I cut two more chunks off the big tree and dropped them over the side before Billy came back with a fresh beer in one hand and a note from Steff in the other. If there’s anything Big Bill likes to do more than run messages, I don’t know what it could be.
«Thanks,» I said, taking them both.
«Can I have a swallow?»
«Just one. You took two last time. Can’t have you running around drunk at ten in the morning.»
«Quarter past,» he said, and smiled shyly over the top of the can. I smiled back-not that it was such a great joke, you know, but Billy makes them so rarely-and then read the note.
«Got JBQ on the radio,» Steffy had written. «Don’t get drunk before you go to town. You can have one more, but that’s it before lunch. Do you think you can get up our road okay?»
I handed him the note back and took my beer. «Tell her the road’s okay because a power truck just went by. They’ll be working their way up here.»
«Okay.»
«Champ
«What, Dad?»
«Tell her everything’s okay.»
He smiled again, maybe telling himself first. «Okay.»
He ran back and I watched him go, legs pumping, soles of his zori showing. I love him. It’s his face and sometimes the way his eyes turn up to mine that make me feel as if things are really okay. It’s a lie, of course-things are not okay and never have been-but my kid makes me believe the lie.
I drank some beer, set the can down carefully on a rock, and got the chainsaw going again. About twenty minutes later I felt a light tap on my shoulder and turned, expecting to see Billy again. Instead it was Brent Norton. I turned off the chainsaw.
He didn’t look the way Norton usually looks. He looked hot and tired and unhappy and a little bewildered.
«Hi, Brent,» I said. Our last words had been hard ones, and I was a little unsure how to proceed. I had a funny feeling that he had been standing behind me for the last five minutes or so, clearing his throat decorously under the chainsaw’s aggressive roar. I hadn’t gotten a really good look at him this summer. He had lost weight, but it didn’t look good. It should have, because he had been carrying around an extra twenty pounds, but it didn’t. His wife had died the previous November. Cancer. Aggie Bibber told Steffy that. Aggie was our resident necrologist. Every neighborhood has one. From the casual way Norton had of ragging his wife and belittling her (doing it with the contemptuous ease of a veteran matador inserting banderillas in an old bull’s lumbering body), I would have guessed he’d be glad to have her gone. If asked, I might even have speculated that he’d show up this summer with a girl twenty years younger than he was on his arm and a silly my-cock-has-died-and-gone-to-heaven grin on his face. But instead of the silly grin there was only a new batch of age lines, and the weight had come off in all the wrong places, leaving sags and folds and dewlaps that told their own story. For one passing moment I wanted only to lead Norton to a patch of sun and sit him beside one of the fallen trees with my can of beer in his hand, and do a charcoal sketch of him.
«Hi, Dave,» he said, after a long moment of awkward silence — a silence that was made even louder by the absence of the chainsaw’s racket and roar. He stopped, then blurted: «That tree. That damn tree. I’m sorry. You were right.»
I shrugged.
He said, «Another tree fell on my car.»
«I’m sorry to h-» I began, and then a horrid suspicion dawned. «It wasn’t the T-Bird, was it?»
«Yeah. It was.»
Norton had a 1960 Thunderbird in mint condition, only thirty thousand miles. It was a deep midnight blue inside and out. He drove it only summers, and then only rarely. He loved that Bird the way some men love electric trains or model ships or target-shooting pistols.