Now at last the boarding-party were at the American’s gangway, dropping down into the cutter: and there was Dillon, alone. He was replying civilly to the master and to the passengers at the rail. The John B. Christopher was filling – the odd colonial twang of her mate urging the men to ‘clap on to that tarnation brace’ echoed across the sea -and she was under way southwards. The Sophie’s cutter was pulling across the intervening space.
On the way out James had not known what he would do. All that day, ever since he had heard of the squadron’s mission, he had been overwhelmed by a sense of fatality; and now, although he had had hours to think about it, he still did not know what he would do.
He moved as though in a nightmare, going up the American’s side without the slightest volition of his own; and he had known, of course, that he would find Father Mangan.
Although he had done
everything possible, short of downright mutiny or sinking the Sophie, to avoid it; although he had altered course and shortened sail, blackmailing the master to accomplish it, he had known that he would find him. But what he had not known, what he had never foreseen, was that the priest should threaten to denounce him if he did not turn a blind eye. He had disliked the man the moment recognition flashed between them, but in that very first moment he had made up his mind – there was not the slightest possibility of his playing the constable and taking them off. And then came this threat. For a second he had known with total certainty that it did not affect him in the least, but he had hardly reached another breath before the squalor of the situation became unbearable. He was obliged to make a slow pretence of examining all the other passports aboard before he could bring himself under control. He had known that there was no way Out, that whatever course he took would be dishonourable; but he had never imagined that dishonour could be so painful.
He was a proud man; Father Mangan’s satisfied leer wounded him beyond anything he had yet experienced, and with the pain of the wound there came a cloud of intolerable doubts.
The boat touched the Sophie’s side. ‘No such passengers aboard, sir,’ he reported.
So much the better,’ said Jack cheerfully, raising his L hat to the American captain and waving it. ‘West a half south, Mr Marshall; and house those guns, if you please.’ the exquisite fragrance of coffee drifted up from the after hatchway. ‘Dillon, come and breakfast with me,’ he said, taking him familiarly by the arm. ‘You are still looking most ghastly pale.
You must excuse me, sir,’ whispered James, disengaging himself with a look of utter hatred. ‘I am a little out of order.’
Chapter Eight
‘I am entirely at a loss, upon my honour; and so I lay the position before you, confiding wholly in your candour.. I am entirely at a loss: I cannot for the life of me conceive what manner of offence. . . It was not my landing of those monstrously unjust prisoners on Dragon Island (though he certainly disapproved of it), for the trouble began before that, quite early in the morning.’ Stephen listened gravely, attentively, never interrupting; and very slowly, harking back for details overlooked and forward to straighten his chronology by anticipation, Jack laid before him the history of his relations with James Dillon – good, bad; good, bad -with this last extraordinary descent not only inexplicable but strangely wounding, because of the real liking that had grown up, in addition to the esteem. Then there was Marshall’s unaccountable conduct, too; but that was of much Less importance.
With the utmost care, Jack reiterated his arguments about the necessity for having a happy ship if one was to command an efficient fighting machine; he quoted examples of like and contrary cases; and his audience listened and approved. Stephen could not bring his wisdom to the resolution of any of these difficulties, however, nor (as Jack would somewhat ignobly have liked) could he propose his good offices; for he was a merely ideal interlocutor, and his thinking flesh lay thirty leagues to the south and west, across a waste of sea. A rough waste, and a cross sea: after frustrating days of calm, light airs and then a
strong south-wester, the wind had backed easterly in the night, and now it was blowing a gale across the waves that had built up during the day, so that the Sohpie went thumping along under double-reefed topsails and courses, the cross-sea breaking over the weather-bow and soaking the lookout on the fo’c’sle ‘with a grateful spray, heeling James Dillon as he stood on the quarter-deck communing with the Devil and rocking the cot in which Jack silently harangued the darkness.
His was an exceedingly busy life; and yet since he entered an inviolable solitude the moment he passed the sentry at his
cabin door, it let him a great deal of time for reflexion. It was not frittered away in very small exchanges, in listening to three-quarters of a scale on a quavering German flute or in sailors’ politics. ‘I shall speak to him, when we pick him up. I shall speak in the most general way, of the comfort it is to a man to have a confidential friend aboard; and of this singularity in the sailor’s life, that one moment he is so on top of his shipmates, all hugger-mugger in the ward-room, that he can hardly breathe, let alone play anything but a jig on the fiddle, and the next he is pitched into a kind of hermit’s solitude, something he has never known before.’
In times of stress Jack Aubrey had two main reactions: he either became aggressive or he became amorous; he longed either for the violent catharsis of action or for that of making love. He loved a battle: he loved a wench.
‘I quite understand that some commanders take a girl to sea with them,’ he reflected.
‘Apart from the pleasure, think of the refuge of sinking into a warm, lively, affectionate .
Peace. ‘I wish there were a girl in this cabin,’ he added, after a pause.
This disarray, this open, acknowledged incomprehension, were kept solely for his cabin and his ghostly companion, the outward appearance of the Sophie’s captain had nothing hesitant about it, and it would have been a singularly acute observer to tell that the nascent friendship between him and his lieutenant had been cut short The master was such an observer, however, for although Jack’s truly hideous appearance when signed and greased had caused a revulsion for a while, at the same time Jack’s obvious liking for James Dillon had set up a jealousy that
worked in the contrary direction. Furthermore, the master had been threatened in terms that left almost no room for doubt, in very nearly direct terms, and so for an entirely different cause he watched the captain and the lieutenant with painful anxiety.
‘Mr Marshall,’ said Jack in the darkness, and the poor man jumped as though a pistol had been fired behind him, ‘when do you reckon we shall raise the land?’
‘In about two hours’ time, sir, if this wind holds.’
‘Yes: I thought as much,’ said Jack, gazing up into the rigging. ‘I believe you may shake out a reef now, however; and at any further slackening set the topgallants – crack on all you can. And have me called when land is seen, if you please, Mr Marshall.’
Something less than two hours later he reappeared, to view the remote irregular line on the starboard bow: Spain; with the singular mountain the English called Egg-top Hill in line with the best bower anchor, and their watering bay therefore directly ahead.
‘By God, you are a prime navigator, Marshall,’ he said, lowering his glass. ‘You deserve to be master of the fleet.’
It would take them at least an hour to run in, however, and now that the event was so close at hand, no longer at all theoretical, Jack discovered how anxious he was in fact
– how very much the outcome mattered to him.
‘Send my coxswain aft, will you?’ he said, returning to his cabin after he had taken half a dozen uneasy turns.
Barret Bonden, coxswain and captain of the maintop, was unusually young for his post; a fine open-looking creature, tough without brutality, cheerful, perfectly in his place and, of course, a prime seaman – bred to the sea from childhood. ‘Sit down, Bonden,’ said Jack, a little consciously, for what he was about to offer was the quarter-deck, no less, and the possibility of advancement to the very pinnacle of the sailor’s hierarchy. ‘I have been thinking. . . should you like to be rated midshipman?’
‘Why, no sir, not at all,’ answered Bonden at once, his