“What makes you think he’ll agree?”
“Why wouldn’t he? He’s free now. And I will be, too, as soon as Pop dies.”
“And you think that constitutes a relationship?” I said, astonished.
“What do you know about relationships?”
“Hey, I’ve been married twice. That’s more than you can say.”
“You’re divorced. You don’t know dick.”
I had to shrug at that.
“I bet Jean was sorry she confided in you.”
“Very. At the end, she put up quite a fight.”
“But you won.”
“I had to. I couldn’t have her ruining Dwight’s life.”
“Assuming it was his,” I said.
“The babe? Of course it was.”
“Oh great. No problem, then. You’re completely justified,” I said. “Does he know how much you’ve done for him?”
“That’s our little secret. Yours and mine.”
“How did you know where Shana would be Wednesday night?”
“Simple. I followed her.”
“But why kill the woman?”
“Same reason I’m going to kill you. For screwing Dwight.”
“She was going up there to meet Joe Dunne,” I said. “Neither one of us screwed Dwight.”
“Bullshit!”
“It’s not bullshit. He’s a nice enough guy, but he’s not my type. He told me himself he and Shana were just friends. It was strictly platonic. They hadn’t even screwed once!”
“You liar. You think I don’t know what’s been going on? You sashay into town and start coming , on to him, riding around in his car, having cozy dinners …”
“Ann, we were talking. That’s all it was.”
“Nobody’s going to get in my way, Kinsey. Not after all I’ve been through. I’ve worked too hard and waited too long. I’ve sacrificed my entire adult life, and you’re not going to spoil things now that I’m almost free.”
“Well, listen, Ann … if I may say so, you’re as crazy as a bug. No ofFense, but you are looney-tunes, completely cuckoo-nuts.” I was just making mouth noises while I thought about my gun. My little Davis was still in the holster tucked up against my left breast. What I wanted to do was take it out and plug her right between the eyes-or someplace fatal. But here’s the way I figured it. By the time I reached up under my turtleneck, snatched the gun out, pointed it, and fired, that shotgun of hers would have taken off my face. And how was I going to get the gun, feign a heart attack? I didn’t think she’d fall for it. My eyes had adjusted to the dark, and since I could see her perfectly, I had to guess she could see me just as well.
“Mind if I turn off the penlight? I hate to use up the batteries,” I said. The beam was pointed at the ceiling, and my arms were getting tired. Probably hers, too. A shotgun like that weighs a good seven pounds-not easy to hold steady, even if you’re used to lifting weights.
“Just stay where you are and don’t move.”
“Wow, that’s just what Elva said.”
Ann reached over and turned on the bedside lamp. She looked worse in the light. She had a mean face, I could see that now. The slightly receding chin made her look like a rat. The shotgun was a twelve-gauge, over-and-under, and she seemed to know which end did the hurt.
Dimly, I became aware of a shuffling sound in the hall. Royce. When had he come upstairs? “Ann? Aw, Annie, I found some pictures of your mother I thought you’d like. Can I come in?”
I saw her eyes flick toward the door. “I’ll be down in a minute, Pop. We can look at them then.”
Too late. He had pushed the door open, peering in. He had a photograph album in his arms, and his face held such innocence. His eyes seemed very blue. His lashes were sparse, still wet from his tears, his nose red. Gone was the gruffness, the arrogance, the dominance. His illness had made him frail, and Ori’s death had knocked him to his knees, but here he came again, an old man full of hope. “Mrs. Maude and Mrs. Emma are looking for you to say good night.”
“I’m busy right now. Will you take care of it?”
He caught sight of me. He must have wondered what I was doing with my hands in the air. His attention strayed to the shotgun Ann held at shoulder height. I thought he was going to turn and shuffle out again. He hesitated, uncertain what to do next.
I said, “Hello, Royce. Guess who killed Jean Timberlake?”
He glanced at me and then looked away. “Well.” His gaze slid over to Ann as if she might deny the accusation. She got up from the bed and reached behind him for the door.
“Go on downstairs, Pop. I have something to do and then I’ll be down.”
He seemed confused. “You’re not going to hurt her.”
“No, of course not,” she said.
“She’s going to shoot my ass!” I said.
His gaze strayed back to hers, looking for reassurance.
“What do you think she’s doing with that
shotgun? She’s going to kill me dead and then claim trespass. She told me so.”
“Pop, I caught her going through my closet. The cops are after her. She’s in cahoots with Bailey, trying to help him get away.”
“Oh, don’t be a silly. Why would I do that?”
“Bailey?” Royce said. It was the first time tonight I’d seen comprehension in his eyes.
“Royce, I’ve got proof he’s innocent. Ann’s the one who killed Jean-”
“You liar! Ann cut in. “The two of you are trying to take Pop for everything he’s worth.”
God, I couldn’t believe this. Ann and I were squabbling like little kids, each of us trying to persuade Royce to be on our side. “Did too.” “Did not.” “Did too.”
Royce put a trembling finger to his lips. “If she’s got proof, maybe we should hear what it is,” he said, talking almost to himself. “Don’t you think so, Annie? If she can prove Bailey’s innocent?”
I could see the rage begin to stir at the mention of his name. I was worried she would shoot and argue with her daddy afterward. The same thought apparently occurred to him. He reached for the shotgun. “Put it down, baby.”
Abruptly, she backed away. “DON’T TOUCH ME!”
I could feel my heart start to thud, afraid he’d yield. Instead, he seemed to focus, gathering his strength.
“What are you doing, Ann? You can’t do that.”
“Go on. Get out of here.”
“I want to hear what Kinsey has to say.” “Just do what I tell you and get the hell out!”
He clamped a hand on the barrel. “Give me that before you hurt someone.”
“No!” Ann snatched it out of his reach. Royce lunged, grabbing it. The two of them struggled for possession of the shotgun. I was immobilized, my attention fixed on the big black 8 of the two barrels that pointed first at me, then the floor, ceiling, weaving through the air. Royce should have been the stronger, but illness had sapped him and Ann’s rage gave her the edge. Royce jerked the gun by the stock.
Fire spurted from the barrel, and the blast filled the room with powder smell. The shotgun thumped to the floor as Ann screamed.
She was looking down in disbelief. Most of her right foot had been blown away. All that was left was a torn stump of raw meat. I could feel heat rip through me as though the sensation were mine. I turned away, repelled.
The pain must have bee ; excruciating, blood pumping out. What color she had left drained from her face. She sank to the floor, speechless, her body rocking as she clutched herself. Her cries dropped to a low, relentless pitch.
Royce backed away from her, his voice feeble with regret. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to do that. I tried to help.”
I could hear people pounding up the stairs: Bert, Mrs. Maude, a young deputy I’d never seen. Another kid. Wait until he got a load of this.
“Get an ambulance!” I yelled. I was pulling a pillowcase off the bed, wadding it against her mangled foot, trying to stanch the blood spewing everywhere. The deputy fumbled with his walkie-talkie while Mrs. Maude babbled, wringing her hands. Mrs. Emma had pushed into the room behind her, and she began to shriek when she saw what was going on. Maxine and Bert were both white-faced, holding on to each other. Belatedly, the deputy herded all of them into the corridor and closed the door again. Even through the wall I could hear Mrs. Emma’s shrill cries.
Ann was lying on her back by then, one arm flung across her face. Royce clung to her right hand, rocking back and forth. She was weeping like a five-year-old. “You were never there for me … you were never there. …”
I thought about my papa. I was five when he left me … five when he went away. An image came to me, a memory repressed for years. In the car, just after the wreck, when I was trapped in the backseat, wedged in tight, with the sound of my mother’s weeping going on and on and on, I had reached around the edge of the front seat, where I found my father’s hand, unresisting, passive, and soft. I tucked my fingers around his, not understanding he was dead, simply thinking everything would be all right as long as I had him. When had it dawned on me that he was gone for good? When had it dawned on Ann that Royce was never going to come through? And what of Jean Timberlake? None of us had survived the wounds our fathers inflicted all those years ago. Did he love us? How would we ever know? He was gone and he’d never again be what he was to us in all his haunting perfection. If love is what injures us, how can we heal?