The Secret Agent by Joseph Conrad

head at the rustle.

“What’s that paper? Anything in it?” he asked.

Ossipon started like a scared somnambulist.

“Nothing. Nothing whatever. The thing’s ten days old. I forgot

it in my pocket, I suppose.”

But he did not throw the old thing away. Before returning it to

his pocket he stole a glance at the last lines of a paragraph.

They ran thus: “AN IMPENETRABLE MYSTERY SEEMS DESTINED TO HANG FOR

EVER OVER THIS ACT OF MADNESS OR DESPAIR.”

Such were the end words of an item of news headed: “Suicide of Lady

Passenger from a cross-Channel Boat.” Comrade Ossipon was familiar

with the beauties of its journalistic style. “AN IMPENETRABLE

MYSTERY SEEMS DESTINED TO HANG FOR EVER. . . ” He knew every word

by heart. “AN IMPENETRABLE MYSTERY. . . . ”

And the robust anarchist, hanging his head on his breast, fell into

a long reverie.

He was menaced by this thing in the very sources of his existence.

He could not issue forth to meet his various conquests, those that

he courted on benches in Kensington Gardens, and those he met near

area railings, without the dread of beginning to talk to them of an

impenetrable mystery destined. . . . He was becoming scientifically

afraid of insanity lying in wait for him amongst these lines. “TO

HANG FOR EVER OVER.” It was an obsession, a torture. He had

lately failed to keep several of these appointments, whose note

used to be an unbounded trustfulness in the language of sentiment

and manly tenderness. The confiding disposition of various classes

of women satisfied the needs of his self-love, and put some

material means into his hand. He needed it to live. It was there.

But if he could no longer make use of it, he ran the risk of

starving his ideals and his body . . . “THIS ACT OF MADNESS OR

DESPAIR.”

“An impenetrable mystery” was sure “to hang for ever” as far as all

mankind was concerned. But what of that if he alone of all men

could never get rid of the cursed knowledge? And Comrade Ossipon’s

knowledge was as precise as the newspaper man could make it – up to

the very threshold of the “MYSTERY DESTINED TO HANG FOR EVER. . .

.”

Comrade Ossipon was well informed. He knew what the gangway man of

the steamer had seen: “A lady in a black dress and a black veil,

wandering at midnight alongside, on the quay. `Are you going by

the boat, ma’am,’ he had asked her encouragingly. `This way.’ She

seemed not to know what to do. He helped her on board. She seemed

weak.”

And he knew also what the stewardess had seen: A lady in black with

a white face standing in the middle of the empty ladies’ cabin.

The stewardess induced her to lie down there. The lady seemed

quite unwilling to speak, and as if she were in some awful trouble.

The next the stewardess knew she was gone from the ladies’ cabin.

The stewardess then went on deck to look for her, and Comrade

Ossipon was informed that the good woman found the unhappy lady

lying down in one of the hooded seats. Her eyes were open, but she

would not answer anything that was said to her. She seemed very

ill. The stewardess fetched the chief steward, and those two

people stood by the side of the hooded seat consulting over their

extraordinary and tragic passenger. They talked in audible

whispers (for she seemed past hearing) of St Malo and the Consul

there, of communicating with her people in England. Then they went

away to arrange for her removal down below, for indeed by what they

could see of her face she seemed to them to be dying. But Comrade

Ossipon knew that behind that white mask of despair there was

struggling against terror and despair a vigour of vitality, a love

of life that could resist the furious anguish which drives to

murder and the fear, the blind, mad fear of the gallows. He knew.

But the stewardess and the chief steward knew nothing, except that

when they came back for her in less than five minutes the lady in

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