“I’m sorry to spring it on you, but there isn’t any nice way to put it. It is disgusting. It’s terrible. We’re all numb.”
“Has anybody been arrested?”
“Not at this point,” she said. “The family’s doing what they can to cooperate, but it doesn’t look good.”
“Tasha, I don’t believe this. I’m sick.”
“I am too. A colleague called me in Utah this morning after Donovan called him. I left everything behind and got myself on a plane.”
“Who do they suspect?”
“I have no idea. From what I’ve heard, Jack and Bennet were both out last night. Christie went to bed early and Donovan was watching TV upstairs in their sitting room. Myrna’s apartment is off the kitchen in back, but she says she was dead to the world and didn’t hear anything. She’s currently down at the station being interviewed. Christie came in a little while ago. She says the detectives are still talking to Donovan. Hang on.”
She put a hand across the mouthpiece and I heard her in a muffled discussion with someone in the background. She came back on the line, saying, “Great. I just talked to the homicide detective in charge of things here. He wants to keep the phone line open, but says if you want to come over he’ll tell the guys at the gate to let you in. I told him he ought to talk to you since you were the one who found Guy in the first place. I told him you might have something to contribute.”
“I doubt that, but who knows? I’ll be there in fifteen minutes. Do you need anything?”
“We’re fine for the moment. If no one’s at the gate, the code is 1-9-2-4. Just punch the number in at the call box beside the drive. See you shortly,” she said.
I grabbed my blazer and my handbag and went out to my car. The day had been mild. The high winds had moved on, taking with them the unseasonable heat. The light was waning and as soon as the sun set, the temperatures would drop. I was already chilled and I shrugged into my blazer before I slid beneath the wheel. Earlier in the day, I’d tried to use my wipes and washer fluid to clean the dust off my windshield and now it was streaked in a series of rising half moons. The hood of my car was covered with the same fine layer of dust, as pale as powder, and just as soft by the look of it. Even the seat upholstery had a gritty feel to it.
I put my hands together on the steering wheel and leaned my forehead against them. I had absolutely no feeling. My interior process was held in suspended animation, as if the Pause button had been pushed on some remote control. How was it possible Guy Malek was gone? For the past week, he’d been such a presence in my life. He’d been both lost and found. He’d occupied my thoughts, triggering reactions of sympathy and exasperation. Now I couldn’t quite remember his face only a flash here and there, the sound of his “Hey,” the whiskery brush of his chin on my cheek. He was already as insubstantial as a ghost, all form without content, a series of fragmented images without permanence.
What seemed so odd was that life just went on. I could see traffic passing along Cabana Boulevard. Two doors away, my neighbor raked brittle leaves into a pile on his lawn. If I turned on the car radio, there’d be intervals of music, public service announcements, commercials, and news broadcasts. Guy Malek might not even be mentioned on some stations. I’d lived my entire day without any intuition that Guy had been murdered, no tremor whatsoever in my subterranean landscape. So what’s life about? Are people not really dead until we’ve been irrefutably informed? It felt that way to me, as though Guy had, just this moment, been jettisoned out of this world and into the next.
I turned the key in the ignition. Every ordinary act seemed fraught with novelty. My perceptions had changed, and with them many of my assumptions about my personal safety. If Guy could be murdered, why not Henry, or me? I drove on automatic pilot while the street scenes slid past. Familiar neighborhoods looked odd and there was a moment when I couldn’t recall with any certainty what town I was in.
Approaching the Maleks’, I could see that traffic had increased. Cars filled with the curious cruised by the estate. Heads were turned almost comically in the same direction. There were cars parked on both sides of the road out front. Tires had chewed into the grass, plowing down bushes and crushing the stray saplings. As each new car appeared, the assembled crowd would turn, craning and peering to see if it was someone of note.
My car didn’t seem to generate a lot of interest at first. I guess nobody could believe the Maleks would drive a VW bug, especially one like mine, with its dust and assorted dings. It was only when I pulled up at the gate and gave my name to the guard that the reporters surged forward, trying to catch a glimpse of me. They seemed to be fresh troops. I didn’t recognize anyone from my earlier trip over.
Somehow the national media had already managed to get camera crews assembled, and I knew that by seven the next morning, someone closely associated with the Maleks would be seen in a three-minute interview. I don’t know how the major networks make arrangements so quickly. It was one of the miracles of technology that less than twenty-four hours after Guy Malek’s death, somebody would do a close-up of a tearstained face, maybe Christie’s or Myrna’s or even Enid’s, the cook I’d yet to meet.
There was a black-and-white patrol car parked to one side, along with a vehicle from a private firm. I spotted the security guard pacing along the road, trying to keep the crowd from moving in too close. A uniformed police officer checked my name on his clipboard and waved me in. The gate swung inward by degrees and I idled the engine until the gap was sufficient to ease through. In that brief interval, there were strangers knocking on my car window, yelling questions in my direction. With their various handheld mikes extended, they might have been offering gimcracks for sale. I kept my eyes straight ahead. When I pulled forward through the gate, two male reporters continued to trot alongside me like cut-rate Secret Service agents. The security guard and the cop both converged, cutting off their progress. In my rearview mirror, I could see them begin to argue with the officer, probably reciting their moral, legal, and Constitutional rights.
My heart rate picked up as I eased up the driveway toward the house. I could see five or six uniformed officers prowling across the property, eyes on the ground as if hunting for four-leaved clovers. Light tended to fade rapidly at this hour of the day. Shadows were already collecting beneath the trees. Soon they’d need flashlights to continue the search. There was a second uniformed officer posted at the front door, his face impassive. He walked out to meet my car and I rolled down my window. I gave him my name and watched him scan both his list and my face. Apparently satisfied, he stepped away from the car. In the courtyard to my left, there were already numerous cars jammed into the cobblestone turnaround. “Any place in here all right?”
“You can park in the rear. Then come around and use the front door to go in,” he said, and motioned me on.
“Thanks.”
I pulled around to the left and parked my car at the far end of the three-car garage. In the diminishing light, a cluster of three floods, activated by motion sensors, flashed on to signal my presence. Except for the kitchen on this end of the house and the library on the other, most of the windows along the front of the house were dark. Around the front, the exterior lighting seemed purely decorative, too pale to provide a welcome in the accumulating gloom.
The uniformed police officer opened the door for me and I passed into the foyer. The library door was ajar and a shaft of light defined one pie-shaped wedge of the wood parquet floor. Given the quiet in the house, I was guessing the technicians were gone-fingerprint experts, the photographer, the crime scene artist, coroner, and paramedics. Tasha appeared in the doorway. “I saw you pull in. How’re you doing?”
I said “Fine” in a tone that encouraged her to keep her distance from me. I noticed I was feeling churlish, as much with her as with circumstance. Homicide makes me angry with its sly tricks and disguises. I wanted Guy Malek back and with some convoluted emotional logic, I blamed her for what had happened. If she hadn’t been my cousin, she wouldn’t have, hired me in the first place. If I hadn’t been hired, I wouldn’t have found him, wouldn’t even have known who he was, wouldn’t have cared,, and would have felt no loss. She knew this as well as I did and the flicker of guilt that crossed her face was a mirror to mine.