I start to agree with him and then have second thoughts. No, I say. I am not about to start the charade of hiding, ducking and holding up files or my coat to hide my face from cameras as if I am a crime boss. Absolutely not. I tell Marino I will see him at my office, but I will park as usual and deal with the media. For one thing, my stubbornness has kicked in. For another, I don’t see what I have to lose by going about my business as usual and simply telling the truth, and the damn truth is I didn’t kill Diane Bray. I never even thought about it, although I certainly disliked her more than anyone else I have ever met in my life.
On 9th Street I stop at a red light and put on my suit jacket. I check myself in the rearview mirror to make sure I look reasonably glued together. I put on a dab of lipstick and comb my fingers through my hair. I turn on the radio, bracing myself for the first news spot. I anticipate that local stations will interrupt their programs frequently to remind everybody that I am the first scandal of the new millennium.
“… So, I gotta say this, Jim. I mean, talk about someone who could get away with the perfect murder….”
“No kidding. You know, I interviewed her once….”
I switch to a different station and then another one as I am mocked and degraded or simply reported on because someone has leaked to the media what is supposed to be the most secret and sacred of all legal proceedings. I wonder who violated his code of silence, and what is even sadder, several names come to mind. I don’t trust Righter. I don’t trust anyone he has contacted for telephone or bank records. But I have another suspect in mindJay Talleyand I am betting that he has been subpoenaed, too. I compose myself as I pull into my parking lot and see the television and radio vans lining 4th Street and the dozens of people waiting for me with cameras, microphones and notepads.
NOT ONE OF THE REPORTERS NOTICES MY DARK BLUE
Explorer because they aren’t expecting it, and this is when I realize I have made a serious tactical error. I have been driving a rental car for days and it didn’t occur to me until this moment that I might be asked why. I turn into my reserved space by the front door and am sighted. The pack moves toward me like hunters after big game, and I will myself to go into my role. I am the chief. I am reserved, poised and unafraid. I have done nothing wrong. I climb out and take my time gathering my briefcase and a stack of folders out of the backseat. My elbow aches beneath layers of elasticized wrappings, and cameras click and microphones point at me like guns cocking and finding their mark.
“Dr. Scarpetta? Can you comment about… ?”
“Dr. Scarpetta… ?”
“When did you find out a special grand jury is investigating you?”
“Isn’t it true you and Diane Bray were at odds… ?”
“Where’s your car?”
“Can you confirm that you’ve basically been run out of your home and don’t even have your own car right now?”
“Will you resign?”
I face them on the sidewalk. I am silent but steady as I wait for them to get quiet. When they realize I intend to address their questions I catch surprised looks and their aggression quickly settles down. I recognize many faces but can’t remember names. I am not sure I have ever known the names of the media’s real troops who gather the news behind the scenes. I remind myself they are simply doing their jobs and there is no reason for me to take any of this personally. That’s right, nothing personal. Rude, inhumane, inappropriate, insensitive and largely inaccurate, but not personal. “I’ve no prepared statement,” I start to say.
“Where were you the night Diane Bray was murdered… ?”
“Please,” I interrupt them. “Like you, I’ve recently learned there is a special grand jury investigation into her murder, and I ask you to honor the very necessary confidentiality of such a proceeding. Please understand why I’m not at liberty to discuss it with you.”