The Genius by Theodore Dreiser

Suzanne stared at her mother quite astonished at the violent emotion into which she had cast her. Her pretty eyes were open wide, her eyebrows elevated, her lips parted sweetly. She was a picture of intense classic beauty, chiseled, peaceful, self-possessed. Her brow was as smooth as marble, her lips as arched as though they had never known one emotion outside joy. Her look was of a quizzical, slightly amused, but not supercilious character which made her more striking than ever if possible.

“Why, mama! You think I am a child, don’t you? All that I say to you is true. I love Eugene. He loves me. I am going to live with him as soon as it can be quietly arranged. I wanted to tell you because I don’t want to do anything secretly, but I propose to do it. I wish you wouldn’t insist on looking on me as a baby, mama. I know what I am doing. I have thought it all out this long time.”

“Thought it all out!” pondered Mrs. Dale. “Going to live with him when it can be arranged! Is she talking of living with a man without a wedding ceremony being performed? With a man already married! Is the child stark mad? Something has turned her brain. Surely something has. This is not my Suzanne—my dear, lovely, entrancing Suzanne.”

To Suzanne she exclaimed aloud:

“Are you talking of living with this, with this, oh, I don’t dare to name him. I’ll die if I don’t get this matter straightened out; of living without a marriage ceremony and without his being divorced? I can’t believe that I am awake. I can’t! I can’t!”

“Certainly I am,” replied Suzanne. “It is all arranged between us. Mrs. Witla knows. She has given her consent. I expect you to give yours, if you desire me to stay here, mama.”

“Give my consent! As God is my witness! Am I alive? Is this my daughter talking to me? Am I in this room here with you? I.” She stopped, her mouth wide open. “If it weren’t so horribly tragic, I should laugh. I will! I will become hysterical! My brain is whirling like a wheel now. Suzanne Dale, you are insane. You are madly, foolishly insane. If you do not hush and cease this terrible palaver, I will have you locked up. I will have an inquiry made into your sanity. This is the wildest, most horrible, most unimaginable thing ever proposed to a mother. To think that I should have lived with you eighteen long years, carried you in my arms, nursed you at my breast and then have you stand here and tell me that you will go and live unsanctioned with a man who has a good true woman now living as his wife. This is the most astounding thing I have ever heard of. It is unbelievable. You will not do it. You will no more do it than you will fly. I will kill him! I will kill you! I would rather see you dead at my feet this minute than to even think that you could have stood there and proposed such a thing to me. It will never be! It will never be! I will give you poison first. I will do anything, everything, but you shall never see this man again. If he dares to cross this threshold, I will kill him at sight. I love you. I think you are a wonderful girl, but this thing shall never be. And don’t you dare to attempt to dissuade me. I will kill you, I tell you. I would rather see you dead a thousand times. To think! To think! To think! Oh, that beast! That villain! that unconscionable cur! To think that he should come into my house after all my courtesy to him and do this thing to me. Wait! He has position, he has distinction. I will drive him out of New York. I will ruin him. I will make it impossible for him to show his face among decent people. Wait and see!”

Her face was white, her hands clenched, her teeth set. She had a keen, savage beauty, much like that of a tigress when it shows its teeth. Her eyes were hard and cruel and flashing. Suzanne had never imagined her mother capable of such a burst of rage as this.

“Why, mama,” she said calmly and quite unmoved, “you talk as though you ruled my life completely. You would like to make me feel, I suppose, that I do not dare to do what I choose. I do, mama. My life is my own, not yours. You cannot frighten me. I have made up my mind what I am going to do in this matter, and I am going to do it. You cannot stop me. You might as well not try. If I don’t do it now, I will later. I love Eugene. I am going to live with him. If you won’t let me I will go away, but I propose to live with him, and you might as well stop now trying to frighten me, for you can’t.”

“Frighten you! Frighten you! Suzanne Dale, you haven’t the faintest, weakest conception of what you are talking about, or of what I mean to do. If a breath of this—the faintest intimation of your intention were to get abroad, you would be socially ostracized. Do you realize that you would not have a friend left in the world—that all the people you now know and are friendly with would go across the street to avoid you? If you didn’t have independent means, you couldn’t even get a position in an ordinary shop. Going to live with him? You are going to die first, right here in my charge and in my arms. I love you too much not to kill you. I would a thousand times rather die with you myself. You are not going to see that man any more, not once, and if he dares to show his face here, I will kill him. I have said it. I mean it. Now you provoke me to action if you dare.”

Suzanne merely smiled. “How you talk, mama. You make me laugh.”

Mrs. Dale stared.

“Oh, Suzanne! Suzanne!” she suddenly exclaimed. “Before it is too late, before I learn to hate you, before you break my heart, come to my arms and tell me that you are sorry—that it is all over—that it is all a vile, dark, hateful dream. Oh, my Suzanne! My Suzanne!”

“No, mama, no. Don’t come near, don’t touch me,” said Suzanne, drawing back. “You haven’t any idea of what you are talking about, of what I am, or what I mean to do. You don’t understand me. You never did, mama. You have always looked down on me in some superior way as though you knew a great deal and I very little. It isn’t that way at all. It isn’t true. I know what I am about. I know what I am doing. I love Mr. Witla, and I am going to live with him. Mrs. Witla understands. She knows how it is. You will. I don’t care anything at all about what people think. I don’t care what any society friends do. They are not making my life. They are all just as narrow and selfish as they can be, anyhow. Love is something different from that. You don’t understand me. I love Eugene, and he is going to have me, and I am going to have him. If you want to try to wreck my life and his, you may, but it won’t make any difference. I will have him, anyhow. We might just as well quit talking about it now.”

“Quit talking about it? Quit talking about it? Indeed, I haven’t even begun talking yet. I am just trying to collect my wits, that’s all. You are raging in insanity. This thing will never be. It will nev-er be. You are just a poor, deluded slip of girl, whom I have failed to watch sufficiently. From now on, I will do my duty by you, if God spares me. You need me. Oh, how you need me. Poor little Suzanne!”

“Oh, hush, mama! Stop the hysteria,” interrupted Suzanne.

“I will call up Mr. Colfax. I will call up Mr. Winfield. I will have him discharged. I will expose him in the newspapers. The scoundrel, the villain, the thief! Oh, that I should have lived to see this day. That I should have lived to have seen this day!”

“That’s right, mama,” said Suzanne, wearily. “Go on. You are just talking, you know, and I know that you are. You cannot change me. Talking cannot. It is silly to rave like this, I think. Why won’t you be quiet? We may talk, but needn’t scream.”

Mrs. Dale put her hands to her temples. Her brain seemed to be whirling.

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