Angry, I decided-angry and self-righteous. Interested and stimulated by the excitement at first, then angry at being kept standing at attention like a plebe. They were trying to soften us up by the strained wait; how would I have felt about it, say two months ago? Smugly sure of my own virtue, it would have offended me and humiliated me-to be kept standing like a pariah waiting to whine for the privilege of a ration card-to be placed on the report like a cadet with soup on his jacket.
By the time the Commander of the Guard arrived almost an hour later I was white-lipped with anger. The process was synthetic but the emotion was real. I had never really liked our Commander anyway. He was a short, supercilious little man with a cold eye and a way of looking through his junior officers instead of at them. Now he stood in front of us with his priest’s robes thrown back over his shoulders and his thumbs caught in his sword belt.
He glared at us. ‘Heaven help me, Angels of the Lord indeed,’ he said softly into the dead silence-then barked, ‘Well?’
No one answered.
‘Speak up!’ he shouted. ‘Some one of you knows about this. Answer me! Or would you all rather face the Question?’
A murmur ran down our ranks-but no one spoke.
He ran his eyes over us again. His eye caught mine and I stared back truculently. ‘Lyle!’
‘Yes, reverend sir?’
‘What do you know of this?’
‘I know that I would like to sit down, reverend sir!’
He scowled at me, then his eye got a gleam of cold amusement. ‘Better to stand before me, my son, than to sit before the Inquisitor.’ But he passed on and heckled the man next to me.
He badgered us endlessly, but Zeb and I seemed to receive neither more nor less attention than the others. At last he seemed to give up and directed the Officer of the Day to dismiss us. I was not fooled; it was a certainty that every word spoken had been recorded, every expression cinemographed, and that analysts were plotting the data against each of our past behavior patterns before we reached our quarters.
But Zeb is a wonder. He was gossiping about the night’s events, speculating innocently about what could have caused the hurrah, even before we reached our room. I tried to answer in what I had decided was my own ‘proper’ reaction and groused about the way we had been treated. ‘We’re officers and gentlemen,’ I complained. ‘If he thinks we are guilty of something, he should prefer formal charges.’
I went to bed still griping, then lay awake and worried. I tried to tell myself that Judith must have reached a safe place, or else the brass would not be in the dark about it. But I dropped off to sleep still fretting.
I felt someone touch me and I woke instantly. Then I relaxed when I realized that my hand was being gripped in the recognition grip of the lodge. ‘Quiet,’ a voice I did not recognize whispered in my ear. ‘I must give you certain treatment to protect you.’ I felt the bite of a hypodermic in my arm; in a few seconds I was relaxed and dreamy. The voice whispered, ‘You saw nothing unusual on watch tonight. Until the alarm was sounded your watch was quite without incident -‘ I don’t know how long the voice droned on.
I was awakened a second time by someone shaking me roughly. I burrowed into my pillow and said, ‘Go ‘way! I’m going to skip breakfast.’
Somebody struck me between my shoulder blades; I turned and sat up, blinking. There were four armed men in the room, blasters drawn and pointed at me. ‘Come along!’ ordered the one nearest to me.
They were wearing the uniform of Angels but without unit insignia. Each head was covered by a black mask that exposed only the eyes-and by these masks I knew them: proctors of the Grand Inquisitor. I hadn’t really believed it could happen to me. Not to me not to Johnnie Lyle who had always behaved himself, been a credit to his parish and a pride to his mother. No! The Inquisition was a boogieman, but a boogieman for sinners-not for John Lyle.