“I’d be interested in that.”
“He had a big cock,” she said impishly and then laughed. “Sorry. I couldn’t resist that. Actually he was awful in the sack. A regular screwing machine. Terrific if you like your sex depersonalized.”
“I’m not crazy about that kind myself,” I said dryly.
“Neither was I when I figured it out. I was a virgin when I married him.”
“Jesus,” I said. “That’s a bore.”
“It was an even bigger bore back then but it was all part of the message I was raised on. I always thought the failure was mine in terms of our sex life.” She trailed off and the faintest tint came to her cheeks.
“Until what,” I ventured.
“Maybe I should have wine too,” she said and signaled to the waitress. I ordered a second glass. Gwen turned to me.
“I had an affair when I turned thirty.”
“Shows you had some sense.”
“Well yes and no. It only lasted about six weeks but it was the best six weeks of my life. In a way, I was glad to see it end. It was powerful stuff and it would have turned my life around. I wasn’t ready for that.” She paused and I could see her reviewing the information in her head. “Laurence was always very critical of me and I believed I deserved it. Then I ran into a man who thought I could do no wrong. At first I resisted. I knew what I was feeling for this man but it went against the grain. Finally I just gave in. For a while I told myself it was good for my relationship with Laurence. I was suddenly getting something I’d needed for a long time and it made me feel very giving with him. And then the double life began to take its toll. I deceived Laurence for as long as I could but he began to suspect something was going on. I got so I couldn’t tolerate his touch — too much tension, too much deceit. Too much good stuff somewhere else. He must have felt the change come over me because he began to probe and question, wanted to know where I was every minute of the day. Called at odd hours in the afternoon and of course I was out. Even when I was with Laurence, I was somewhere else. He threatened me with divorce and I got scared so I confessed up. That was the biggest mistake of my life because he divorced me anyway.”
“As punishment.”
“As only Laurence Fife knew how. In spades.”
“Where is he now?”
“My lover? Why do you ask?”
Her tone was instantly guarded, her expression wary.
“Laurence must have known who he was. If he was punishing you, why not punish the other guy too?”
“I don’t want to cast suspicion on him,” she said. “That would be a lousy thing to do. He had nothing to do with Laurence’s death. I’ll give you a written guarantee.”
“What makes you so sure? A lot of people were mistaken about a lot of things back then and Nikki paid a price for it.”
“Hey,” she said sharply, “Nikki was represented by the best lawyer in the state. Maybe she got a few bad breaks and maybe not, but there’s no point in trying to lay the blame on someone who had nothing to do with it.”
“I’m not trying to blame anyone. I’m just trying to come up with a direction on this thing. I can’t force you to tell me who he is.”
“That’s right and I think you’d have a hell of a time finding out from anyone else.”
“Look, I’m not here to pick a fight. I’m sorry. Skip that for now.”
Two patches of red appeared on her neck. She was fighting back anger, trying to get control of herself again. I thought, for a moment, she would bolt.
“I’m not going to press the point,” I said. “That’s a whole separate issue and I came here to talk to you. You don’t want to talk about that then it’s fine with me.”
She still seemed poised for flight so I shut my mouth and let her work it out for herself. Finally I could see her relax a little and I realized then that I was as tense as she. This was too valuable a contact for me to blow.
“Let’s go back to Laurence. Tell me about him,” I said. “What were all the infidelities about?”
She laughed selfconsciously then and took a sip of wine, shaking her head. “Sorry. I didn’t mean to get upset but you took me by surprise.”
“Yeah, well that happens now and then. Sometimes I surprise myself.”
“I don’t think he liked women. He was always expecting to be betrayed. Women were the people who did you in. He liked to get there first, or at least that’s my guess. I suspect an affair for him was always a power relationship and he was top dog.
“‘Do unto others before they do unto you.’”
“Right.”
“But who had an ax to grind with him? Who could have hated him that much?”
She shrugged and her composure seemed restored. “I’ve thought about that all afternoon and what’s odd is that when it comes right down to it, I’m not sure. He had awful relationships with a lot of people. Divorce attorneys are never very popular, but most of them don’t get murdered.”
“Maybe it wasn’t related to business,” I suggested. “Maybe it wasn’t an irate husband pissed off about alimony and child support. Maybe it was something else — ‘a woman scorned.”’
“Well there were a lot of those. But I think he was probably very slick about breaking things off. Or the women themselves were sufficiently recovered to recognize the limits of the relationship and move on. He did have an awful affair with the wife of a local judge, a woman named Charlotte Mercer. She’d have run him down in the street given half a chance. Or that’s what I’ve heard since. She wasn’t the type to let go gracefully.”
“How’d you find out about it?”
“She called me up after he broke off with her.”
“Before your divorce or afterwards?”
“Oh afterwards, because I remember thinking at the time that I wished she’d called sooner. I went into court with nothing.”
“I don’t understand,” I said. “What good would it have done? You couldn’t have gotten him on adultery even back then.”
“He didn’t get me on that either but it sure would have given me a psychological edge. I felt so guilty about what I’d done that I hardly put up a fight except when it came to the kids, and even then he beat me down. If she’d wanted to cause trouble, she could have been a big help. He still had his reputation to protect. Anyway, maybe Charlotte Mercer can fill you in.”
“Wonderful. I’ll tell her she’s my number-one suspect.”
Gwen laughed. “Feel free to mention my name if she wants to know who sent you. It’s the least I can do.”
After Gwen left, I looked up Charlotte Mercer’s address in the telephone book by the pay phone in the rear. She and the judge lived up in the foothills above Santa Teresa in what turned out to be a sprawling one-story house with stables off to the right, the land all dust and scrub brush. The sun was just beginning to go down and the view was spectacular. The ocean looked like a wide lavender ribbon stitched up against a pink-and-blue sky.
A housekeeper in a black uniform answered the bell and I was left in a wide cool hallway while “the missus” was fetched. Light footsteps approached from the rear of the house and I thought at first the Mercers’ teenage daughter (if there was one) had appeared in Charlotte’s place.
“Yes, what is it?”
The voice was low and husky and rude and the initial impression of adolescence gave way rapidly.
“Charlotte Mercer?”
“Yes, that’s right.”
She was petite, probably five-four, maybe a hundred pounds if that. Sandals, tank top, white shorts, her legs tawny and shapely. Not a line on her face. Her hair was a dusty blond, cut short, her makeup subdued. She had to be fifty-five years old and there was no way she could have looked that good without a team of experts. There was an artificial firmness to her jaw and her cheeks had that sleek tucked-up look that only a face-lift can provide at that late date. Her neck was lined and the backs of her hands were knotted with veins but those were the only contradictions to the appearance of slim, cool youth. Her eyes were a pale blue, made vivid by the skillful application of mascara and an eye shadow in two shades of gray. Gold bracelets jangled on one arm.
“I’m Kinsey Millhone,” I said. “I’m a private investigator.”