“You could even try to ride yourself,” the Queen said. “Your wife rides.”
“We have enough land now. Jack,” Cathy said. “You’d love it.”
“I’d fall off,” Ryan said bleakly.
“Then you climb back on again until you get it right,” said a woman with over fifty years of riding behind her.
It’s the same with a bike, except you don’t fall as far off a bike, and Sally’s too little for a bike, Ryan told himself. He got nervous watching Sally move her Hotwheel trike around the driveway. For God’s sake, she’s so little the horse wouldn’t even know if she was there or not. Cathy read his mind.
“Children do have to grow up. You can’t protect her from everything,” his wife pointed out.
“Yes, dear, I know.” The hell I can’t. That’s my job.
A few minutes later everyone headed out the room for dinner. Ryan found himself in the Blue Drawing Room, a breathtaking pillared hall, and then passed through mirrored double doors into the State Dining Room.
The contrast was incredible. From a room of muted blue they entered one ablaze with scarlet, fabric-covered walls. Overhead the vaulted ceiling was ivory and gold, and over the snow-white fireplace was a massive portrait — of whom? Ryan wondered. It had to be a king, of course, probably 18th or 19th century, judging by his white . . . pantyhose, or whatever they’d called them then, complete with garter. Over the door they’d entered was the royal cipher of Queen Victoria, VR, and he wondered how much history had passed through — or been made right in this single room.
“You will sit at my right hand, Jack,” the Queen said.
Ryan took a quick look at the table. It was wide enough that he didn’t have to worry about clobbering Her Majesty with his left arm. That wouldn’t do.
The worst thing about the dinner was that Ryan would be forever unable to remember — and too proud to ask Cathy — what it was. Eating one-handed was something he’d had a lot of practice at, but never had he had such an audience, and Ryan was sure that everyone was watching him. After all, he was a Yank and would have been something of a curiosity even without his arm. He constantly reminded himself to be careful, to go easy on the wine, to watch his language. He shot the occasional glance at Cathy, sitting at the other end of the table next to the Duke and clearly enjoying herself. It made her husband slightly angry that she was more at ease than he was. If there was ever a pig in the manger, Ryan thought while chewing on something he immediately forgot, it’s me. He wondered if he would be here now, had he been a rookie cop or a private in the Royal Marines who just happened to be at the right place. Probably not, he thought. And why is that? Ryan didn’t know. He did know that something about the institution of nobility went against his American outlook. At the same time, being knighted — even honorarily — was something he liked. It was a contradiction that troubled him in a way he didn’t understand. All this attention was too seductive, he told himself. It’ll be good to get away from it. Or will it? He sipped at a glass of wine. I know I don’t belong here, but do I want to belong here? There’s a good question. The wine didn’t give him an answer. He’d have to find it somewhere else.
He looked down the table to his wife, who did seem to fit in very nicely. She’d been raised in a similar atmosphere, a monied family, a big house in Westchester County, lots of parties where people told one another how important they all were. It was a life he’d rejected, and that she had walked away from. They were both happy with what they had, each with a career, but did her ease with this mean that she missed . . . Ryan frowned.
“Feeling all right. Jack?” the Queen asked.
“Yes, ma’am, please excuse me. I’m afraid it will take me a while to adjust to all of this.”
“Jack,” she said quietly, “the reason everyone likes you — and we all do, you know — is because of who and what you are. Try to keep that in mind.”
It struck Ryan that this was probably the kindest thing he’d ever been told. Perhaps nobility was supposed to be a state of mind rather than an institution. His father-in-law could learn from that, Ryan thought. His father-in-law could learn from a lot of things.
Three hours later Jack followed his wife into their room. There was a sitting room off to the right. In front of him the bed had already been turned down. He pulled the tie loose from his collar and undid the button, then let out a long, audible breath.
“You weren’t kidding about turning into pumpkins.”
“I know,” his wife said.
Only a single dim light was lit, and his wife switched it off. The only illumination in the room was from distant streetlights that filtered through the heavy curtains. Her white dress stood out in the darkness, but her face showed only the curve of her lips and the sparkle of her eyes as she turned away from the light. Her husband’s mind filled in the remaining details. Jack wrapped his good arm around his wife and cursed the monstrosity of plaster that encased his left side as he pulled her in close. She rested her head on his healthy shoulder, and his cheek came down to the softness of her fine blond hair. Neither said anything for a minute or two. It was enough to be alone, together in the quiet darkness.
“Love ya, babe.”
“How are you feeling, Jack?” The question was more than a simple inquiry.
“Not bad. Pretty well rested. The shoulder doesn’t hurt very much anymore. Aspirin takes care of the aches.” This was an exaggeration, but Jack was used to the discomfort.
“Oh, I see how they did it.” Cathy was exploring the left side of his jacket. The tailors had put snap closures on the underside so that it would not so much conceal the cast as make it look dressed. His wife removed the snaps quickly and pulled the coat off. The shirt went next.
“I am able to do this myself, you know.”
“Shut up, Jack. I don’t want to have to wait all night for you to undress.” He next heard the sound of a long zipper.
“Can I help?”
There was laughter in the darkness. “I might want to wear this dress again. And be careful where you put that arm.”
“I haven’t crunched anyone yet.”
“Good. Let’s try to keep a perfect record.” A whisper of silk. She took his hand. “Let’s get you sitting down.”
After he sat on the edge of the bed, the rest came easy. Cathy sat beside him. He felt her, cool and smooth at his side, a hint of perfume in the air. He reached around her shoulder, down to the soft skin of her abdomen.
It’s happening right now, growing away while we sit here. “You’re going to have my baby,” Jack said softly. There really is a God, and there really are miracles.
Her hand came across his face. “That’s right. I can’t have anything to drink after tonight — but I wanted to enjoy tonight.”
“You know, I really do love you.”
“I know,” she said. “Lie back.”
Chapter 6
Trials and Troubles
Preliminary testimony lasted for about two hours while Ryan sat on a marble bench outside Old Bailey’s number two courtroom. He tried to work on his computer, but he couldn’t seem to keep his mind on it, and found himself staring around the hundred-sixty-year-old building.
Security was incredibly tight. Outside, numerous uniformed police constables stood about in plain sight, small zippered pistol cases dangling from their hands. Others, uniformed and not, stood on the buildings across Newgate Street like falcons on the watch for rabbits. Except rabbits don’t carry machine guns and RPG-7 bazookas, Ryan thought. Every person who entered the building was subjected to a metal detector sensitive enough to ping on the foil inside a cigarette pack, and nearly everyone was given a pat-down search. This included Ryan, who was surprised enough at the intimacy of the search to tell the officer that he went a bit far for a first date. The grand hall was closed off to anyone not connected with the case, and less prominent trials had been switched among the building’s nineteen courtrooms to accommodate Crown v Miller.
Ryan had never been in a courthouse before. He was amused by the fact that he’d never even had a speeding ticket, his life had been so dull until now. The marble floor — nearly everything in sight was marble — gave the hall the aspect of a cathedral, and the walls were decorated with aphorisms such as Cicero’s THE WELFARE OF THE PEOPLE IS THE HIGHEST LAW, a phrase he found curiously — or at least potentially — expedient in what was certainly designed as a temple to the idea of law. He wondered if the members of the ULA felt the same way, and justified their activities in accordance with their view of the welfare of the people. Who doesn’t? Jack asked himself. What tyrant ever failed to justify his crimes? Around him were a half-dozen other witnesses. Jack didn’t talk with them. His instructions were quite specific: even the appearance of conversation might give cause to the defense attorneys to speculate that witnesses had coached one another. The prosecution team had bent every effort to make their case a textbook example of correct legal procedure.