Burning Daylight by Jack London

you read about me in the papers and books, about me being a

lady-killer, is all wrong. There’s not an iota of truth in it. I

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guess I’ve done more than my share of card-playing and

whiskey-drinking, but women I’ve let alone. There was a woman

that killed herself, but I didn’t know she wanted me that bad or

else I’d have married her–not for love, but to keep her from

killing herself. She was the best of the boiling, but I never

gave her any encouragement. I’m telling you all this because

you’ve read about it, and I want you to get it straight from me.

“Lady-killer! ” he snorted. “Why, Miss Mason, I don’t mind

telling you that I’ve sure been scairt of women all my life.

You’re the first one I’ve not been afraid of. That’s the strange

thing about it. I just plumb worship you, and yet I’m not afraid

of you. Mebbe it’s because you’re different from the women I

know. You’ve never chased me. Lady-killer! Why, I’ve been

running away from ladies ever since I can remember, and I

guess all that saved me was that I was strong in the wind and

that I never fell down and broke a leg or anything.

“I didn’t ever want to get married until after I met you, and

until a long time after I met you. I cottoned to you from the

start; but I never thought it would get as bad as marriage. Why,

I can’t get to sleep nights, thinking of you and wanting you.”

He came to a stop and waited. She had taken the lace and muslin

from the basket, possibly to settle her nerves and wits, and was

sewing upon it. As she was not looking at him, he devoured her

with his eyes. He noted the firm, efficient hands–hands that

could control a horse like Bob, that could run a typewriter

almost as fast as a man could talk, that could sew on dainty

garments, and that, doubtlessly, could play on the piano over

there in the corner. Another ultra-feminine detail he

noticed–her slippers. They were small and bronze. He had never

imagined she had such a small foot. Street shoes and riding

boots were all that he had ever seen on her feet, and they had

given no advertisement of this. The bronze slippers fascinated

him, and to them his eyes repeatedly turned.

A knock came at the door, which she answered. Daylight could not

help hearing the conversation. She was wanted at the telephone.

“Tell him to call up again in ten minutes,” he heard her say, and

the masculine pronoun caused in him a flashing twinge of

jealousy. Well, he decided, whoever it was, Burning Daylight

would give him a run for his money. The marvel to him was that a

girl like Dede hadn’t been married long since.

She came back, smiling to him, and resumed her sewing. His eyes

wandered from the efficient hands to the bronze slippers and back

again, and he swore to himself that there were mighty few

stenographers like her in existence. That was because she must

have come of pretty good stock, and had a pretty good raising.

Nothing else could explain these rooms of hers and the clothes

she wore and the way she wore them.

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“Those ten minutes are flying,” he suggested.

“I can’t marry you,” she said.

“You don’t love me?”

She shook her head.

“Do you like me–the littlest bit?”

This time she nodded, at the same time allowing the smile of

amusement to play on her lips. But it was amusement without

contempt. The humorous side of a situation rarely appealed in

vain to her.

“Well, that’s something to go on,” he announced. “You’ve got to

make a start to get started. I just liked you at first, and look

what it’s grown into. You recollect, you said you didn’t like my

way of life. Well, I’ve changed it a heap. I ain’t gambling

like I used to. I’ve gone into what you called the legitimate,

making two minutes grow where one grew before, three hundred

thousand folks where only a hundred thousand grew before. And

this time next year there’ll be two million eucalyptus growing on

the hills. Say do you like me more than the littlest bit?”

She raised her eyes from her work and looked at him as she

answered:

“I like you a great deal, but–”

He waited a moment for her to complete the sentence, failing

which, he went on himself.

“I haven’t an exaggerated opinion of myself, so I know I ain’t

bragging when I say I’ll make a pretty good husband. You’d find

I was no hand at nagging and fault-finding. I can guess what it

must be for a woman like you to be independent. Well, you’d be

independent as my wife. No strings on you. You could follow

your own sweet will, and nothing would be too good for you. I’d

give you everything your heart desired–”

“Except yourself,” she interrupted suddenly, almost sharply.

Daylight’s astonishment was momentary.

“I don’t know about that. I’d be straight and square, and live

true. I don’t hanker after divided affections.”

“I don’t mean that,” she said. “Instead of giving yourself to

your wife, you would give yourself to the three hundred thousand

people of Oakland, to your street railways and ferry-routes, to

the two million trees on the hills to everything

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business–and–and to all that that means.”

“I’d see that I didn’t,” he declared stoutly. “I’d be yours to

command.”

“You think so, but it would turn out differently.” She suddenly

became nervous. “We must stop this talk. It is too much like

attempting to drive a bargain. ‘How much will you give?’ ‘I’ll

give so much.’ ‘I want more,’ and all that. I like you, but not

enough to marry you, and I’ll never like you enough to marry

you.”

“How do you know that?” he demanded.

“Because I like you less and less.”

Daylight sat dumfounded. The hurt showed itself plainly in his

face.

“Oh, you don’t understand,” she cried wildly, beginning to lose

self-control–“It’s not that way I mean. I do like you; the more

I’ve known you the more I’ve liked you. And at the same time the

more I’ve known you the less would I care to marry you.”

This enigmatic utterance completed Daylight’s perplexity.

“Don’t you see?” she hurried on. “I could have far easier

married the Elam Harnish fresh from Klondike, when I first laid

eyes on him long ago, than marry you sitting before me now.”

He shook his head slowly. “That’s one too many for me. The more

you know and like a man the less you want to marry him.

Familiarity breeds contempt–I guess that’s what you mean.”

“No, no,” she cried, but before she could continue, a knock came

on the door.

“The ten minutes is up,” Daylight said.

His eyes, quick with observation like an Indian’s, darted about

the room while she was out. The impression of warmth and comfort

and beauty predominated, though he was unable to analyze it;

while the simplicity delighted him–expensive simplicity, he

decided, and most of it leftovers from the time her father went

broke and died. He had never before appreciated a plain hardwood

floor with a couple of wolfskins; it sure beat all the carpets in

creation. He stared solemnly at a bookcase containing acCouple

of hundred books. There was mystery. He could not understand

what people found so much to write about.

Writing things and reading things were not the same as doing

things, and himself primarily a man of action, doing things was

alone comprehensible.

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His gaze passed on from the Crouched Venus to a little tea-table

with all its fragile and exquisite accessories, and to a shining

copper kettle and copper chafing-dish. Chafing dishes were not

unknown to him, and he wondered if she concocted suppers on this

one for some of those University young men he had heard whispers

about. One or two water-colors on the wall made him conjecture

that she had painted them herself. There were photographs of

horses and of old masters, and the trailing purple of a Burial of

Christ held him for a time. But ever his gaze returned to that

Crouched Venus on the piano. To his homely, frontier-trained

mind, it seemed curious that a nice young woman should have such

a bold, if not sinful, object on display in her own room. But he

reconciled himself to it by an act of faith. Since it was Dede,

it must be eminently all right. Evidently such things went along

with culture. Larry Hegan had similar casts and photographs in

his book-cluttered quarters. But then, Larry Hegan was

different. There was that hint of unhealth about him that

Daylight invariably sensed in his presence, while Dede, on the

contrary, seemed always so robustly wholesome, radiating an

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