The Secret Agent by Joseph Conrad

eyes looked on, big, dry, enlarged, lightless, burnt out like two

black holes in the white, shining globes.

“There is no danger,” he said, gazing into them with an earnestness

almost rapt, which to Mrs Verloc, flying from the gallows, seemed

to be full of force and tenderness. This devotion deeply moved her

– and the adamantine face lost the stern rigidity of its terror.

Comrade Ossipon gazed at it as no lover ever gazed at his

mistress’s face. Alexander Ossipon, anarchist, nicknamed the

Doctor, author of a medical (and improper) pamphlet, late lecturer

on the social aspects of hygiene to working men’s clubs, was free

from the trammels of conventional morality – but he submitted to

the rule of science. He was scientific, and he gazed

scientifically at that woman, the sister of a degenerate, a

degenerate herself – of a murdering type. He gazed at her, and

invoked Lombroso, as an Italian peasant recommends himself to his

favourite saint. He gazed scientifically. He gazed at her cheeks,

at her nose, at her eyes, at her ears. . . . Bad! . . . Fatal! Mrs

Verloc’s pale lips parting, slightly relaxed under his passionately

attentive gaze, he gazed also at her teeth. . . . Not a doubt

remained . . . a murdering type. . . . If Comrade Ossipon did not

recommend his terrified soul to Lombroso, it was only because on

scientific grounds he could not believe that he carried about him

such a thing as a soul. But he had in him the scientific spirit,

which moved him to testify on the platform of a railway station in

nervous jerky phrases.

“He was an extraordinary lad, that brother of yours. Most

interesting to study. A perfect type in a way. Perfect!”

He spoke scientifically in his secret fear. And Mrs Verloc,

hearing these words of commendation vouchsafed to her beloved dead,

swayed forward with a flicker of light in her sombre eyes, like a

ray of sunshine heralding a tempest of rain.

“He was that indeed,” she whispered softly, with quivering lips.

“You took a lot of notice of him, Tom. I loved you for it.”

“It’s almost incredible the resemblance there was between you two,”

pursued Ossipon, giving a voice to his abiding dread, and trying to

conceal his nervous, sickening impatience for the train to start.

“Yes; he resembled you.”

These words were not especially touching or sympathetic. But the

fact of that resemblance insisted upon was enough in itself to act

upon her emotions powerfully. With a little faint cry, and

throwing her arms out, Mrs Verloc burst into tears at last.

Ossipon entered the carriage, hastily closed the door and looked

out to see the time by the station clock. Eight minutes more. For

the first three of these Mrs Verloc wept violently and helplessly

without pause or interruption. Then she recovered somewhat, and

sobbed gently in an abundant fall of tears. She tried to talk to

her saviour, to the man who was the messenger of life.

“Oh, Tom! How could I fear to die after he was taken away from me

so cruelly! How could I! How could I be such a coward!”

She lamented aloud her love of life, that life without grace or

charm, and almost without decency, but of an exalted faithfulness

of purpose, even unto murder. And, as often happens in the lament

of poor humanity, rich in suffering but indigent in words, the

truth – the very cry of truth – was found in a worn and artificial

shape picked up somewhere among the phrases of sham sentiment.

“How could I be so afraid of death! Tom, I tried. But I am

afraid. I tried to do away with myself. And I couldn’t. Am I

hard? I suppose the cup of horrors was not full enough for such as

me. Then when you came. . . . ”

She paused. Then in a gust of confidence and gratitude, “I will

live all my days for you, Tom!” she sobbed out.

“Go over into the other corner of the carriage, away from the

platform,” said Ossipon solicitously. She let her saviour settle

her comfortably, and he watched the coming on of another crisis of

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