The Secret Agent by Joseph Conrad

Winnie, we’ve got to think of to-morrow. You’ll want all your wits

about you after I am taken away.”

He paused. Mrs Verloc’s breast heaved convulsively. This was not

reassuring to Mr Verloc, in whose view the newly created situation

required from the two people most concerned in it calmness,

decision, and other qualities incompatible with the mental disorder

of passionate sorrow. Mr Verloc was a humane man; he had come home

prepared to allow every latitude to his wife’s affection for her

brother.

Only he did not understand either the nature or the whole extent of

that sentiment. And in this he was excusable, since it was

impossible for him to understand it without ceasing to be himself.

He was startled and disappointed, and his speech conveyed it by a

certain roughness of tone.

“You might look at a fellow,” he observed after waiting a while.

As if forced through the hands covering Mrs Verloc’s face the

answer came, deadened, almost pitiful.

“I don’t want to look at you as long as I live.”

“Eh? What!” Mr Verloc was merely startled by the superficial and

literal meaning of this declaration. It was obviously

unreasonable, the mere cry of exaggerated grief. He threw over it

the mantle of his marital indulgence. The mind of Mr Verloc lacked

profundity. Under the mistaken impression that the value of

individuals consists in what they are in themselves, he could not

possibly comprehend the value of Stevie in the eyes of Mrs Verloc.

She was taking it confoundedly hard, he thought to himself. It was

all the fault of that damned Heat. What did he want to upset the

woman for? But she mustn’t be allowed, for her own good, to carry

on so till she got quite beside herself.

“Look here! You can’t sit like this in the shop,” he said with

affected severity, in which there was some real annoyance; for

urgent practical matters must be talked over if they had to sit up

all night. “Somebody might come in at any minute,” he added, and

waited again. No effect was produced, and the idea of the finality

of death occurred to Mr Verloc during the pause. He changed his

tone. “Come. This won’t bring him back,” he said gently, feeling

ready to take her in his arms and press her to his breast, where

impatience and compassion dwelt side by side. But except for a

short shudder Mrs Verloc remained apparently unaffected by the

force of that terrible truism. It was Mr Verloc himself who was

moved. He was moved in his simplicity to urge moderation by

asserting the claims of his own personality.

“Do be reasonable, Winnie. What would it have been if you had lost

me!”

He had vaguely expected to hear her cry out. But she did not

budge. She leaned back a little, quieted down to a complete

unreadable stillness. Mr Verloc’s heart began to beat faster with

exasperation and something resembling alarm. He laid his hand on

her shoulder, saying:

“Don’t be a fool, Winnie.”

She gave no sign. It was impossible to talk to any purpose with a

woman whose face one cannot see. Mr Verloc caught hold of his

wife’s wrists. But her hands seemed glued fast. She swayed

forward bodily to his tug, and nearly went off the chair. Startled

to feel her so helplessly limp, he was trying to put her back on

the chair when she stiffened suddenly all over, tore herself out of

his hands, ran out of the shop, across the parlour, and into the

kitchen. This was very swift. He had just a glimpse of her face

and that much of her eyes that he knew she had not looked at him.

It all had the appearance of a struggle for the possession of a

chair, because Mr Verloc instantly took his wife’s place in it. Mr

Verloc did not cover his face with his hands, but a sombre

thoughtfulness veiled his features. A term of imprisonment could

not be avoided. He did not wish now to avoid it. A prison was a

place as safe from certain unlawful vengeances as the grave, with

this advantage, that in a prison there is room for hope. What he

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