Dan broke into laughter. Fuchs turned toward him, looking confused. Even Pancho glanced over her shoulder.
“What so funny, boss?”
“Nothing,” Dan said, trying to sober himself. “Nothing.” Inwardly, though, he marveled that the same sight that brought back to him memories of childhood dread stirred Fuchs into a frenzy of scientific curiosity.
“Come on,” Fuchs said, ducking past the hatch. “We’ve got to suit up and go outside.”
Dan nodded his agreement and followed the scientist. He’s forgotten about zero-g, Dan realized. He’s not worried about upchucking now, he’s got too much work that he wants to do.
Amanda remained on the bridge as Pancho followed Dan down to the airlock.
“You’re not thinkin’ of goin’ EVA, are you?” she asked Dan.
“I’ve been a qualified astronaut since before you were born, Pancho.”
“You’ve been redlined. You can’t go outside.”
“And rain makes applesauce.”
“I mean it, Dan,” Pancho said, quite seriously. “Your immune system can’t take another radiation dose.”
“Fuchs can’t go out there by himself,” he countered.
“That’s my job. I’ll go with him.”
“Nope. You stay here. I’ll babysit him.”
“I’m the captain of this craft,” Pancho said firmly. “I can order you to stay inside.”
He gave her a crooked grin. “And I’m the owner. I can fire you.”
“Not till we get back to Selene.”
Dan huffed out an impatient sigh. “Come on, Pancho, stop the chickenshit.”
“Your medical records say—”
“Dammitall to hell and back, I don’t care what the medical records say! I’m going out! I want to see this sucker! Touch her with my own hands.”
“No gloves?”
They had reached the airlock, where the spacesuits hung in racks like suits of armor on display. Fuchs was sitting on the bench that ran in front of the racks, already into the lower half of his suit, sealing the boots to the cuffs of his leggings. Dan reached for the suit that bore his name stenciled on its chest.
“I thought you were scared of the radiation,” Pancho said.
“I’ll be okay inside the suit,” Dan said. “The weather’s calm out there; no radiation storm.”
Fuchs looked up at them, said nothing.
“The regulations say—”
“The regulations say you’re not supposed to bring pets aboard,” Dan said, grinning again as he pulled the lower half of his suit from its rack and sat down beside Fuchs. “But I’ve got to look into my shoes every morning to make sure your damned snake isn’t curled up inside one of them.”
“Snake?” Fuchs yelped, looking alarmed.
Pancho planted her fists on her hips and glared down at Dan for a long moment. Then she visibly relaxed.
“Okay, boss,” she said at last. “I guess I can’t blame you. But I’m gonna monitor your vitals back on the bridge. If I say come in, you come in. Right then. No arguments. Agreed?”
“Agreed,” Dan replied instantly. A voice in his head was laughing mockingly. Are you satisfied? the voice asked. You’ve shown her that you’re not a sick old man. Big deal. How are you going to feel when the cold clamps down on you and your bones start hurting again?
Doesn’t matter, Dan answered himself. I’m not going to stay cooped up in here like a cripple. To hell with it; I don’t really give a damn. If I’ve got to die, I’d rather wear out than rust out. What difference does it make?
“Clear for EVA.” Amanda’s voice came through the speaker in Dan’s helmet.
He was in the airlock, sealed in his suit, feeling like a robot in a metal womb.
“Opening outer hatch,” he said, pressing a gloved finger on the red light of the control panel.
“Copy, outer hatch.”
The hatch slid open and Dan felt his pulse start to quicken. How long has it been since I’ve been outside? he asked himself. That sardonic voice in his head answered, Not since you got the radiation overdose, jiggering commsats in the Van Alien Belt.
Ten years, Dan realized. That’s a long time to be away from all this.
He pushed himself through the hatch and floated in emptiness. The universe hung all around him: stars solemn and unwinking, staring at him even through the heavy tinting of his fishbowl helmet. Turning slowly, he saw the Sun, strangely small and pale, with its arms of faint zodiacal light outstretched on either side of it.