“Bear in mind who you are. The son of a Prince does not-”
“Fitz,” I reminded her firmly. “I am FitzChivalry. Chivalry’s bastard.” Patience looked stricken. I felt again how much I had changed since I had left Buckkeep. I was not a boy anymore for her to supervise and correct. She had to see me as I was. Still, I tried to soften my tone as I pointed out, “Not the proper son of Prince Chivalry, my lady. Only your husband’s bastard.”
She sat on the foot of my bed and looked at me. Her hazel eyes met mine squarely and held. I saw past her giddiness and distractibility, into a soul capable of more pain and vaster regret than I had ever suspected. “How do you think I could ever forget that?” she asked quietly.
My voice died in my throat as I sought for an answer. I was rescued by Lacey’s return. She had recruited two serving men and a couple of small boys. The dirty water from my bath and my dishes was whisked away by them while Lacey set out a tray of small pastries and two more cups, and measured out fresh brewing herbs for another pot of tea. Patience and I were silent until the serving folk left the room. Lacey made the tea, poured cups for all, and then settled herself with her everpresent tatting.
“It is precisely because of who you are that this is more than a misunderstanding.” Patience launched back into the topic, as if I had never dared interrupt. “If you were just Fedwren’s apprentice, or a stable hand, then you would be free to court and marry however you wished. But you are not, FitzChivalry Farseer. You are of the royal blood. Even a bastard”-she stumbled slightly on the word–of that line must observe certain customs. And practice certain discretions. Consider your position in the royal household. You must have the King’s permission to marry. Surely you are aware of that. Courtesy to King Shrewd demanded that you inform him of your intention to court so that he might consider the case’s merits, and tell you if it pleased him or not. He would consider it. Is it a good time for you to wed? Does it benefit the throne? Is the match an acceptable one, or is it likely to cause scandal? Will your courting interfere with your duties? Are the lady’s bloodlines acceptable? Does the King wish you to have offspring?”