“I’m fine,” I said.
I sat down in the other chair. He pushed the ottoman over and I put my feet up. I wondered what it must be like to live in a house like this where all of your needs were tended to, where someone else was responsible for grocery shopping and food preparation, cleaning, trash removal, landscape maintenance. What did it leave you free to do? “What’s it like coming from money like this? I can’t even imagine it.”
He hesitated, lifting his head.
In the distance, we could hear the ambulance approach, the siren reaching a crescendo and then winding down abruptly with a whine of regret. He glanced at me, dabbing self-consciously at his chin. “You think we’re spoiled?” The two halves of his face seemed to give contradictory messages: one animated, one dead.
“How do I know? You live a lot better than most,” I said.
“Hey, we do our share. My mother does a lot of fund raising for local charities and she’s on the board for the art museum and the historical society. I don’t know about Derek. He plays golf and hangs out at the club. Well, that’s not fair. He has some investments he looks after, which is how they met. He was the executor for the trust my grandfather left me. Once he and Mom got married, he left the bank. Anyway, they support a lot of causes so it’s not like they’re just self-indulgent, grinding the poor underfoot. My mother launched the Santa Teresa Girls’ Club just about single-handedly. The Rape Crisis Center too.”
“What about Kitty? What does she do with herself besides get loaded?”
He looked at me carefully. “Don’t make judgments. You don’t know what any of us has been through.”
“You’re right. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to sound quite so righteous. Is she in private school?”
He shook his head. “Not anymore. They moved her over to Santa Teresa High School this year. Anything to try to get her straightened out.”
He stared at the door uneasily. The house was so solidly constructed there was no way to tell if the paramedics had come upstairs yet.
I crossed the room and opened the door a crack. They were just coming out of Kitty’s room with the portable gurney, its wheels swiveling like a grocery cart’s as they angled her into the hall. She was covered with a blanket, so frail that she scarcely formed a mound. One thin arm was extended outside the covers. They’d started an I.V., a plastic bag of some clear solution held aloft by one of the paramedics. Oxygen was being administered through a nose cone. Dr. Kleinert moved toward the stairs ahead of them and Derek brought up the rear, hands shoved awkwardly in his pockets, his face pale. He seemed out of place and ineffectual, pausing when he caught sight of me.
“I’m going to follow in my car,” he said, though no one had asked. “Tell Bobby we’ll be at St. Terry’s.”
I felt sorry for him. The scene was like something out of a TV series, the medical personnel very deadpan and businesslike. This was his daughter being taken away and she might actually die, but no one seemed to be addressing the possibility. There was no sign of Bobby’s mother, no sign of the people who’d come for drinks. Everything felt ill-planned somehow, like an elaborate entertainment that was falling flat. “You want us to come, too?” I asked.
Derek shook his head. “Let my wife know where I am,” he said. “I’ll call as soon as I know what’s going on.”
“Good luck,” I said, and he flashed me a weak smile as if good luck was not something he’d had much experience with.
I watched the procession disappear down the stairs. I closed the door to Bobby’s room. I started to say something, but Bobby cut me off
“I heard,” he said.
“Why isn’t your mother involved in this? Are she andr: Kitty on the outs or what?”
“Jesus, it’s all too complicated to explain. Mom washed her hands of Kitty after the last incident, which isn’t as heartless as it sounds. Early on, she did what she could, but I guess it was just one crisis after another. That’s part of the reason she and Derek are having such a tough time.”
“What’s the other part?”
His look was bleak. Clearly, he felt he was equally to blame.
There was a tap at the door and a Chicano woman with her hair in a braid appeared with a tray. Her face was expressionless and she made no eye contact. If she knew what was happening, she gave no indication of it. She fussed around for a bit with cloth napkins and cutlery. I almost expected her to present a room-service check to be signed off with a tip added in.
“Thanks, Alicia,” Bobby said.
She murmured something and departed. I felt uncomfortable that it was all so impersonal. I wanted to ask her if her feet hurt like mine, or if she had a family we could talk about. I wanted her to voice curiosity or dismay about the people she worked for, carted away on stretchers at odd hours of the day. Instead, Bobby poured the wine and we ate.
The meal was like something out of a magazine. Plump quartered chicken served cold with a mustard sauce, tiny flaky tarts filled with spinach and a smoky cheddar cheese, clusters of grapes and sprigs of parsley tucked here and there. Two small china bowls with lids held an icy tomato soup with fresh dill clipped across the surface and a little dollop of creme fraiche. We finished with a plate of tiny decorated cookies. Did these people eat like this every day? Bobby never batted an eye. I don’t know what I expected him to do. He couldn’t squeal with excitement every time a supper tray showed up, but I was impressed and I guess I wanted him to marvel, as I did, so I wouldn’t feel like such a rube.
By the time we went downstairs, it was nearly eight and the guests were gone. The house seemed deserted, except for the two maids who were tidying up the living room in silence as we passed. Bobby led us to a heavy oak-paneled door across the wide hall. He knocked and there was a murmured response. We went into a small den, where Glen Callahan was seated with a book, a wineglass on the end table at her right hand. She’d changed into chocolate-brown wool slacks and a matching cashmere pullover. A fire burned in a copper grate. The walls were painted tomato red, with matching red drapes drawn against the chill dusk. In Santa Teresa, most nights are cold regardless of the month. This room felt cozy, an intimate retreat from the rest or the house with its high ceilings and chalk-white stucco walls.
Bobby sat down in the chair across from his mother. “Has Derek called yet?”
She closed her book and set it aside. “A few minutes ago. She’s pulled out of it. She had her stomach pumped and they’ll be admitting her as soon as she’s out of emergency. Derek will stay until the papers have been signed.”
I glanced at Bobby. He lowered his face into his hands and sighed once with relief, a sound like a low note on a bagpipe. He shook his head, staring down at the floor.
Glen studied him. “You’re exhausted. Why don’t you go on to bed? I’ll want to talk to Kinsey alone anyway.”
“All right. I might as well,” he said. The slur in his voice had become pronounced and I could see now that the fine muscles near his eyes were being tugged, as though stimulated electrically. Fatigue apparently exacerbated his disability. He got up and crossed to her chair. Glen took his face in her hands and stared at him intently.
“I’ll let you know if there’s any change in Kitty’s condition,” she murmured. “I don’t want you to worry. Sleep well.”
He nodded, laying the good side of his face near hers. He moved toward the door. “I’ll call you in the morning,” he said to me, then let himself out. I could hear his dragging gait for a moment in the hallway and then it faded from hearing.
Chapter 5
I sat in the chair Bobby had vacated. The down-filled cushion was still warm, contoured to the shape of his body. Glen was watching me, formulating, I gathered, an opinion of me. By lamplight, I could see that her hair color was the handiwork of an expert who’d matched it almost exactly to the mild brown of her eyes. Everything about her was beautifully coordinated: makeup, clothing, accessories. She was apparently a person who paid attention to detail and her taste was impeccable.
“I’m sorry you had to see us like this.”
“I’m not sure I ever see people at their best,” I said. “It gives me a rather skewed impression of humankind. Will he be paying my bills or will you?”