“You’ve barely arrived,” Suhuy said, “and you’ve taken no refreshment. You make me a poor host.”
“Rest assured, old friend, there is none could perform such a transformation,” he stated. He looked at me as he backed toward the opening way. “Till later,” he said, and I nodded.
He passed into the way, and the rock solidified with his vanishment.
“One wonders at his deliveries,” my mother said, “without apparent rehearsal.”
“Grace,” Suhuy commented. “He was born with an abundance.”
“I wonder who will die today?” she said.
“I am not certain the implication is warranted,” Suhuy replied.
She laughed.
“And if it is,” she said, “they will certainly expire in good taste.”
“Do you speak in condemnation or envy?” he asked.
“Neither,” she said. “For I, too, am an admirer of grace-and a good jest.”
“Mother,” I said, “just what’s going on?”
“Whatever do you mean, Merlin?” she replied.
“I left this place a long time ago. You sent a demon to find me and take care of me. Presumably, it could detect someone of the blood of Amber. So there was some confusion between myself and Luke. So it settled by taking care of both of us-until Luke began his periodic attempts to kill me. Then it protected me from Luke and tried to determine which of us was the proper party. It even lived with Luke for a time, and later pursued me. I should have guessed at something of this because it was so eager to learn my mother’s name. Apparently, Luke was just as closemouthed about his parentage.”
She laughed.
“It makes a beautiful picture,” she began. “Little Jasra and the Prince of Darkness-“
“Don’t try to change the subject. Think how embarrassing that is for a grown man-his mother sending demons to look after him.”
“The singular. It was just one demon, dear.”
“Who cares? The principle’s the same. Where do you get off with this protective business? I resent-“
“The ty’iga probably saved your life on more than one occasion, Merlin.”
“Well, yes. But-“
“You’d rather be dead than protected? Just because it was coming from me?”
“That’s not the point!”
“Then what is the point?”
“It seems you just assumed I couldn’t take care of myself, and-”
“Well, you couldn’t.”
“But you had no way of knowing that. I resented your starting with the assumption that I needed chaperoning in Shadow, that I was naive, gullible, careless-“
“I suppose it would hurt your flings if I said that you were going to a place as different from the Courts as that Shadow is.”
“Yes, I can take care of myself!”
“You weren’t doing that great a job of it. But you are making a number of unwarranted assumptions yourself. What makes you think that the reasons you gave are the only possible ones for my taking such an action?”
“Okay. Tell me that you knew that Luke was going to try to kill me every April thirtieth. And if the answer is yes, why didn’t you just tell me?”
“I did not know that Luke was going to try to kill you every April thirtieth.”
I turned away. I clenched my fists and relaxed them. “So you just did it for the hell of it?”
“Merlin, why do you find it so difficult to admit that other people might sometimes know things you don’t?”
“Start with their unwillingness to tell me these things.”
She was silent a long moment. Then, “I’m afraid there is something to what you say,” she replied. “But there were strong reasons for not talking of such matters.”
“Then start with the inability to tell me. Tell me now why you didn’t trust me then.”
“It wasn’t a matter of trust.”
“Is it okay to tell me now what it was?” Another, longer silence followed.
“No,” she finally said “Not yet.”
I turned toward her, keeping my features composed and my voice level.
“Then nothing has changed,” I said, “nor ever shall. You still do not trust me.”
“That is not true,” she answered, glancing at Suhuy. “It is just that this is not the proper time or the proper place to go into these matters.”
“Might I fetch you a drink or something to eat, Dara?” Suhuy said immediately.