“Is he trying to make a fire?” Vala whispered.
Wolff did not answer. He was sick, since he could think of only one reason why Palamabron would want to build a fire. When he came to the huge rock behind which Palamabron was, he hesitated. He did not want to see what he thought he must when he came around the boulder.
Palamabron had his back to them. He was on his knees before a pile of branches and leaves and was knocking a piece of flint against a rock that was heavy in iron.
Wolff breathed a sigh of relief. The body beside Palamabron was that of a fudger. Where was Enion?
Wolff came up silently behind Palamabron, his stick raised high. He spoke loudly. “Well, Palamabron?”
The Lord gave a short scream and dived forward over the firepile. He rolled and came up on his feet, facing them. He held a very crude flint knife.
“It’s mine,” he snarled. “I killed it, and I want it. I have to have it. I’ll die if I don’t get to eat!”
“So will we all,” Wolff said. “Where is your cousin?”
Palamabron spat and said, “The beast! He’s no cousin of mine. How should I know where he is? Why should I care?”
“You went out with him,” Wolff said.
“I don’t know where he is. We got separated while we were hunting.”
“We thought we heard a cry,” Vala said.
“It was a fudger, I think,” Palamabrcn said. “Yes, it was. The one I killed a little while ago. I found it sleeping and killed it and it cried out as it died.”
“Maybe,” Wolff said. He backed away from Palamabron until he was at a safe distance. He continued on up the rivershore. Before he had gone a hundred yards, he saw the hand lying beside a boulder. He went around it and found Enion. The back of his head was crushed in; beside him lay the bloody rock that had killed him.
He returned to Palamabron and Vala. She was still there; the Lord and the fudger were gone.
“Why didn’t you stop him?” Wolff said.
She shrugged and smiled. “I’m only a woman. How could I stop him?”
“You could have,” he replied. “I think you wanted to enjoy the chase after him. Well, let me tell you, there won’t be any. None of us have the strength to waste it climbing around here. And when he eats, he’ll have enough strength to outclimb or outrun us.”
“Very well,” she said. “So what do we do now?”
“Keep on going and hope for the best.”
“And starve!” she said. She pointed at the boulder which hid Enion’s body. “There’s enough food for all of us.”
Wolff did not reply for a moment. He had not wanted to think about this, but, since he was faced with it, he would do what had to be done. Vala was right. Without this food, however horrible it was to think about it, they might well die. In a way, Palamabron had done them a favor. He had taken the guilt upon himself of killing for them. They could eat without considering themselves murderers. Not that killing would bother the rest of them. He, however, would have suffered agonies if he had been forced into a position where he had to slay a human being to survive.
As for the actual eating, he was now feeling only a slight repulsion. Hunger had deadened his normal horror against cannibalism.
He returned to wake the others while Vala picked up the rocks dropped by Palamabron. By the time they returned, she had not only started a fire but was intent on the butchering. Wolff held back for a moment. Then, thinking that if he was to share in the food, he should also share in the work, he took Theotormon’s knife. The others offered a hand, but he turned them down. It was as if he wanted to punish himself by making himself do most of the grisly work.
When the meal was cooked, half-cooked, rather, he took his share and went around the boulder to eat. He was not sure that he could keep the meat down, and he was sure that if he watched the others eat, he would not be able to keep from vomiting. Somehow, it did not seem so bad if he were alone.