Postmortem. Patricia Cornwell

“Lucy,” I said as I rinsed plates and loaded them in the dish washer, “I don’t want you thinking about guns. I wouldn’t own one if I didn’t live alone.”

I’d been strongly tempted to hide it where she would never think to look. But after the episode with the modem, which I had guiltily reconnected to my home computer days ago, I vowed to be up front with her. The .38 remained high on my closet shelf, inside its shoebox, while Lucy was in town. The gun wasn’t loaded. These days, I unloaded it in the morning and reloaded it before bed. As for the Silvertip cartridges-those I hid where she would never think to look.

When I faced her, her eyes were huge. “You know why I have a gun, Lucy. I think you understand how dangerous they are…”

“They kill people.”

“Yes,” I replied as we went into the living room. “They most certainly can.”

“You have it so you can kill somebody.”

“I don’t like to think about that,” I told her seriously.

“Well, it’s true,” she persisted. “That’s why you keep it. Because of bad people. That’s why.”

I picked up the remote control and switched on the television.

Lucy pushed up the sleeves of her pink sweatshirt and complained, “It’s hot in here, Auntie Kay. Why’s it always so hot in here?”

“Would you like me to turn up the air-conditioning?”

I abstractedly flipped through the television schedule.

“No. I hate air-conditioning.”

I lit a cigarette and she complained about that, too.

“Your office is hot and always stinks like cigarettes. I open the window and still it stinks. Mom says you shouldn’t smoke. You’re a doctor and you smoke. Mom says you should know better.”

Dorothy had called late the night before. She was somewhere in California, I couldn’t remember where, with her illustrator husband. It was all I could do to be civil to her. I wanted to remind her, “You have a daughter, flesh of your flesh, bone of your bone. Remember Lucy? Remember her?”

Instead, I was reserved, almost gracious, mostly out of consideration for Lucy, who was sitting at the table, her lips pressed together.

Lucy talked to her mother for maybe ten minutes, and had nothing to say afterward. Ever since, she’d been all over me, critical, snappish and bossy. She’d been the same way during the day, according to Bertha, who this evening had referred to her as a “fusspot.”

Bertha told me Lucy had scarcely set foot outside my office. She sat in front of the computer from the moment I left the house until the moment I returned. Bertha gave up calling her into the kitchen for meals. Lucy ate at my desk.

The sitcom on the set seemed all the more absurd because Lucy and I were having our own sitcom in the living room.

“Andy says it’s more dangerous to own a gun and not know how to use it than if you don’t own one,” she loudly announced.

“Andy?” I said absentmindedly.

“The one before Ralph. He used to go to the junkyard and shoot bottles. He could hit them from a long ways away. I bet you couldn’t.”

She looked accusingly at me.

“You’re right. I probably couldn’t shoot as well as Andy.”

“See!”

I didn’t tell her I actually knew quite a lot about firearms. Before I bought my stainless-steel Ruger .38, I went down to the indoor range in the basement of my building and experimented with an assortment of handguns from the firearms lab, all this under the professional supervision of one of the examiners. I practiced from time to time, and I wasn’t a bad shot. I didn’t think I would hesitate if the need ever arose. I also didn’t intend to discuss the matter further with my niece.

Very quietly I asked, “Lucy, why are you picking on me?”

“Because you’re a stupid ass!” Her eyes filled with tears. “You’re just an old stupid ass and if you tried to, you’d hurt yourself or he’d get it away from you! And then you’d be gone, too! If you tried to, he’d shoot you with it just like it happens on TV!”

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