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CHAPTER
EIGHT
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5:52 A.M.
Frederick, Maryland
Sophia lay in the curtained ICU bed gasping for breath, even under oxygen. Hooked to all the machines of a modern hospital, she was held captive by apparatus untouched by who she was or what was wrong with her. Smith held her fevered hand and wanted to yell at the machines: “She’s Sophia Russell. We talk. We laugh. We work together. We make love. We live! We’re going to be married this spring. She’s going to get well, and we’ll marry in just a few months. We’re going to live together until we’re old and gray and still in love.”
He leaned close and said in a strong voice, “You’ll be fine, Soph, my darling.” As he had told countless young soldiers lying shattered in a MASH unit at some front line, he reassured, “You’re going to be well soon. You’ll be up and about and feeling a lot better.” He kept the fear and worry from his tones. He had to bolster their morale; there was always hope. But this was Sophia, and he had to fight harder than he had ever fought in his life to hide his despair. “Just hang on, darling. Please, darling,” he whispered. “Hang on.”
When she was conscious, she tried to smile up at him between shuddering gasps for breath. She squeezed his hand weakly. The fever and struggle to breathe were draining her.
She tried to smile. “…where …were …you …”
Tenderly he laid a finger on her lips. “Don’t try to talk. You need to concentrate on getting well. Sleep, darling. Rest, my beautiful darling.”
Her eyes fell closed as if they were curtains dropping at the end of a play. She seemed to be concentrating, directing all her faculties inward to battle whatever was attacking her. He studied the translucent skin, the fine bones, the graceful arches of her brows. Her face had always had a kind of refined beauty that was somehow made more appealing by the intelligence that lay beneath. But now that fever wracked her, she looked thin and frail against the white hospital sheets. Her skin was almost transparent. Her fevered face had a touch of brilliance to it that frightened him.
A trickle of blood appeared at her left nostril.
Surprised, Smith dabbed at it with a tissue and motioned to the nurse. “Stop that bleeding.”
The nurse took the box of gauze pads. “She must’ve broken a capillary in her nose, poor dear.”
Smith didn’t answer. He strode across the room of machines and blinking lights to where Dr. Josiah Withers, the hospital’s pulmonary specialist, Dr. Eric Mukogawa, the internist from Fort Detrick, and Capt. Donald Gherini, USAMRIID’s best virologist, were consulting in low voices. They looked up as Smith reached them, concern on their faces.
“Well?”
“We’ve tried every antibiotic we can think of that might help,” Dr. Withers told him. “But it appears to be a virus, Dr. Smith. All our efforts to alleviate the symptoms have been useless. She’s responded to nothing.”
Smith swore. “Come up with something. At least stabilize her!”
“Jon” —Captain Gherini put a hand on Smith’s shoulder— “it looks like the virus we got in the lab last weekend. We have every Level Four lab in the world working on it, and so far we haven’t a clue what it is or how to treat it. It looks like a hantavirus, but it isn’t. At least not like any hanta we know.” He grimaced and shook his head sadly. “She must’ve somehow been contaminated—”
Smith stared at Gherim. “You’re saying she made a mistake in the lab, Don? In the Hot Zone? No way! She’s a hell of a lot more careful and skilled than that!”
The base internist said quietly, “We’re doing everything we can, Colonel.”
“Then do more! Do better! Find something, for God’s sake!”
“Doctors! Colonel!”
The nurse stood over the ICU bed where Sophia’s whole body had jerked up into a bow of agony, as if trying to draw one single long breath.
Smith slammed the others aside and ran. “Sophia!”
As he reached her side, she tried to smile.
He took her hand. “Darling?”
Her eyes fell closed, and her hand went limp.
“No!” he roared.
She settled into the bed as if she were weary from a long journey. Her chest stopped moving. After her long battle of gasps and pants, there was sudden, irrevocable silence. And before that could really register, blood gushed from her nose and mouth.
Horrified, unbelieving, Smith jerked his head up to check the monitor. A green line plodded steadily across the screen. Flat. A flatline. Death.
“Paddles!” he bellowed.
The nurse bit back a sob and produced the shock resuscitation electrodes.
He fought panic. He reminded himself that he had treated injured bodies in bloody skirmishes in hot spots around the world. He was a trained physician. He saved lives. That was his job. What he did best. He was going to save Sophia’s life. He could do it.
His gaze on the monitor, he initiated the shock. Sophia’s body curved silently in an arc and fell back.
“Again! ”
Five times he tried, increasing the shock each time. He thought he had brought her back a couple of times. He was almost sure she had responded at least once. She could not be dead. It was impossible.
Captain Gherini touched his wrist. “Jon?”
“No!”
He shocked her again. The monitors remained flat, unresponsive. It had to be a mistake. Certainly a nightmare. He must be asleep and having a nightmare. Sophia was alive. Full of vitality. Beautiful as a summer day. And a smart-aleck. He loved the way she teased him—
He snapped, “Again!”
The pulmonary specialist, Dr. Withers, put his arm around Smith’s shoulders. “Jon, let go of the paddles.”
Smith looked at him. “What?”
But he released the paddles, and Withers took them.
The internist, Dr. Mukogawa, said, “I’m very sorry, Jon. We all are. This is horrible. Unbelievable.” He motioned to the others. “We’ll leave you alone. You’ll need some time.”
They filed out. The curtains closed around Sophia’s bed, and a wasteland of pain took over Smith’s heart. He shook. He dropped down on his knees and pressed his forehead against Sophia’s limp arm. It was warm. He wanted to keep telling himself she was alive. He wanted her to move, to sit up and laugh, to tell him it was all just a bad joke.
A tear slid down his cheek. Angrily he wiped it away. He removed the oxygen tent so he could really see her. She looked so alive still, her skin pink and moist. He sat beside her on the bed. He picked up both her hands and held them in his. He kissed her fingers.
I remember when I first saw you. Oh, you were lovely. And giving that door researcher hell because he had misread the slide. You’re a great scientist, Sophia. The best friend I’ve ever had. And the only woman I ever loved—
He sat and talked to her in his thoughts. He poured out his love. Sometimes he squeezed her hands just as he did when they went to the movies together. Once he looked down and saw his tears had puddled on the sheet. It was a long time before he finally said, “Good-bye, darling.”
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In the hospital waiting room, the long, slow night was over but the morning bustle had yet to begin. Miserable and numb, Smith sat slumped alone in an armchair.
The first day Sophia had walked into the lab at USAMRIID she had started talking before he had even taken his gaze from his microscope. “Randi hates your guts,” she had told him. “I don’t know why. I kind of like the way you took the blame for whatever you did to her and that you were sorry. It was clear you meant it, and you were suffering for it.”
He had turned then, took one look, and knew again why he had badgered the army into bringing her to Fort Detrick. He had seen her first in the NIH lab where she had castigated a careless researcher, and he had been shocked to meet her again at her sister’s place, but those two encounters had been enough to know he wanted to spend time with her. He had sat there under Randi’s angry gaze admiring Sophia. She had long cornsilk hair pulled back in a ponytail and a slim figure full of curves.
She had not missed his interest. That first day in the USAMRIID lab, she had told him, “I’ll take the empty bench over there. You can stop staring at me, and I’ll get to work. Everyone tells me you’re a hotshot combat doctor. I respect that. But I’m a better researcher than you’ll ever be, and you’d better get used to it.”
“I’ll remember that.”
She had stared him straight in the eye. “And keep your dick in your pants until I say take it out.”