Carrying his glass, Pete walked through the apartment and outside, into the cool California evening air; he stood
by himself in the semi-darkness, his drink in his hand, waiting. He did not know for what. For Joe Schilling and Mary Anne to arrive? Perhaps that was it.
Or perhaps it was for something else, something even more meaningful to him than that. I’m waiting for The Game to begin, he said to himself. The last Game we Terrans may ever play.
He was waiting for the Titanian Game-players to arrive.
He thought, Patricia McClain is dead, but in a sense she never really existed; what I saw was a simulacrum, a fake. What I was in love with, if that’s the proper word … it wasn’t there anyhow, so how can I really say I’ve lost it? You have to possess it first to lose it.
Anyhow we can’t think about that, he decided. We’ve got other matters to worry about. Doctor Philipson said that the Game-players are moderates; it’s an irony that what we ultimately have to defeat is not the fringe of extremists but the great center group itself. Maybe it’s just as well; we’re taking on the core of their civilization, vugs not like E. G. Philipson but more like E. B. Black. The reputable ones. The ones who play by the rules.
That’s all we can count on, Pete realized, the fact that these players are law-abiding. If they weren’t, if they were like Philipson and the McClains—
We would not be facing them across a Game-board. They would simply kill us, as they killed Luckman and Hawthorne, and that would be that.
A car descended, now, its headlights flashing; it came to rest at the curb, behind the other cars, and its lights switched off. The door opened and shut and a single figure, a man, came striding toward Pete.
Who was this? He strained to see, not recognizing him.
“Hi,” the man said. “I dropped by. After I read the article in the homeopape. It looks interesting, here. No fnool, I say, buddy-friend. Correct?”
“Who are you?” Pete said.
The man said coolly, “You don’t recognize me? I thought everyone knew who I am. Awop, awop woom. May I sit in on your group, tonight. Buddy, buddy, buddy; I know I’d enjoy it.” He approached the porch, stood now beside Pete,
his movements confident and alert, hand extended. “I’m Nats Katz.”
Bill Calumine said, “Of course you can sit in on our Game, Mr. Katz. It’s an honor to have you here.” He waved the members of Pretty Blue Fox into momentary silence. “This is the world-renowned disc jokey and recording star Nats Katz, whom we all watch on TV; he’s asked to sit in on our meeting tonight. Does anybody mind?”
The group was watching, uncertain how to react.
What was it Mary Anne had said about Katz? Pete thought. Is Nats Katz the center of all this? he had asked her. And she had said yes. And, at the time, it had seemed true.
Pete said, “Wait.”
Turning, Bill Calumine said, “Surely there’s no valid reason to object to this man’s presence here. I can’t believe you’d seriously—”
“Wait until Mary Anne gets here,” Pete said. “Let her decide about Katz.”
“She’s not even a part of the group,” Freya Gaines said.
There was silence.
“If he comes in,” Pete said, “I go out.”
“Out where?” Calumine said.
Pete said nothing.
“A girl who isn’t even part of our group—” Calumine began.
“What’s your basis for opposing him?” Stuart Marks asked Pete. “Is it rational? Something you are able to express?” They were all watching him, now, wondering what his reason was.
Pete said, “We’re in a much worse position than any of you realize. There’s very little chance that we can win against our opponents.”
“So?” Stuart Marks said. “What’s that have to do—”
“I think,” Pete said, “that Katz is on their side.”
After a moment Nats Katz laughed. He was handsome, dark, with sensuous lips and strong, intelligent eyes. “That’s a new one,” he said. “I’ve been accused of just about everything, but hardly that. Awop woom! I was born in Chicago, Mr. Garden. I assure you; I’m a Terran. Woom, woom, woom!” His round, animated face radiated a potent cheer-
fulness. Katz did not seem offended, only surprised. “What will you see, my birth certificate? You know, buddy-friend Garden woom, I really am well-known here and there, no fnool. If I were a vug it probably would have come to light before now. Wouldn’t you think? Correct?”
Pete sipped his drink; his hands, he found, were shaking. Have I lost contact with reality? he asked himself. Maybe so. Maybe I never fully recovered from my binge, my temporary psychotic interlude. Am I the person to judge about Katz?
Should I be here at all? he wondered.
Maybe this is the end for me, he said to himself. Not for them; for me. Personally. At last.
Aloud, he said, “I’m going out. I’ll be back later.” Turning, he set his drink glass down and left the room; he descended the porch steps and arrived at his car. Getting in, he slammed the door and sat in silence for a long, long time.
Maybe I’m more of a detriment to the group than an asset at this point, he said to himself. He lit a cigarette, then abruptly dropped it into the disposal chute of the car. For all I know, Nats might even come up with the idea we need; he’s an imaginative guy.
Someone was standing on the porch, calling him; the voice drifted to him faintly. “Hey, Pete, what’re you doing? Come on back inside!”
Pete started up the car. “Let’s go,” he ordered it.
“Yes, Mr. Garden.” The car moved forward, then lifted from the pavement, skimmed above the other parked cars, beep-beeping, then above the rooftops of Carmel; at last, it headed toward the Pacific, a quarter mile west.
All I have to do, Pete thought idly, is give it the command to land. Because in another minute we’ll be over water.
Would the Rushmore circuit do that? Probably.
“Where are we?” he asked it, to see if it knew.
“Over the Pacific Ocean, Mr. Garden.”
“What would you do,” he said, “If I asked you to set down?”
There was a moment of silence. “Call Doctor Macy at—” It hesitated; he heard the unit clicking, trying different combinations. “I would set down,” it decided. “As instructed.”
It had chosen. Had he?
I shouldn’t be this depressed, he told himself.” I shouldn’t be doing things like this; it isn’t reasonable.
But he was.
For a time he managed to look down at the dark water below. And then, with a turn of the tiller, he steered the car into a wide arc until it was skimming back toward land. This way isn’t for me, Pete said to himself. Not the ocean. I’ll pick up something at the apartment, something I can take; a bottle or so of phenobarbital, maybe. Or Emphytal.
He flew above Carmel, going north, and presently his car was passing above South San Francisco. And a few minutes later he was over Marin County. San Rafael lay directly ahead. He gave the Rushmore circuit the instructions to land at his apartment building; settling back, he waited.
“Here we are, sir.” The car bumped the curb slightly. The motor clicked itself off; the car dutifully opened its door.
Pete stepped out, walked to the building door, put his key in the lock and then entered.
Upstairs, he reached the door of his and Carol’s apartment; the door was unlocked and he opened it and passed on inside.
The lights were on. In the living room a lanky, middle-aged man sat in the center of the couch, legs crossed, reading the Chronicle.
“You forget,” the man said, tossing the newspaper down, “that a pre-cog previews every possibility that he’s later going to know about. And a suicide on your part would be big news.” Dave Mutreaux rose to his feet, hands in his pockets; he seemed completely at ease. “This would be an especially unfortunate time for you to kill yourself, Garden.”
“Why?” Pete demanded.
Mutreaux said quietly, “Because if you don’t, you’re on the verge of finding an answer to the Game-problem. The answer to how one bluffs a race of telepaths. I can’t give it to you; only you can think it up. But it’s going to be there. Not, however, if you’re dead ten minutes from now.” He nodded in the direction of the bathroom and its medicine cabinet. “I’ve done a little rigging along the lines of the alternate future I’d like to see become actual; while I’ve
been here I’ve disposed of your pills. The medicine cabinet is empty.”
Pete went at once into the bathroom and looked.
Not even the aspirin remained. He saw only bare shelves.
To the medicine cabinet he said, angrily, “You let him do this?”