‘Just a minute,’ he said.
‘All right,’ Sarah answered. But she felt light-headed now as well as sick to her stomach.
And there were rumblings in her lower belly that she didn’t like. Not the backdoor trots, Lord. Please.
She thought: He can’t be content until he’s lost it all back.
And then, with strange certainty: But he’s not going to lose.
‘What do you say, buddy?’ the pitchman asked. ‘On or off, in or out.’
‘Shit or git,’ one of the roustabouts said, and there was nervous laughter. Sarah’s head swam.
Johnny suddenly shoved bills and quarters up to the corner of the board.
‘What are you doing,’ the pitchman asked, genuinely shocked.
‘The whole wad on 19,’ Johnny said.
Sarah wanted to moan and bit it back.
The crowd murmured.
‘Don’t push it,’ Steve Bernhardt said in Johnny’s ear. Johnny didn’t answer. He was staring at the Wheel with something like indifference. His eyes seemed almost violet.
There was a sudden jingling sound that Sarah at first thought must be in her own ears.
Then she saw that the others who had put money down were sweeping it back off the board again, leaving Johnny to make his play alone.
No! She found herself wanting to shout. Not like that, not alone, it isn’t …….
She bit down on her lips. She was afraid that she might throw up if she opened her mouth. Her stomach was very bad now. Johnny’s pile of winnings sat alone under the naked lights. Fifty-four dollars, and the single-number pay-off was ten for one.
The pitchman wet his lips. ‘Mister, the state says I’m not supposed to take any single number bets over two dollars.’
‘Come on,’ Bernhardt growled. ‘You aren’t supposed to take trip bets over ten and you just let the guy bet eighteen. What is it, your balls starting to sweat?’
‘No, it’s just . .
‘Come on,’ Johnny said abruptly. ‘One way or the other. My girl’s sick.’
The pitchman sized up the crowd. The crowd looked back at him with hostile eyes. It was bad. They didn’t understand that the guy was just throwing his money away and he was trying to restrain him. Fuck it. The crowd wasn’t going to like it either way. Let the guy do his headstand and lose his money so he could shut down for the night.
‘Well,’ he said, ‘as long as none of youse is state inspectors.. .’ He turned to his Wheel.
‘Round and round she’s gonna go, and where she’s gonna stop, ain’t nobody knows.’
He spun, sending the numbers into an immediate blur. For a time that seemed much longer than it actually could have been, there was no sound but the whirring of the Wheel of Fortune, the night wind rippling a swatch of canvas somewhere, and the sick thump in Sarah’s own head. In her mind she begged Johnny to put his arm around her but he only stood quietly with his hands on the playing board and his eyes on the Wheel, which seemed determined to spin forever.
At last it slowed enough for her to be able to read the numbers and she saw 19, the 1 and 9 painted bright red on a black background. Up and down, up and down. The Wheel’s smooth whirr broke into a steady ticka-ticka-ticka that was very loud in the stillness.
Now the numbers marched past the pointer with slowing deliberation.
One of the roustabouts called out in wonder: ‘By the Jesus, it’s gonna be close, anyway!’
Johnny stood calmly, watching the Wheel, and now it seemed to her (although it might have been the sickness, which was now rolling through her belly in gripping, peristaltic waves) that his eyes were almost black. Jekyll and Hyde, she thought, and was suddenly, senselessly, afraid of him.
Ticka-ticka-ticka.
The Wheel clicked into second trip, passed 15 and 16, clicked over 17 and, after an instant’s hesitation, 18 as well. With a final tick! the pointer dropped into the 19 slot. The crowd held its breath. The Wheel revolved slowly, bringing the pointer up against the small pin between 19 and 20. For a quarter of a second it seemed that the pin could not hold the pointer in the 19 slot; that the last of its dying velocity would carry it over to 20.