“Yeah.”
There was a ship out there. He remembered that. “Ben, we’ve got to go back. Please, we’ve got to go back, Cory’s still out there—“
Ben grabbed a fistful of his collar, leaned close and said, in a low voice, “Dekker, shut it down right now or I’m going to kill you. You hear me?”
He said, “That’s all right.” He felt Ben’s hand on him. He saw Ben’s face. He knew where he was men, Bird was asleep and Ben was about to beat hell out of him. But that was all right. He really liked Ben, most of the time. And there hadn’t been much to like where he’d been.
What could a guy do? Ben disengaged himself, and Dekker caught his hand. He pulled free and got out of the door to get his bream.
The doctor was out there, several doctors this time. “He knows you,” Dekker’s surgeon said. Higgins was his name. “You’re the first person he has recognized.”
“Fuckin’ hell! Then he’s cured. I’m out of here.”
“Lt. Pollard,” another doctor said, and offered his hand. “Lt. Pollard, Fm Dr. Evans, chief of psychiatry.”
“Fine. Good. He needs a psych. That’s all that’s going to help him!”
“Lt. Pollard, —“
“Look, what do you want from him? The guy’s schitz, completely off the scope. He doesn’t know where he is, he doesn’t know what happened—“
“Lt. Pollard.” The psych motioned off down the farther hallway. “There’s coffee in the lounge. You’ve had a long flight.”
The psych wanted him to sit down and be reasonable, which he was in no mood to be. But coffee appealed to his upset stomach and his sleep-deprived nerves. And it was not at all a good idea to have a psych telling the local CO you’d been hysterical. You didn’t need that on a record behind another service’s security screen. So he went with the psych, he went through the dance—“White or black, sugar?” “That’s enough, thanks,”—until he could get the weight off his feet, sink into a chair and try not to let Evans see his hands shake while he was drinking.
“So what happened to him?” he asked, before Evans could fire off his own questions.
“That’s what we want to know.”
“So how’d he get like this?”
“That’s another question.”
Deeper and deeper. Ben stared at the doctor and scowled. “So a door got him. Is that it?”
“A simulator did.”
Flight simulator? Dekker? “Hell of a simulation, doctor.”
“Didn’t lock the belts, strong dose of sedative in his bloodstream.”
Shit. Pills again.
Evans said: “We’d like to know how he got there.”
Or maybe not. “You mean somebody put him there?”
“It’s one possibility.”
“Guy has a talent for making friends. Yeah. There’s probably a dozen candidates.”
“Why do you say that?”
Psych question. He thought, Because he’s a fuck-up. Because he has this way of getting himself in trouble and slapping the hand that helps him. But that led to more questions; and screwed Dekker worse than he was with this guy, to whom he owed nothing yet. He said, finally, “Say I didn’t really know him that well.”
“He listed you as next-of-kin.”
“It was a joke. The guy’s foil of them, tot of laughs.”
“We don’t rule out suicide.”
Dekker? he thought. Dekker? Suicide? The idea was more than unlikely. It upset him. And he didn’t figure that, either why they could think mat—if they knew Dekker, which they might not; or how Dekker could come to that—here, in this place that swallowed people down without a word.
“You don’t agree?”
He shrugged. “It’s not him. It’s just not him.”
You didn’t come from where Dekker came from—didn’t survive what he’d survived—and check out like that—in a damn sim. Something wasn’t right, not with the questions, not with Dekker lying in there thinking he was back in the Belt, not with this whole max-classified operation that took a will to live like Dekker’s and put him in that bed, in that condition.
Dekker had looked at him like he was what he’d been waiting for, and said, to his threat of killing him barehanded, That’s all right…
Every time you got near the guy mere was a disaster, Dekker attracted disasters, you could feel it, and, God of all the helldeck preachers, he wanted on that shuttle tonight. Do this effin’ job, get Dekker to figure out where he was, and when he was, make him talk to the psychs, and get out of here while there was still a chance of making that interview—and getting out of this mess.