Mellia’s eyes_.
And back to the sterile room.
The Karg made a notation and glanced at Mellia. She was taut in the chair, straining against the straps.
I had three parameters. Three to go. The Karg’s hand moved—
“Wait,” I said. “This is too much for her. What are you trying to do? Kill her?”
He registered a faintly surprised look. “Naturally it’s necessary to select maximum-stress situations, Mr. Ravel. I need unequivocal readings if I’m to properly assess the vigor of the affinity-bonds.”
“She can’t take much more.”
“She’s suffering nothing directly,” he explained in his best clinical manner. “It’s you who experience, Mr. Ravel; she merely empathizes with your anguish. Secondhand suffering, so to speak.” He gave me a tight little smile and closed the switch—
_Pain, immediate, and yet remote. I was the cripple, and I was outside the cripple, observing his agony.
My-his left leg had been broken below the knee. It was a bad break: compound, and splinters of the shattered bone protruded through the swollen and mangled flesh.
It had been caught in the hoisting gear of the oreship. They had pulled me free and dragged me here to die.
But I couldn’t die. The woman waited for me, in the bare room in the city. I had come here, to the port, to earn money for food and fuel. Dangerous work, but there was bread and coal in it.
For some; not for me.
I had torn a sleeve from my coat, bound the leg. The pain was duller now, more remote. I would rest awhile, and then I could start back.
It would be easier, and far more pleasant, to die here, but she would think I had abandoned her.
But first, rest …
Too late, I realized how I had trapped myself. I had let sleep in as a guest, and death had slipped through the door.
I imagined her face, as she looked out over the smoky twilight of the megalopolis, waiting for me. Waiting in vain.
Mellia’s face_.
And I was back in the bright-lit room.
Mellia lay slack in the chair of torment.
“You gauge things nicely, Karg,” I said. “You make me watch her being outraged, tortured, killed. But mere physical suffering isn’t enough for your sensors. So you move on to the mental torture of betrayal and blighted hope.”
“Melodramatic phrasing, Mr. Ravel. A progression of stimuli is quite obviously essential to the business at hand.”
“Swell. What’s next?”
Instead of answering he closed the switch.
_Swirling smoke, an acid, sulphurous stench of high explosives, powdered brick, incinerating wood and tar and flesh. The roar of flames, the crash and rumble of falling masonry, a background ululation that was the ultimate verbalization of mass humanity in extremis; a small, feeble, unimportant sound against the snarl of engines and the scream and thunder of falling bombs.
He-I thrust away a fallen timber, climbed a heap of rubble, staggered toward the house, half of which was still standing, beside a gaping pit where a broken main gushed sewage. The side of the bedroom was gone. Against the faded ocher wallpaper, a picture hung askew. I remembered the day she had bought it in Petticoat Lane, the hours we had spent framing it, choosing the spot to hang it.
A gaunt scarecrow, a comic figure in blackface with half a head of hair, came out through the charred opening where the front door had been, holding a broken doll in her arms. I reached her, looked down at the chalk-white, blue-nostriled, graylipped, sunken-eyed face of my child. A deep trough ran across her forehead, as if a crowbar had been pressed into waxy flesh. I looked into Mellia’s eyes; her mouth was open, and a raw, insistent wailing came from it_…
Silence and brightness blossomed around me.
Mellia, unconscious, moaned and fought the straps.
“Slow the pace, Karg,” I said. “You’ve got half of eternity to play with. Why be greedy?”
“I’m making excellent progress, Mr. Ravel,” he said. “A very nice trace, that last one. The ordeal of the loved one—most interesting.”
“You’ll burn her out,” I said.
He looked at me the way a lab man looks at a specimen.
“If I reach that conclusion, Mr. Ravel, your worst fears will be realized.”
“She’s human, not a machine, Karg. That’s what you wanted, remember? Why punish her for not being some thing she can’t be?”
“Punishment? A human concept, Mr. Ravel. If I find a tool weak, sometimes heat and pressure can harden it. If it breaks under load, I dispose of it.”
“Just slow down a little. Give her time to recuperate—”
“You’re temporizing, Mr. Ravel. Stalling for time, transparently.”
“You’ve got enough, damn you! Why not stop now!
“I have yet to observe the most telling experience of all, Mr. Ravel: the torment and death of the one whom she loves most. A curious phenomenon, Mr. Ravel, your human emotional involvements. There is no force like them in the universe. But we can discuss these matters another time. I have, after all, a schedule to maintain.”
I swore, and he raised his eyebrows and—
_Warm salty water in my mouth, surging higher, submerging me. I held my breath; the strong current forced me back against the broken edge of the bulkhead that held me trapped. Milky green water, flowing swiftly over me, slowing, pausing; then draining away …
My nostrils came clear and I gasped and snorted, got water in my lungs, coughed violently.
At the full ebb after the wave, the water level was above my chin now.
The cabin cruiser, out of gas due to a slow leak, had gone on the rocks off Laguna. A weathered basalt spur had smashed in the side of the hull just at the waterline, and a shattered plank had caught me across the chest, pinned me against the outward-bulging bulkhead.
I was bruised a little, nothing more. Not even a broken rib. But I was held in place as firmly as if clamped in a vise.
The first surge of water into the cabin had given me a moment’s panic; I had torn some skin then, fighting to get free, uselessly. The water had swirled up waist-high, then receded.
She was there then, fear on her face turning to relief, then to fear again as she saw my predicament. She had set to work to free me.
That had been half an hour before. A half hour during which the boat had settled, while the tide came in.
She had worked until her arms quivered with fatigue, until her fingernails were broken and bleeding. She had cleared one plank, but another, lower down, underwater, held me still.
In another half hour she could clear it, too.
We didn’t have half an hour.
As soon as she had seen that I was trapped she had gone on deck and signaled to a party of picnickers. One of them had run up the beach; she had seen a small car churn sand, going for help.
The Coast Guard station was fifteen miles away. Perhaps there was a telephone closer, but it was doubtful, on a Sunday afternoon. The car would reach the station in fifteen minutes; it would take another half-hour, minimum, for the cutter to arrive. Fiteen minutes from now.
I didn’t have fifteen minutes.
She had tried to rig a breathing apparatus for me, using a number 10 coffee can, but it hadn’t worked.
There wasn’t a foot of hose aboard for an airline.
The next wave came in. This time I was under for over a minute, and when the water drained back, I had to tilt my head all the way back to get my nose clear enough to suck air.
She looked into my eyes while we waited for the next wave …
Waited for death, on a bright afternoon a hundred feet from safety, ten minutes from rescue.
And the next wave came_…
And I was back in the bright room under the merciless lights. And I had my six parameters.
33
“Interesting,” the Karg said. “Most interesting. But…” He looked across at Mellia. She hung in the straps, utterly still.
“She died,” the Karg said. “A pity.” He looked at me and saw something in my eyes. He made a move, and I put out a finger of mind-force and locked him in his tracks.
“Sucker,” I said.
He looked at me, and I watched him realizing the magnitude of the blunder he had made. I enjoyed that, but not as much as I should have, savoring the moment of victory.
“It was your plan from the beginning,” he said. “Yes, that’s clear now. You maneuvered me very cleverly, Mr. Ravel. I underestimated you badly. Your bargaining position is now much different, of course. Naturally. I recognize realities and am prepared to deal realistically—”
“Sucker,” I said. “You don’t know the half of it.”
“I’ll release you at once,” the Karg said, “establish you in an enclave tailored to your specifications. I will also procure a satisfactory alter ego to replace the female—”