The question roused him to the sense that their minutes were numbered, and that if he did not immediately get to his point there might be no other chance of making it.
“My chief reason is that I believe he’s too young and inexperienced to give you the kind of support you need.”
At his words her face changed again, freezing to a tragic coldness. She stared straight ahead of her, perceptibly struggling with the tremor of her muscles; and when she had controlled it she flung out a pale-lipped pleasantry. “But you see I’ve always had to support myself!”
“He’s a boy,” Darrow pushed on, “a charming, wonderful boy; but with no more notion than a boy how to deal with the inevitable daily problems…the trivial stupid unimportant things that life is chiefly made up of.” “I’ll deal with them for him,” she rejoined.
“They’ll be more than ordinarily difficult.”
She shot a challenging glance at him. “You must have some special reason for saying so.”
“Only my clear perception of the facts.”
“What facts do you mean?”
Darrow hesitated. “You must know better than I,” he returned at length, “that the way won’t be made easy to you.”
“Mrs. Leath, at any rate, has made it so.”
“Madame de Chantelle will not.”
“How do you know that?” she flung back.
He paused again, not sure how far it was prudent to reveal himself in the confidence of the household. Then, to avoid involving Anna, he answered: “Madame de Chantelle sent for me yesterday.”
“Sent for you–to talk to you about me?” The colour rose to her forehead and her eyes burned black under lowered brows. “By what right, I should like to know? What have you to do with me, or with anything in the world that concerns me?”
Darrow instantly perceived what dread suspicion again possessed her, and the sense that it was not wholly unjustified caused him a passing pang of shame. But it did not turn him from his purpose.
“I’m an old friend of Mrs. Leath’s. It’s not unnatural that Madame de Chantelle should talk to me.”
She dropped the screen on the table and stood up, turning on him the same small mask of wrath and scorn which had glared at him, in Paris, when he had confessed to his suppression of her letter. She walked away a step or two and then came back.
“May I ask what Madame de Chantelle said to you?”
“She made it clear that she should not encourage the marriage.”
“And what was her object in making that clear to you?”
Darrow hesitated. “I suppose she thought—-”
“That she could persuade you to turn Mrs. Leath against me?”
He was silent, and she pressed him: “Was that it?” “That was it.”
“But if you don’t–if you keep your promise—-”
“My promise?”
“To say nothing…nothing whatever…” Her strained look threw a haggard light along the pause.
As she spoke, the whole odiousness of the scene rushed over him. “Of course I shall say nothing…you know that…” He leaned to her and laid his hand on hers. “You know I wouldn’t for the world…”
She drew back and hid her face with a sob. Then she sank again into her seat, stretched her arms across the table and laid her face upon them. He sat still, overwhelmed with compunction. After a long interval, in which he had painfully measured the seconds by her hard-drawn breathing, she looked up at him with a face washed clear of bitterness.
“Don’t suppose I don’t know what you must have thought of me!”
The cry struck him down to a lower depth of self-abasement. “My poor child,” he felt like answering, “the shame of it is that I’ve never thought of you at all!” But he could only uselessly repeat: “I’ll do anything I can to help you.”
She sat silent, drumming the table with her hand. He saw that her doubt of him was allayed, and the perception made him more ashamed, as if her trust had first revealed to him how near he had come to not deserving it. Suddenly she began to speak.
“You think, then, I’ve no right to marry him?”