Beyond the Wall of Sleep by H.P. Lovecraft

It was on the twenty-first of February, 1901, that the thing occurred. As I look
back across the years I realize how unreal it seems, and sometimes wonder if old
Doctor Fenton was not right when he charged it all to my excited imagination. I
recall that he listened with great kindness and patience when I told him, but
afterward gave me a nerve-powder and arranged for the half-year’s vacation on
which I departed the next week.
That fateful night I was wildly agitated and perturbed, for despite the
excellent care he had received, Joe Slater was unmistakably dying. Perhaps it
was his mountain freedom that he missed, or perhaps the turmoil in his brain had
grown too acute for his rather sluggish physique; but at all events the flame of
vitality flickered low in the decadent body. He was drowsy near the end, and as
darkness fell he dropped off into a troubled sleep.
I did not strap on the straightjacket as was customary when he slept, since I
saw that he was too feeble to be dangerous, even if he woke in mental disorder
once more before passing away. But I did place upon his head and mine the two
ends of my cosmic “radio,” hoping against hope for a first and last message from
the dream world in the brief time remaining. In the cell with us was one nurse,
a mediocre fellow who did not understand the purpose of the apparatus, or think
to inquire into my course. As the hours wore on I saw his head droop awkwardly
in sleep, but I did not disturb him. I myself, lulled by the rhythmical
breathing of the healthy and the dying man, must have nodded a little later.
The sound of weird lyric melody was what aroused me. Chords, vibrations, and
harmonic ecstasies echoed passionately on every hand, while on my ravished sight
burst the stupendous spectacle ultimate beauty. Walls, columns, and architraves
of living fire blazed effulgently around the spot where I seemed to float in
air, extending upward to an infinitely high vaulted dome of indescribable
splendor. Blending with this display of palatial magnificence, or rather,
supplanting it at times in kaleidoscopic rotation, were glimpses of wide plains
and graceful valleys, high mountains and inviting grottoes, covered with every
lovely attribute of scenery which my delighted eyes could conceive of, yet
formed wholly of some glowing, ethereal plastic entity, which in consistency
partook as much of spirit as of matter. As I gazed, I perceived that my own
brain held the key to these enchanting metamorphoses; for each vista which
appeared to me was the one my changing mind most wished to behold. Amidst this
elysian realm I dwelt not as a stranger, for each sight and sound was familiar
to me; just as it had been for uncounted eons of eternity before, and would be
for like eternities to come.
Then the resplendent aura of my brother of light drew near and held colloquy
with me, soul to soul, with silent and perfect interchange of thought. The hour
was one of approaching triumph, for was not my fellow-being escaping at last
from a degrading periodic bondage; escaping forever, and preparing to follow the
accursed oppressor even unto the uttermost fields of ether, that upon it might
be wrought a flaming cosmic vengeance which would shake the spheres? We floated
thus for a little time, when I perceived a slight blurring and fading of the
objects around us, as though some force were recalling me to earth – where I
least wished to go. The form near me seemed to feel a change also, for it
gradually brought its discourse toward a conclusion, and itself prepared to quit
the scene, fading from my sight at a rate somewhat less rapid than that of the
other objects. A few more thoughts were exchanged, and I knew that the luminous
one and I were being recalled to bondage, though for my brother of light it
would be the last time. The sorry planet shell being well-nigh spent, in less
than an hour my fellow would be free to pursue the oppressor along the Milky Way
and past the hither stars to the very confines of infinity.
A well-defined shock separates my final impression of the fading scene of light
from my sudden and somewhat shamefaced awakening and straightening up in my
chair as I saw the dying figure on the couch move hesitantly. Joe Slater was
indeed awaking, though probably for the last time. As I looked more closely, I
saw that in the sallow cheeks shone spots of color which had never before been
present. The lips, too, seemed unusual, being tightly compressed, as if by the
force of a stronger character than had been Slater’s. The whole face finally
began to grow tense, and the head turned restlessly with closed eyes.
I did not rouse the sleeping nurse, but readjusted the slightly disarranged
headband of my telepathic “radio,” intent to catch any parting message the
dreamer might have to deliver. All at once the head turned sharply in my
direction and the eyes fell open, causing me to stare in blank amazement at what
I beheld. The man who had been Joe Slater, the Catskill decadent, was gazing at
me with a pair of luminous, expanding eyes whose blue seemed subtly to have
deepened. Neither mania nor degeneracy was `visible in that gaze, and I felt
beyond a doubt that I was viewing a face behind which lay an active mind of high
order.
At this juncture my brain became aware of a steady external influence operating
upon it. I closed my eyes to concentrate my thoughts more profoundly and was
rewarded by the positive knowledge that my long-sought mental message had come
at last. Each transmitted idea formed rapidly in my mind, and though no actual
language was employed, my habitual association of conception and expression was
so great that I seemed to be receiving the message in ordinary English.
“Joe Slater is dead,” came the soul-petrifying voice of an agency from beyond
the wall of sleep. My opened eyes sought the couch of pain in curious horror,
but the blue eyes were still calmly gazing, and the countenance was still
intelligently animated. “He is better dead, for he was unfit to bear the active
intellect of cosmic entity. His gross body could not undergo the needed
adjustments between ethereal life and planet life. He was too much an animal,
too little a man; yet it is through his deficiency that you have come to
discover me, for the cosmic and planet souls rightly should never meet. He has
been in my torment and diurnal prison for forty-two of your terrestrial years.
“I am an entity like that which you yourself become in the freedom of dreamless
sleep. I am your brother of light, and have floated with you in the effulgent
valleys. It is not permitted me to tell your waking earth-self of your real
self, but we are all roamers of vast spaces and travelers in many ages. Next
year I may be dwelling in the Egypt which you call ancient, or in the cruel
empire of Tsan Chan which is to come three thousand years hence. You and I have
drifted to the worlds that reel about the red Arcturus, and dwelt in the bodies
of the insect-philosophers that crawl proudly over the fourth moon of Jupiter.
How little does the earth self know life and its extent! How little, indeed,
ought it to know for its own tranquility!
“Of the oppressor I cannot speak. You on earth have unwittingly felt its distant
presence – you who without knowing idly gave the blinking beacon the name of
Algol, the Demon-Star It is to meet and conquer the oppressor that I have vainly
striven for eons, held back by bodily encumbrances. Tonight I go as a Nemesis
bearing just and blazingly cataclysmic vengeance. Watch me in the sky close by
the Demon-Star.
“I cannot speak longer, for the body of Joe Slater grows cold and rigid, and the
coarse brains are ceasing to vibrate as I wish. You have been my only friend on
this planet – the only soul to sense and seek for me within the repellent form
which lies on this couch. We shall meet again – perhaps in the shining mists of
Orion’s Sword, perhaps on a bleak plateau in prehistoric Asia, perhaps in
unremembered dreams tonight, perhaps in some other form an eon hence, when the
solar system shall have been swept away.”
At this point the thought-waves abruptly ceased, the pale eyes of the dreamer –
or can I say dead man? – commenced to glaze fishily. In a half-stupor I crossed
over to the couch and felt of his wrist, but found it cold, stiff, and
pulseless. The sallow cheeks paled again, and the thick lips fell open,
disclosing the repulsively rotten fangs of the degenerate Joe Slater. I
shivered, pulled a blanket over the hideous face, and awakened the nurse. Then I
left the cell and went silently to my room. I had an instant and unaccountable
craving for a sleep whose dreams I should not remember.
The climax? What plain tale of science can boast of such a rhetorical effect? I
have merely set down certain things appealing to me as facts, allowing you to
construe them as you will. As I have already admitted, my superior, old Doctor
Fenton, denies the reality of everything I have related. He vows that I was
broken down with nervous strain, and badly in need of a long vacation on full
pay which he so generously gave me. He assures me on his professional honor that
Joe Slater was but a low-grade paranoiac, whose fantastic notions must have come
from the crude hereditary folk-tales which circulated in even the most decadent
of communities. All this he tells me – yet I cannot forget what I saw in the sky
on the night after Slater died. Lest you think me a biased witness, another pen
must add this final testimony, which may perhaps supply the climax you expect. I
will quote the following account of the star Nova Persei verbatim from the pages
of that eminent astronomical authority, Professor Garrett P. Serviss:
“On February 22, 1901, a marvelous new star was discovered by Doctor Anderson of
Edinburgh, not very far from Algol. No star had been visible at that point
before. Within twenty-four hours the stranger had become so bright that it
outshone Capella. In a week or two it had visibly faded, and in the course of a
few months it was hardly discernible with the naked eye.”

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