Muttered in his sleep, turning his back to her as she passed.
She stood with her face a few inches from the glass, feeling the chill that radiated from it. Nothing on the deck but a ghostly white chair, empty beer cans. Where was he?
The stair to the second floor was a spiral, wedge-shaped sections of very thick wood spun out from an iron shaft. She took that now, the carbon-fiber pedal clips set into the soles of her shoes clicking with each step.
Tessa waited at the top, slim blonde shadow bulked in a puffy coat Chevette knew was burnt-orange in daylight. “The van’s parked next door,” she said. “Let’s go.”
“Where?”
“Up the coast. My grant came through. I was up talking to Mum, telling her that, when the boyfriend arrived.”
“Maybe he just wants to talk,” Chevette said. She’d told Tessa about him hitting her that time. Now she half regretted it.
“I don’t think that’s a chance you want to take. We’re away, right? See? I’m packed.” Bumping her hip against the bulging rectangle of a gear bag slung from her shoulder.
“I’m not,” Chevette said. 36 “You never unpacked, remember?” Which was true. “We’ll go out over the deck, go ’round past Barbara’s, get in the van: we’re gone.”
“No,” Chevette said, “let’s wake everybody up, turn on the outside lights. What can he do?” “I don’t know what he can do. But he can always come back. He knows you’re here now. You can’t stay.” “I don’t know for sure he’d try to hurt me, Tessa.”
“Want to be with him?”
“Did you invite him here?”
“No.”
‘Want to see him?” Hesitation. “No.”
“Then get your bag.” Tessa pushed past, leading with the gear bag. “Now,” she said, over her shoulder, descending.
Chevette opened her mouth to say something, then closed it. Turned, felt her way along the corridor, to the door to her room. A closet, this had been, though bigger inside than some houses on the bridge. A frosted dome came on in the ceiling when you opened the door. Someone had cut a thick slab of foam so that it fit the floor, down half the length of the narrow, windowless space, between an elaborate shoe rack of some pale tropical hardwood and a baseboard of the same stuff. Chevette had never seen anything made of wood that was put together that well, The whole house was like that, under the sharehouse dirt, and she’d wondered who’d lived in it before, and how they’d felt about having to leave. Whoever it was, to judge by the rack, had had more shoes than Chevette had owned in her life.
Her knapsack sat at the end of the narrow foam bed. Like Tessa had said, still packed. Open, though. The mesh bag with her toilet stuff and makeup beside it. Skinner’s old biker jacket hung above it, shoulders set broad and confident on a fancy wooden hanger. Black once, its horsehide had gone mostly gray with wear and time. Older than she was, he’d said. A pair of new black jeans were draped over the rod beside it. She pulled these down and worked her feet out of the riding shoes. Got the Jeans on over her shorts. A black sweatshirt from the open mouth of the
37 knapsack. Smell of clean cotton as she pulled it over her head; she’d washed everything, at Carson’s, when she’d decided she was leaving. She crouched at the foot of the foam, lacing up lug-soled high-tops, no socks. Stood and took Skinner’s jacket from the hanger. It was heavy, as if it retained the weight of horses. She felt safer in it. Remembering how she’d always ridden with it in San Francisco, in spite of the weight. Like armor.
“Come on.” Tessa, calling softly from the living room.
Tessa had come over to Carson’s with another girl, South African, the day they’d first met, to interview him about his work at Real One. Something had clicked; Chevette smiling back at the skinny blonde whose features were all a little too big for her face; who looked great anyway and laughed and was so smart.
Too smart, Chevette thought, stuffing the mesh bag into the knapsack, because now she was on her way to San Francisco with her, and she wasn’t sure that was such a good idea.