“There’s no way out for you, is there?” She took my hand, rubbed it down the soft velvet of her cheek.
“Poor Paul. Poor old guy.”
I said nothing. Never before or after in my life did I feel so much like running from a thing. Just taking Jan with me, the two of us with a single packed carpetbag between us, running to anywhere.
“My poor old guy”, she repeated, and then: “Talk to him.”
“Who? John ?”
“Yes. Talk to him. Find out what he wants.”
I thought about it, then nodded. She was right. She usually was.
7.
Two days later, on the eighteenth, Bill Dodge, Hank Bitterman, and someone else – I don’t remember who, some floater – took John Coffey over to D Block for his shower, and we rehearsed his execution while he was gone. We didn’t let Toot-Toot stand in for John ; all of us knew, even without talking about it, that it would have been an obscenity.
I did it.
“John Coffey”, Brutal said in a not-quite-steady voice as I sat clamped into Old Sparky, “you have been condemned to die in the electric chair, sentence passed by a jury of your peers. ..”
John Coffey’s peers? What a joke. So far as I knew, there was no one like him on the planet. Then I thought of what John had said while he stood looking at Sparky from the foot of the stairs leading down from my office: They’re still in there. I hear them screaming.
“Get me out of it”, I said hoarsely. “Undo these clamps and let me up.”
They did it, but for a moment I felt frozen there, as if Old Sparky did not want to let me go.
As we walked back to the block, Brutal spoke to me in a low voice, so not even Dean and Harry, who were setting up the last of the chairs behind us, would overhear. “I done a few things in my life that I’m not proud of, but this is the first time I ever felt really actually in danger of hell.”
I looked at him to make sure he wasn’t joking. I didn’t think he was. “What do you mean?”
“I mean we’re fixing to kill a gift of God”, he said. “One that never did ary harm to us, or to anyone else.
What am I going to say if I end up standing in front of God the Father Almighty and He asks me to explain why I did it? That it was my job? My job?”
8.
When John got back from his shower and the floaters had left, I unlocked his cell, went in, and sat down on the bunk beside him. Brutal was on the desk. He looked up, saw me in there on my own, but said nothing. He just went back to whatever paperwork he was currently mangling, licking away at the tip of his pencil the whole time.
John looked at me with his strange eyes – bloodshot, distant, on the verge of tears … and yet calm, too, as if crying was not such a bad way of life, not once you got used to it. He even smiled a little. He smelled of Ivory soap, I remember, as clean and fresh as a baby after his evening bath.
“Hello, boss,” he said, and then reached out and took both of my hands in both of his. It was done with a perfect unstudied naturalness.
“Hello, John .” There was a little block in my throat, and I tried to swallow it away. “I guess you know that we’re coming down to it now. Another couple of days.”
He said nothing, only sat there holding my hands in his. I think, looking back on it, that something had already begun to happen to me, but I was too fixed – mentally and emotionally – on doing my duty to notice.
“Is there anything special you’d like that night for dinner, John ? We can rustle you up most anything.
Even bring you a beer, if you want. just have to put her in a coffee cup, that’s all.”