Grieving, Randi closed her eyes, overwhelmed by sorrow. In her mind, she could see her older sister clearly— the slender face, the softly pointed chin, and the long, satin hair pulled back into a ponytail. When the image of Sophia smiled, Randi fought back tears and hugged herself. I’m so sorry, Sophia. So sorry I wasn’t there.
But suddenly a treasure trove of memories appeared from the past, and Randi went eagerly toward them, hoping for solace: Breakfasts were the best. She could smell again the comforting aroma of Maxwell House coffee and hear the cheerful chatter of their parents as she and Sophia ran downstairs to join them. Evenings brought picnics and panoramic sunsets across the Pacific Ocean so brilliant they pierced the soul. She remembered the fun of hopscotch and Barbie dolls, their father’s silly jokes, and their mother’s kind hands.
But what had dominated their childhoods had been the sisters’ uncanny resemblance. From their earliest years, people remarked on it, while she and Sophia had taken it all for granted. They had been blessed with an unusual combination of genetic factors that had resulted in both being not blue-eyed, but brown-eyed blondes. Very dark brown eyes, almost black. Their mother had found it fascinating. So her daughters could view a parallel to their unusual coloring in nature, she had planted black-eyed Susans along the front of their hacienda in Santa Barbara, California. Every summer the cream-colored petals with the rich dark centers had erupted in fragrant color.
All of that had ignited Sophia’s first interest in science, while the hacienda’s breathtaking views of the Channel Islands and the immense Pacific had awakened in Randi a hunger to know what lay beyond the horizon. Her family had two homes— the one in Santa Barbara and another on Chesapeake Bay in Maryland. A marine biologist, their father had traveled back and forth regularly, and she, her sister, and their mother had occasionally accompanied him.
Who knew at what point other lives became important? For Randi, it began with the constant feeling of being new herself, not only during the trips from coast to coast but to the Sea of Cortés, the Mediterranean, and the other distant locations that attracted her father’s excited attention. Soon she grew comfortable exploring the unknown and meeting unfamiliar people. Then she enjoyed it. Finally she craved it.
A gift for languages had sent her on full scholarship to Harvard for bachelor’s degrees in Spanish and government and then to Columbia for a master’s in international relations. Everywhere she went, she took additional language courses until she was fluent in seven. It was at Columbia that the CIA recruited her. She had been a natural— the tweed and contacts of an Ivy League education plus the wanderlust of a gypsy. But she had turned out to be a lackadaisical operative, doing only an adequate job while avoiding the tough assignments… until Mike died in Somalia.
Untouched by bullet or knife, an invisible virus had felled him in an ugly, painful end. Even now it brought a catch to her throat and a searing regret for what might have been.
That was when the inequities of life began to strangle her. Everywhere she looked, people were hungry, imperiled, lied to, or repressed. It outraged her. She had turned inward, and her work became the center of her life. Once she no longer had Mike, the only thing that mattered was making the world a better, safer place.
But she had not made the world safer for Sophia.
She inhaled, trying to calm her emotions. She forced herself to focus. She had a goal. She knew she would never be able to like Smith and probably never to really trust him, but that no longer mattered.
She needed him.
She rose quietly, her blanket wrapped around her. She gazed around at the sleeping men. Carrying her Uzi, she crept across to where Jon lay. She stretched out beside him. He turned his head to look at her.
“You all right?” he asked quietly.
She ignored the kindness in his voice. She whispered, “Let’s get one thing straight. I understand intellectually you didn’t mean to kill Mike. Lassa is hard to tell from malaria at first, and it could’ve killed him anyway. But it might not have if you’d diagnosed it in time and gotten help.”
“Randi!”
“Shhh. I don’t know that I’ll ever be able to forgive you. You were too cavalier. Presumptuous. You thought you knew it all.”
“I was arrogant, yes. But I was mostly ignorant. So are most army doctors when it comes to rare tropical diseases.” He sighed wearily. “I was wrong. Fatally wrong. But it wasn’t from not caring or being careless. I just didn’t know. It’s not an excuse, it’s an explanation. Lassa is still mistaken for malaria. I tried to tell you Mike’s death was the reason I transferred to USAMRIID, so I could become an authority on infectious diseases. It was the only way I could make up for what had happened— make sure it never happened again to another army doctor. I’m so sorry he died, and I deeply regret the role I played in it.” He gazed at her. “Death is damnably final, isn’t it?”
She heard the pain in his voice and knew he must be thinking about Sophia again. Part of her wanted to forgive him and put it all behind her, but she could not. Despite his contrition and efforts to make amends, he could still be the same old cowboy, galloping heedlessly through life as he pursued his private interests.
But right now that was irrelevant. “I have a proposition for you.”
He crossed his arms over his blanket and frowned. “Okay. Let’s hear it.”
“You want to find out who killed Sophia, and so do I. I need your scientific knowledge to help me track the people behind the virus. You need my contacts and other abilities. Together we make a good team.”
He studied her face, so like Sophia’s. Her voice was Sophia’s voice, but her toughness was her own. To work with her was appealing… and dangerous. He could not look at her without remembering Sophia and feeling a raw rush of pain. He knew he had to go on with his life, but with Randi around, would he be able to? She looked so much like her sister, they could have been identical twins. He had loved Sophia. He did not love Randi. And to work with her could cause him endless grief.
So he said, “There’s nothing you can do for me. This isn’t a good idea. Thanks, but no thanks.”
She said roughly, “This isn’t about you or me. This is about Sophia and all the millions of people out there who are going to die.”
“It is about you and me,” he corrected her. “If we can’t work together, neither of us will accomplish a damn thing. Whatever chance I have of getting to the bottom of this will evaporate in arguments and hard feelings.” His voice lowered and he growled. “Understand this. I don’t give a flying leap what you think of me. All I care about is Sophia and stopping her killers. You can continue on the rest of your life still hauling around your precious load of anger if that’s what you want. I don’t have time. I’ve got something far more important to do. I’m going to stop this scourge, and I don’t need you to help me do it.”
He had taken her breath away. She was silent, stunned that her rage at him showed so much. Also, she felt guilty, which she was not ready to admit. “I could turn you in. Right now, I could go to Donoso, whisper in his ear, and he’d have the military police waiting for you when we land in Turkey. Don’t look at me like that, Jon. I’m just laying out the alternatives. You say you don’t need me, and I say you do. But the truth is, I don’t play dirty with people I respect, and I respect you for everything I’ve seen in Iraq. Which means even if you and I can’t work out something, I’ll say nothing to Donoso.” She hesitated. “Sophia loved you. That’s important, too. I may never get over Mike’s death, but that won’t stop me from working cooperatively with you. For instance, do you have any idea what you’re going to do once I get us into the United States?”
Smith scratched his chin. All of a sudden the potential had shifted. “You can get me into the United States?”
“Sure. No problem. I’ll be offered a transport or some other military flight back home. I’ll take you with me. Those U.N. credentials are perfect.”
He nodded. “You think you can get your hands on a computer with a modem, too, before we arrive?”
“Depends. For how long?”
“With luck, a half hour. There’s a Web site I need to check to find out where to meet my friends. They’ve been investigating certain aspects of the situation while I’ve been gone. Assuming they survived, of course.