bars too new and flashy to be the skin joints Elsa Campos had described. But it was a big city, now, any city. Steadily homogenized by Wal-Marts and fast-food stands, the cold, clean comfort of franchise.
No one I spoke to knew anything about the Brooke-Hastings Company but when I mentioned the slaughterhouses to an old man working the counter of a Burger King, he gave me a suspicious look and directions.