“Huh?” He barely heard her.
“Your scoot. Your ride. Your motorcycle.”
“Sure,” he said. “It’s stored at that garage out in West-port we used to use. You know the one.”
“Gibby’s?”
“Yeah, Gibby’s. Someone different owns it now, but it used to be Gibby’s Garage, yeah.”
He had been blindsided by a brilliantly textured memory: he and Terry, fully clothed and petting like mad behind Gibby’s Garage one afternoon in. . . well, a long time ago, leave it at that, Terry had been wearing a pair of tight blue shorts. He doubted if her mother would have approved of them, God, no, but he himself had thought those discount-store specials made her look like the Queen of the Western World.
Her ass was only good, but her legs … man, those legs had gone not just up to her chin but all the way out to Arcturus and beyond. How had they gotten out there in the first place, among the cast-off tires and rusty engine parts standing hip-deep in sunflowers and feeling each other up? He couldn’t remember, but he remembered the rich curve of her breast in his hand, and how she’d gripped the belt-loops of his jeans when he cried out against her neck, hauling him closer so he could come tight and hard against her taut belly.
He dropped a hand into his lap and wasn’t exactly surprised at what he found there. Say, folks, Frampton comes alive.
“…new bunch, or maybe even a book.”
He settled his hand firmly back on the arm of his chair “Huh? What?”
“Are you going deaf as well as senile?”
“No. I was remembering one time with you behind 2 Gibby’s. Making out.”
“Oh. In the sunflowers, right?”
“Right.”
There was a long pause when she might have been considering some further comment on that interlude.
Johnny -‘ was almost hoping for one. Instead, she went back to her previous scripture.
“1 said maybe you ought to drive across country on your bike before you get too old to work the foot gears, or start drinking again and splash yourself all over theBlack Hills .”
“Are you out of your mind? I haven’t been on that thing in three years, and I have no intention of getting back on, Terry. My eyesight sucks—”
“So get a stronger pair of glasses—”
“—and my reflexes are shot. John Cheever may or may not have died of alcoholism, but John Gardner definitely went out on a motorcycle. Had an argument with a tree.
He lost. It happened on a road inPennsylvania . One I’ve driven myself.”
Terry wasn’t listening. She was one of the few people in the world who felt perfectly comfortable ignoring him and letting her own thoughts carry her away. He supposed that was another reason he’d divorced her. He didn’t like being ignored, especially by a woman.
“You could cross the country on your motorcycle and collect material for a new bunch of essays,” she was saying. She sounded both excited and amused. “If you front-loaded the best of the early bunch—as Part One, you know—you’d have a pretty good-sized book.
“American Heart, 1966—1996, essays by John Edward Marinville.” She giggled. “Who knows? You might even get another good notice from Shelby Foote. That’s the one you always liked the best, wasn’t it?” She paused for his reply, and when it didn’t come, she asked him if he was there, first lightly, then with a little concern.
“Yes,” he said. “I’m here.” He was suddenly glad he was sitting down. “Listen, Terry, I have to go. I’ve got an appointment.”
“New lady-friend?”
“Podiatrist,” he said, thinking Foote, thinking foot. That name was like the final number in a bank-vault combination. Click, and the door swings open.
“Well, take care of yourself,” she said. “And honest to God, Johnny, think about getting back to AA. I mean, what can it hurt?”
“Nothing, I suppose,” he said, thinking about Shelby Foote, who had once called John Edward Marinville the only living American writer of John Steinbeck’s stature, and Terry was right—of all the praise nuggets he’d ever gotten, that was the one he liked the best.
“Right, nothing.” She paused. “Johnny, are you all right? Cause you sound like you’re hardly there.”
“Fine. Say hello to the kids for me.”
“I always do. They usually respond with what my ma used to call potty-words, but I always do. Bye.”
He hung up without looking at the telephone, and when it fell off the edge of the desk and onto the floor, he still didn’t look around. John Steinbeck had crossed the country with his dog in a makeshift camper.
Johnny had a barely used 1340-cc Harley-Davidson Softail stored out inConnecticut . Not American Heart. She was wrong about that, and not just because it was the name of a Jeff Bridges movie from a few years back. Not American Heart but—
“Travels with Harley,” he murmured.
It was a ridiculous title, a laughable title, like a Mad 2 magazine parody … but was it any worse than an essay titled “Death on the Second Shift” or “Feeding the Flames”? He thought not . . . and he felt the title would work, would rise above its punny origins. He had always trusted his intuitions, and he hadn’t had one as strong as this in years. He could cross the country on his red-and- cream Softail, from theAtlantic where it touchedConnecticut to the Pacific where it touchedCalifornia . A book of essays that might cause the critics to entirely rethink their image of him, a book of essays that might even get him back on the bestseller lists, if.. . if… “If it was bighearted,” he said. His heart was thumping hard in his chest, but for once the feel of that didn’t scare him. “Bighearted like Blue Highways. Bighearted like. well, like Steinbeck.”
Sitting there in his office chair with the telephone bur ring harshly at his feet, what Johnny Marinville had seen was nothing less than redemption. A way out.
He had scooped the telephone up and called his agent his fingers flying over the buttons.
“Bill,” he said, “it’s Johnny. I was just sitting here, thinking about some essays I wrote when I was a kid, and I had a fantastic idea. It’s going to sound crazy at first, but hear me out…”
As Johnny made his way up the sandy slope to the highway, trying not to pant too much, he saw that the guy standing behind his Harley and writing down the plate number was the biggest damned chunk of cop he had ever seen—six-six at least, and at least two hundred and seventy pounds on the hoof.
“Afternoon, Officer,” Johnny said. He looked down at himself and saw a tiny dark spot on the crotch of his Levi’s. No matter how much you jump and dance, he thought.
“Sir, are you aware that parking a vehicle on a state road is against the law?” the cop asked without looking up.
“No, but I hardly think—”
It can be much of a problem on a road as deserted as U.s. 50 was how he meant to finish, and in the haughty “How dare you question my judgment?” tone that he had been using on underlings and service people for years, but then he saw something that changed his mind. There was blood on the right cuff and sleeve of the cop’s shirt, quite a lot of it, drying now to a maroon glaze. He had probably finished moving some large piece of road-kill off the highway not very long ago—likely a deer or an elk hit by a speeding semi. That would explain both the blood and the bad temper. The shirt looked like a dead loss; that much blood would never come out.
“Sir?” the cop asked sharply. He had finished writing down the plate number now but went on looking at the bike, his blond eyebrows drawn together, his mouth scrimped flat.
It was as if he didn’t want to look at the bike’s owner, as if he knew that would only make him feel lousier than he did already. “You were saying?”
“Nothing, Officer,” Johnny said. He spoke in a neutral tone, not humble but not haughty, either. He didn’t want to cross this big lug when he was clearly having a bad day.
Still without looking up, his notepad strangled in one hand and his gaze fixed severely on the Harley’s taillight, the cop said: “It’s also against the law to relieve yourself within sight of a state road. Did you know that?”
“No, I’m sorry,” Johnny said. He felt a wild urge to laugh bubbling around in his chest and suppressed it.
“Well, it is. Now, I’m going to let you go He looked up for the first time, looked at Johnny, and his eyes widened. ….. go with a warning this time, but..
He trailed off, eyes now as wide as a kid’s when the circus parade comes thumping down the street in a swirl of clowns and trombones. Johnny knew the look, although he had never expected to see it out here in theNevada desert, and on the face of a gigantic Scandahoovian cop who looked as if his reading tastes might run the gamut from Playboy’s Party Jokes to Guns and Ammo magazine.