The Secret Agent by Joseph Conrad

Verloc, overcame him again. The piece of roast beef, laid out in

the likeness of funereal baked meats for Stevie’s obsequies,

offered itself largely to his notice. And Mr Verloc again partook.

He partook ravenously, without restraint and decency, cutting thick

slices with the sharp carving knife, and swallowing them without

bread. In the course of that refection it occurred to Mr Verloc

that he was not hearing his wife move about the bedroom as he

should have done. The thought of finding her perhaps sitting on

the bed in the dark not only cut Mr Verloc’s appetite, but also

took from him the inclination to follow her upstairs just yet.

Laying down the carving knife, Mr Verloc listened with careworn

attention.

He was comforted by hearing her move at last. She walked suddenly

across the room, and threw the window up. After a period of

stillness up there, during which he figured her to himself with her

head out, he heard the sash being lowered slowly. Then she made a

few steps, and sat down. Every resonance of his house was familiar

to Mr Verloc, who was thoroughly domesticated. When next he heard

his wife’s footsteps overhead he knew, as well as if he had seen

her doing it, that she had been putting on her walking shoes. Mr

Verloc wriggled his shoulders slightly at this ominous symptom, and

moving away from the table, stood with his back to the fireplace,

his head on one side, and gnawing perplexedly at the tips of his

fingers. He kept track of her movements by the sound. She walked

here and there violently, with abrupt stoppages, now before the

chest of drawers, then in front of the wardrobe. An immense load

of weariness, the harvest of a day of shocks and surprises, weighed

Mr Verloc’s energies to the ground.

He did not raise his eyes till he heard his wife descending the

stairs. It was as he had guessed. She was dressed for going out.

Mrs Verloc was a free woman. She had thrown open the window of the

bedroom either with the intention of screaming Murder! Help! or of

throwing herself out. For she did not exactly know what use to

make of her freedom. Her personality seemed to have been torn into

two pieces, whose mental operations did not adjust themselves very

well to each other. The street, silent and deserted from end to

end, repelled her by taking sides with that man who was so certain

of his impunity. She was afraid to shout lest no one should come.

Obviously no one would come. Her instinct of self-preservation

recoiled from the depth of the fall into that sort of slimy, deep

trench. Mrs Verloc closed the window, and dressed herself to go

out into the street by another way. She was a free woman. She had

dressed herself thoroughly, down to the tying of a black veil over

her face. As she appeared before him in the light of the parlour,

Mr Verloc observed that she had even her little handbag hanging

from her left wrist. . . . Flying off to her mother, of course.

The thought that women were wearisome creatures after all presented

itself to his fatigued brain. But he was too generous to harbour

it for more than an instant. This man, hurt cruelly in his vanity,

remained magnanimous in his conduct, allowing himself no

satisfaction of a bitter smile or of a contemptuous gesture. With

true greatness of soul, he only glanced at the wooden clock on the

wall, and said in a perfectly calm but forcible manner:

“Five and twenty minutes past eight, Winnie. There’s no sense in

going over there so late. You will never manage to get back to-

night.”

Before his extended hand Mrs Verloc had stopped short. He added

heavily: “Your mother will be gone to bed before you get there.

This is the sort of news that can wait.”

Nothing was further from Mrs Verloc’s thoughts than going to her

mother. She recoiled at the mere idea, and feeling a chair behind

her, she obeyed the suggestion of the touch, and sat down. Her

intention had been simply to get outside the door for ever. And if

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