A thousand deaths by Jack London

immobile; a mouth of steel, the lips like the jaws of a trap; eyes

of steel, dilated, intent, and the light in them and the glitter

were the light and glitter of steel. The face of a man, and she had

known only his boy face. This face she did not know at all.

And yet, while it frightened her, she was vaguely stirred with pride

in him. His masculinity, the masculinity of the fighting male, made

its inevitable appeal to her, a female, moulded by all her heredity

to seek out the strong man for mate, and to lean against the wall of

his strength. She did not understand this force of his being that

rose mightier than her love and laid its compulsion upon him; and

yet, in her woman’s heart she was aware of the sweet pang which told

her that for her sake, for Love’s own sake, he had surrendered to

her, abandoned all that portion of his life, and with this one last

fight would never fight again.

“Mrs. Silverstein doesn’t like prize-fighting,” she said. “She’s

down on it, and she knows something, too.”

He smiled indulgently, concealing a hurt, not altogether new, at her

persistent inappreciation of this side of his nature and life in

which he took the greatest pride. It was to him power and

achievement, earned by his own effort and hard work; and in the

moment when he had offered himself and all that he was to Genevieve,

it was this, and this alone, that he was proudly conscious of laying

at her feet. It was the merit of work performed, a guerdon of

manhood finer and greater than any other man could offer, and it had

been to him his justification and right to possess her. And she had

not understood it then, as she did not understand it now, and he

might well have wondered what else she found in him to make him

worthy.

“Mrs. Silverstein is a dub, and a softy, and a knocker,” he said

good-humoredly. “What’s she know about such things, anyway? I tell

you it IS good, and healthy, too,”–this last as an afterthought.

“Look at me. I tell you I have to live clean to be in condition

like this. I live cleaner than she does, or her old man, or anybody

you know–baths, rub-downs, exercise, regular hours, good food and

no makin’ a pig of myself, no drinking, no smoking, nothing that’ll

hurt me. Why, I live cleaner than you, Genevieve–”

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4

“Honest, I do,” he hastened to add at sight of her shocked face. “I

don’t mean water an’ soap, but look there.” His hand closed

reverently but firmly on her arm. “Soft, you’re all soft, all over.

Not like mine. Here, feel this.”

He pressed the ends of her fingers into his hard arm-muscles until

she winced from the hurt.

“Hard all over just like that,” he went on. “Now that’s what I call

clean. Every bit of flesh an’ blood an’ muscle is clean right down

to the bones–and they’re clean, too. No soap and water only on the

skin, but clean all the way in. I tell you it feels clean. It

knows it’s clean itself. When I wake up in the morning an’ go to

work, every drop of blood and bit of meat is shouting right out that

it is clean. Oh, I tell you–”

He paused with swift awkwardness, again confounded by his unwonted

flow of speech. Never in his life had he been stirred to such

utterance, and never in his life had there been cause to be so

stirred. For it was the Game that had been questioned, its verity

and worth, the Game itself, the biggest thing in the world–or what

had been the biggest thing in the world until that chance afternoon

and that chance purchase in Silverstein’s candy store, when

Genevieve loomed suddenly colossal in his life, overshadowing all

other things. He was beginning to see, though vaguely, the sharp

conflict between woman and career, between a man’s work in the world

and woman’s need of the man. But he was not capable of

generalization. He saw only the antagonism between the concrete,

flesh-and-blood Genevieve and the great, abstract, living Game.

Each resented the other, each claimed him; he was torn with the

strife, and yet drifted helpless on the currents of their

contention.

His words had drawn Genevieve’s gaze to his face, and she had

pleasured in the clear skin, the clear eyes, the cheek soft and

smooth as a girl’s. She saw the force of his argument and disliked

it accordingly. She revolted instinctively against this Game which

drew him away from her, robbed her of part of him. It was a rival

she did not understand. Nor could she understand its seductions.

Had it been a woman rival, another girl, knowledge and light and

sight would have been hers. As it was, she grappled in the dark

with an intangible adversary about which she knew nothing. What

truth she felt in his speech made the Game but the more formidable.

A sudden conception of her weakness came to her. She felt pity for

herself, and sorrow. She wanted him, all of him, her woman’s need

would not be satisfied with less; and he eluded her, slipped away

here and there from the embrace with which she tried to clasp him.

Tears swam into her eyes, and her lips trembled, turning defeat into

victory, routing the all-potent Game with the strength of her

weakness.

“Don’t, Genevieve, don’t,” the boy pleaded, all contrition, though

he was confused and dazed. To his masculine mind there was nothing

relevant about her break-down; yet all else was forgotten at sight

of her tears.

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She smiled forgiveness through her wet eyes, and though he knew of

nothing for which to be forgiven, he melted utterly. His hand went

out impulsively to hers, but she avoided the clasp by a sort of

bodily stiffening and chill, the while the eyes smiled still more

gloriously.

“Here comes Mr. Clausen,” she said, at the same time, by some

transforming alchemy of woman, presenting to the newcomer eyes that

showed no hint of moistness.

“Think I was never coming back, Joe?” queried the head of the

department, a pink-and-white-faced man, whose austere side-whiskers

were belied by genial little eyes.

“Now let me see–hum, yes, we was discussing ingrains,” he continued

briskly. “That tasty little pattern there catches your eye, don’t

it now, eh? Yes, yes, I know all about it. I set up housekeeping

when I was getting fourteen a week. But nothing’s too good for the

little nest, eh? Of course I know, and it’s only seven cents more,

and the dearest is the cheapest, I say. Tell you what I’ll do,

Joe,”–this with a burst of philanthropic impulsiveness and a

confidential lowering of voice,–“seein’s it’s you, and I wouldn’t

do it for anybody else, I’ll reduce it to five cents. Only,”–here

his voice became impressively solemn,–“only you mustn’t ever tell

how much you really did pay.”

“Sewed, lined, and laid–of course that’s included,” he said, after

Joe and Genevieve had conferred together and announced their

decision.

“And the little nest, eh?” he queried. “When do you spread your

wings and fly away? To-morrow! So soon? Beautiful! Beautiful!”

He rolled his eyes ecstatically for a moment, then beamed upon them

with a fatherly air.

Joe had replied sturdily enough, and Genevieve had blushed prettily;

but both felt that it was not exactly proper. Not alone because of

the privacy and holiness of the subject, but because of what might

have been prudery in the middle class, but which in them was the

modesty and reticence found in individuals of the working class when

they strive after clean living and morality.

Mr. Clausen accompanied them to the elevator, all smiles, patronage,

and beneficence, while the clerks turned their heads to follow Joe’s

retreating figure.

“And to-night, Joe?” Mr. Clausen asked anxiously, as they waited at

the shaft. “How do you feel? Think you’ll do him?”

“Sure,” Joe answered. “Never felt better in my life.”

“You feel all right, eh? Good! Good! You see, I was just a-

wonderin’–you know, ha! ha!–goin’ to get married and the rest–

thought you might be unstrung, eh, a trifle?–nerves just a bit off,

you know. Know how gettin’ married is myself. But you’re all

right, eh? Of course you are. No use asking YOU that. Ha! ha!

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6

Well, good luck, my boy! I know you’ll win. Never had the least

doubt, of course, of course.”

“And good-by, Miss Pritchard,” he said to Genevieve, gallantly

handing her into the elevator. “Hope you call often. Will be

charmed–charmed–I assure you.”

“Everybody calls you ‘Joe’,” she said reproachfully, as the car

dropped downward. “Why don’t they call you ‘Mr. Fleming’? That’s

no more than proper.”

But he was staring moodily at the elevator boy and did not seem to

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