Only speculation on my part, said Cornelius. All at once, he felt very tired. It was not pleasant to do this to Viken, whom he liked. But you see the dilemma, no? If I am right, then any esman wifi gradually become a Joviana monster with two bodies, of which the human body is the unimportant auxiliary one. This means no esman will ever agree to control a pseudotherefore, the end of your project.
He stood up. Im sorry, Arne. You made me tell you what I think, and now you wifi lie awake worrying, and I am maybe quite wrong and you worry for nothing.
Its all right, mumbled Viken. Maybe youre not wrong.
I dont know. Cornelius drifted toward the door. I am going to try to find some answers tomorrow. Good night.
The moon-shaking thunder of the rockets, crash, crash, crash, leaping from their cradles, was long past. Now the fleet glided on metal wings, with straining secondary ram-jets, through the rage of the Jovian sky.
As Cornelius opened the control-room door, he looked at his telltale board. Elsewhere a voice tolled the word to all the stations, One ship wrecked, two ships wrecked, but Anglesey would let no sound enter his presence when he wore the helmet. An obliging technician had haywired a panel of fifteen red and fifteen blue lights above Cornelius esprojector, to keep him informed, too. Ostensibly, of course, they were only there for Angleseys benefit, though the esman had insisted he wouldnt be looking at them.
Four of the red bulbs were dark and thus four blue ones would not shine for a safe landing. A whirlwind, a thunderbolt, a floating ice meteor, a flock of mantalike birds with flesh as dense and hard as ironthere could be a hundred things which had crumpled four ships and tossed them tattered across the poison forests.
Four ships, hell! Think of four living creatures, with an excellence of brain to rival your own, damned first to years in unconscious night and then, never awakening save for one uncomprehending instant, dashed in bloody splinters against an ice mountain. The wasteful callousness of it was a cold knot in Cornelius belly. It had to be done, no doubt, if there was to be any thinking life on Jupiter at all; but then
let it be done quickly and minimally, he thought, so that the next generation could be begotten by love and not by machines!
He closed the door behind him and waited for a breathless moment. Anglesey was a wheel chair and a coppery curve of helmet, facing the opposite wall. No movement, no awareness whatsoever. Good! It would be awkward, perhaps ruinous, if Anglesey learned of this most intimate peering. But he neednt, ever. He was blindfolded and ear-plugged by his own concentration.
Nevertheless, the psionicist moved his bulky form with care, across the room to the new esprojector. He did not much like his snoopers role, he would not have assumed it at all if he had seen any other hope. But neither did it make him feel especially guilty. If what he suspected was true, then Anglesey was all unawares being twisted into something not human; to spy on him might be to save him.
Gently, Cornelius activated the meters and started his tubes warming up. The oscilloscope built into Angleseys machine gave him the other mans exact alpha rhythm, his basic biological clock. First you adjusted to that, then you discovered the subtler elements by feel, and when your set was fully in phase you could probe undetected and Find out what was wrong. Read Angleseys tortured subconscious
and see what there was on Jupiter that both drew and terrified him. Five ships wrecked.
But it must be very nearly time for them to land. Maybe only five would be lost in all. Maybe ten would get through. Ten comrades forJoe?
Cornelius sighed. He looked at the cripple, seated blind and deaf to the human world which had crippled him, and felt a pity and an anger. It wasnt fair, none of it was.
Not even to Joe. Joe wasnt any kind of soul-eating devil. He did not even realize, as yet, that he was Joe, that Anglesey was becoming a mere appendage. He hadnt asked to be created, and to withdraw his human counterpart from him would very likely be to destroy him.