In his art classes, Yulian had painted pictures which caused a very gentle lady teacher to attack him physically; she’d also stormed his bed-space and burned his art folios. Out nature rambling (George hadn’t known they still did that) Yulian had been found wandering on his own, his face and hands smeared with filth and entrails. Dangling from one hand he’d carried the remains of a stray kitten. Its carcass was still warm. He’d said a man had done it, but this was out on the moors, miles from anywhere.
That wasn’t all. It seemed he walked in his sleep and had apparently scared the living shit out of the younger boys, until the school had had to put a night-guard on their dorms. But by then the head had spoken at length with Georgina and she’d agreed he could leave. It was that or expulsion – for the sake of the good name of the school.
And there’d been other things, lesser things, but that had been the gist of it.
These were some of the reasons why George didn’t like Yulian. But of course there was one other thing. It was something very nearly as old as Yulian himself, but it had fixed itself in George’s mind indelibly.
The sight of an old man clutching his sheets to his chest as he died, and his last whispered words: ‘Christen it? No, no – you mustn’t! First have it exorcised!’
Anne could be strident if she had to be, but she was good through and through. She would never say a thing to hurt anyone, even though she might think certain things. To herself – if only to herself – she had to admit that she’d thought things about Yulian.
Now, lying back a little in her seat and stretching, feeling the cooling draught from the half-open window, she thought them again. Funny things: something about a big green frog, and something about the pain she’d get now and then in her left nipple.
The frog thing was hard to focus on; rather, she didn’t like to focus on it. Personally she couldn’t hurt a fly. Of course a child, a mere five-year old, wouldn’t realise what he was doing. Would he? The trouble was that as long as she’d know Yulian he’d always seemed to know exactly what he was doing. Even as a baby.
She had called him a ‘funny little thing’, but in fact George was right. Yulian had been more than just funny. For one thing, he never cried. No, not quite true, he had cried when hungry, at least when he was very small. And he had cried in direct sunlight. Photophobia, apparently, right from infancy. Oh, yes, and he’d cried at least one other time, at his christening. Though that had seemed more rage – or outrage – than crying proper. As far as Anne knew, he never had been properly christened.
She let her thoughts take hold, carrying her back. Yulian had just started to walk – to toddle, anyway -when Helen came along. That was a month or so before poor Georgina had been well enough to go home and take him back. Anne remembered that time well. She’d been heavy with milk, fat as butter and happier than at any other time in her life. And rosy? What a picture of health she’d been!
One day when Helen was just six weeks old, while she was feeding her, Yulian had come toddling like a little robot, looking for that extra ounce of affection of which Helen had robbed him. Jealousy even then, yes, for he was no longer all important. On impulse – feeling a pang of pity for the poor mite – she’d picked him up, bared her other breast to him, her left breast, and fed him.
Even remembering it, the twinge of pain in her nipple came back like a wasp sting to bother her. ‘Oh!’ she said, stirring where she had fallen half-asleep.
‘You all right?’ George was quick to inquire. ‘Wind your window down a little more. Get some fresh air.’
The steady purr of the car’s engine brought her back to the present. ‘Cramp,’ she lied. ‘Pins and needles. Can we stop somewhere – the next cafe?’