“How can you blame yourself? If someone wanted to get into the house, he would have let the dog loose anyway. Or killed it and made it look like an accident. I mean, who’s going to get upstairs with a goddamn German shepherd barking and snarling?” I said.
“I don’t know. Maybe so. It could be, I guess. I mean, he was a good watchdog. If he’d been in, nobody could have done anything.”
She let out a deep breath, blowing her nose again on the damp twisted Kleenex. “I was so irresponsible in those days. They were always on my case, which just made things worse. I couldn’t tell ‘em. And nobody seemed to make the connection when Daddy died except me and I couldn’t admit it then.”
“Hey it’s over,” I said, “it’s done. You can’t beat yourself to death with it. It’s not as if you did it deliberately.”
“I know, I know. But the result was the same, you know?” Her voice lifted up and her eyes squeezed shut again, tears running down her cheeks. “He was such a shit and I loved him so much. I know Greg hated his guts, but I just thought he was great. I didn’t care if he screwed around. That wasn’t his fault. He was just so messed up all his life. He really was.”
She wiped her eyes with the wad of Kleenex and then took another deep breath. She reached in her purse for a compact.
“Why don’t you skip your class and go home?” I said.
“Maybe I will,” she said. She looked at herself in the mirror. “God, I’m a wreck. I can’t go anywhere looking like this.”
“I’m sorry I triggered this. I think I feel worse than you,” I said sheepishly.
“No, that’s all fight. It’s not your fault. It’s mine. I guess I’ll even have to tell my shrink now. He’ll think it’s cathartic. He loves that shit. I guess everyone will know now. God, that’s all I need.”
“Hey, I may or may not have to mention it. I really don’t know yet, but I don’t think it matters now. If someone was determined to kill your father, it would have been done one way or the other. That’s just a fact.”
“I guess so. Anyway, it’s nice of you to say that. I feel better. Really. I didn’t even know it was still weighing on me” but it must have been.”
“You’re sure you’re okay now?”
She nodded, giving me a little smile.
We said our good-byes, which took a few minutes more, and then she walked to her car. I watched while she drove off and then I tossed the album for Colin in the backseat of my car and pulled out. Actually, though I hated to admit it, she was probably right. If the dog had been in the house, no one could have messed with anything. With the dog in or out, dead or alive, it certainly wouldn’t have protected Libby Glass. And at least one piece of the puzzle now fit. It didn’t seem to mean much, but it did seem to establish the approximate date of entry to the house, if that’s how the killer had effected the switch. It felt like the first blank I’d really filled in. Small progress but it made me feel good. I drove back to the San Bernardino Freeway and headed for L.A.
CHAPTER 16
When I got back to the Hacienda, I went into the office to check for telephone messages. Arlette had four, but three of them turned out to be from Charlie Scorsoni. She leaned an elbow on the counter, munching on something sticky and dark brown enclosed in cookie dough.
“What is that thing?”
“Trimline Diet Snack Bar,” she said. “Six calories each.” Some of the filling seemed to be stuck to her teeth like dental putty and she ran a finger along her gums, popping goo into her mouth again. “Look at this label. I bet there’s not one natural ingredient in this entire piece of food. Milk powder, hydrogenated fat, powdered egg, and a whole list of chemicals and additives. But you know what? I’ve noticed real food doesn’t taste as good as fake. Have you noticed that? It’s just a fact of life. Real food is bland, watered-down-tasting. You take a supermarket tomato. Now it’s pathetic what that tastes like,” she said and shuddered. I was trying to sort through my messages but she was making it hard.
“I bet this isn’t even real flour in this thing,” she said. “I mean, I’ve heard people say junk food just has empty calories, but who needs full ones? I like ‘em empty. That way I figure I can’t gain any more weight. That Charlie Scorsoni sure kept in touch, didn’t he? He called once from Denver and then he called from Tucson and last night from Santa Teresa. Wonder what he wants. He sounded cute.
“I’ll be in my room,” I said.
“Well all right. Good enough. You want to return those calls, you just give me a buzz up here and I’ll put you through.”
“Thanks,” I said.
“Oh yeah, and I gave your telephone number in Las Vegas to a couple of people who didn’t want to leave messages. I hope that’s okay. You didn’t say I couldn’t refer calls.”
“No, that’s fine,” I said. “Any idea who it might have been?”
“Male and female, one each,” she said airily.
When I got to my room, I kicked my shoes off and called Charlie Scorsoni’s office and talked to Ruth.
“He was supposed to get back last night,” she said. “But he didn’t plan to come in to the office. You might try him at home.”
“Well, if I don’t get him there, will you tell him I’m back in Los Angeles? He knows where to reach me here.
“Will do,” she said.
The other message was a bonus. Apparently Garry Steinberg, the accountant at Haycraft and McNiece, had come back from New York a few days early and was willing to talk to me on Friday afternoon, which was today. I called and talked to him briefly, telling him I’d be there within the hour. Then I called Mrs. Glass and told her I should be out at her place shortly after supper. There was one more call I felt I should make, though I dreaded the necessity. I sat for a moment on the edge of the bed, staring at the phone and then I said to hell with it and dialed my friend in Las Vegas.
“Jesus, Kinsey,” he said through his teeth. “I wish you wouldn’t do this to me. I get you the lowdown on Sharon Napier and next thing I know she’s dead.”
I gave him the situation as succinctly as I could but it didn’t seem to ease his anxieties. Or mine. “It could have been anyone,” I said. “We don’t know that she was shot because of me.
“Yeah, but I got to cover myself anyway. Somebody remembers that I was asking around after this lady and then she’s found with a bullet in her throat. I mean, how does that look?”
I apologized profusely and told him to let me know anything he found out. He didn’t seem that eager to keep in touch. I changed clothes, putting on a skirt, hose, and heels, and then I drove to the Avco Embassy building and took the elevator to the tenth floor. I was feeling bad about Sharon Napier all over again, guilt sitting in my gut like a low-level colic. How could I have missed that appointment? How could that have happened to me? She knew something and if I’d gotten there on time, I might be wrapping this investigation up instead of being where I was-which was nowhere in particular. I made my way back into the imitation barnyard of Haycraft and McNiece, staring at the dried corn on the wall while I whipped myself some more.
Garry Steinberg turned out to be a very nice man. I guessed him to be in his early thirties, with dark curly hair, dark eyes, and a small gap between his front teeth. He was probably five feet, ten inches and his body looked soft, his waist puffing out like rising bread dough.
“You’re noticing my waist, am I right?” he asked.
I shrugged somewhat sheepishly, wondering if he did or did not want me to comment. He motioned me into a chair and then sat down behind his desk.
“Let me show you something,” he said, lifting a finger. He opened his top desk drawer and took out a snapshot, which he handed to me. I glanced at it.
“Who’s this?”
“Perfect,” he said. “That was the perfect response. That’s me. When I weighed three hundred and ten pounds. Now I weigh two-sixteen.”
“My God,” I said and looked at the picture again. Actually I could see now that in the old days he had looked a bit like Arlette might if she decided to cross-dress. I’m crazy about “before-and-after” shots, an avid fan of all those magazine ads showing women pumped up like tires and then magically thin, one foot arranged in front of the other, as though weight loss also involved the upsurge of charm and modeling skills. I wondered if there was anyone left in California not obsessed with self-image.