“Do you sleep well at night?”
“Now I do, yes.”
“Tell me your dreams.”
“I used to have terrible dreams; something was always chasing me. I thought I was going to be murdered.”
“Do you still have those dreams?”
“Not anymore. My dreams are very peaceful. I see bright colors and smiling people. Last night, I dreamed I was at a ski resort, flying down the slopes. It was wonderful. I don’t mind cold weather at all anymore.”
“How do you feel about your father?”
“I want him to be happy, and I want to be happy.”
“Ashley?”
“Yes.”
“I’m Dr. Hoelterhoff.”
“How do you do, Doctor?”
“They didn’t tell me how beautiful you were. Do you think you’re beautiful?”
“I think I’m attractive”
“I hear that you have a lovely voice. Do you think you do?”
“It’s not a trained voice, but, yes”—she laughed—”I do manage to sing on key.”
“And they tell me you paint. Are you good?”
“For an amateur, I think I’m quite good. Yes.”
He was studying her thoughtfully. “Do you have any problems that you would like to discuss with me?”
“I can’t think of any. I’m treated very well here.”
“How do you feel about leaving here and getting out into the world?”
“I’ve thought a lot about it. It’s scary, but at the same time it’s exciting.”
“Do you think you would be afraid out there?”
“No. I want to build a new life. I’m good with computers. I can’t go back to the company I worked for, but I’m sure I can get a job at another company.”
Dr. Hoelterhoff nodded. “Thank you, Ashley. It was a pleasure talking to you.”
Dr. Montfort, Dr. Vaughn, Dr. Hoelterhoff and Dr. Keller were gathered in Otto Lewison’s office. He was studying their reports. When he finished, he looked up at Dr. Keller and smiled.
“Congratulations,” he said. “These reports are all positive. You’ve done a wonderful job.”
“She’s a wonderful woman. Very special, Otto. I’m glad she’s going to have her life back again.”
“Has she agreed to outpatient treatment when she leaves here?”
“Absolutely.”
Otto Lewison nodded. “Very well. I’ll have the release papers drawn up.” He turned to the other doctors. “Thank you, gentlemen. I appreciate your help.”
Chapter Twenty-nine
TWO days later, she was called into Dr. Lewison’s office. Dr. Keller was there. Ashley was to be discharged and would return to her home in Cupertino, where regular therapy and evaluation sessions had been arranged with a court-approved psychiatrist.
Dr. Lewison said, “Well, today’s the day. Are you excited?”
Ashley said, “I’m excited, I’m frightened, I’m—I don’t know. I feel like a bird that’s just been set free. I feel like I’m flying.” Her face was glowing.
“I’m glad you’re leaving, but I’m—I’m going to miss you,” Dr. Keller said.
Ashley took his hand and said warmly, “I’m going to miss you, too. I don’t know how I…how I can ever thank you.” Her eyes filled with tears. “You’ve given me my life back.”
She turned to Dr. Lewison. “When I’m back in California, I’ll get a job at one of the computer plants there. I’ll let you know how it works out and how I get on with the outpatient therapy. I want to make sure that what happened before never happens to me again.”
“I don’t think you have anything to worry about,” Dr. Lewison assured her.
When she left, Dr. Lewison turned to Gilbert Keller. “This makes up for a lot of the ones that didn’t succeed, doesn’t it, Gilbert?”
It was a sunny June day, and as she walked down Madison Avenue in New York City, her radiant smile made people turn back to look at her. She had never been so happy. She thought of the wonderful life ahead of her, and all that she was going to do. There could have been a terrible ending for her, she thought, but this was the happy ending she had prayed for.
She walked into Pennsylvania Station. It was the busiest train station in America, a charmless maze of airless rooms and passages. The station was crowded with people. And each person has an interesting story to tell, she thought. They’re all going to different places, living their own lives, and now, I’m going to live my own life.